May 13, 2017
So you know when you’re trying to adult and do some grown up things like laundry or dishes but you’re just so tired? You figure a short, little nap is just what you need to give you the energy to complete those tasks.
HA! Short little nap my @ss!
I decided one of those things was in order at about 4:00 pm yesterday. Figured a solid 45 minutes couldn’t hurt.
SURPRISE! I woke up at 6:15 am this morning! Fully clothed. Dinner still sitting out.
Think I needed the rest by chance?
May 12, 2017
Friday. Formerly known as Gin Friday. More recently known as Gym Friday. Today it’s known as….well, Friday.
This may sound crazy but I’m most looking forward to some hours of peace and quiet and maybe even some fresh clean laundry.
May 11, 2017
Can we just pause for a second to talk about how quickly you can form bonds with people when you come together for a common goal?
I have been incredibly lucky to be on this journey with some pretty cool women.
I’ve been able to spend a lot of time thinking about how life would be different if I hadn’t signed up. Yep, I’d be about 15% higher in body fat. I’d probably be snacking on some terrible treats right now. And I likely would not have seen the inside of a gym.
But you know what the biggest loss would have been? Those women. They are each amazing in their own right.
I’m a firm believer in Reason, Season, Lifetime. And I thank each and every one of them for their part in my Reason, Season, Lifetime.
May 10, 2017
They say fresh air is good for you. And I have to agree.
While I wasn’t feeling up to a whole lot, it sure felt good to sit on the porch swing and watch my munchkin create a boat.
Watching her decorate it and create an ocean scene to go along with it made me smile. Listening to her giggle as she rowed through a raging storm was priceless.
It may seem so minor but it was exactly what the doctor ordered. Ahoy there matey!
May 8, 2017
Let’s continue on this discussion about friends.
I have some truly inspirational, supportive and loving folks around me. When I joined this challenge that wasn’t an area I was looking to supplement. It wasn’t even on the possibility radar. My Tribe was full. Not full as in “no more room at the inn” but full as in “you complete me”.
So can you imagine my surprise when I realized I was forming meaningful relationships with these women? Some of these women have seen my darkest times right off the bat and have been in my corner, unafraid of that darkness. Some of these women are women I would do ANYTHING for.
If that isn’t the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, I don’t know what is.
May 7, 2017
You know what’s awesome? When a long time friend you haven’t spoken to in almost forever sends you a message to say they’re proud of you.
A) That feels super awesome.
B) You know it’s a great friendship when you can just pick up where you left off. Like no time has passed.
Something I’m very proud of in life is the relationships I have built. It’s something that I hold very dear. And it’s something that provides me with the perfect pick me up. Right on time.
May 6, 2017
Alright. So I’ve mentioned being stressed and sad. And I’ve talked about finding joy in little things. What I haven’t mentioned is what’s really going on for me.
Why haven’t I? Because it’s hard. It’s personal. It’s private. And the biggest reason? There’s such a ridiculous stigma around it.
Well guess what? I don’t friggin care anymore. I feel like being ashamed or embarrassed sets me further and further back.
And it IS the first week of May. So really, it’s the perfect time to open up.
I’m battling mental health issues. Something fierce at the moment. I don’t want to get out of bed. I don’t want to see the light of day. I just want to cry. All. The. Time.
I’m lucky to have an incredible support network. Family and friends who’ll give me space and quiet sometimes. Family and friends who will force me out of my funk every so often. To keep me grounded.
That’s pretty damn awesome.
If you know someone dealing with mental health issues but you don’t quite comprehend it….try to. Like, REALLY try to. It’s the best gift you can give someone.
May 5, 2017
Friday. Cinqo de Mayo. What’s everyone doing for it? Eating yummy tacos? Drinking frosty margaritas?
Whatever it is, have a few for me. I’m in full dedication mode. My eating is ridiculously on track. Is it because of the challenge? No.
It’s because right now I could break. I could break down. I could easily get back on the “Woe is me” train.
I’m in a funk. I’m sad. I’m hurt. I’m angry. I’m scared. I’m worried. I’m tired. I’m worn out.
But I’m sticking with it. I know I’ve got to channel all my new found knowledge. My new strength. My new willpower.
I will beat all of those yucky emotions. It just may take a bit of time.
May 4, 2017
The dreaded day. The start of voting.
This time I refuse to worry. I refuse to stress out about it. Life is full of too many other things to obsess over something out of my control.
Does that mean I don’t want your votes? HECK NO. Of course I do. I’d love to see this journey through right to the bitter end. But honestly, it’s not a bitter end. I’ve seen so much change in myself. Not just physically but, hey, that’s a definite bonus.
I said it early on and I truly mean it…Look Ma, your little girl IS growing up!
Although I can’t document the non-physical changes in pictures, you’ve no doubt gotten some sense of them through this blog. And thank you for taking the time to share this adventure with me.
Since the physical changes can be displayed through pictures I’ll leave you with these gems….
Yup….total BABE. Feel free to send some love and votes my way.
So much love!
May 3, 2017
Any parent, let alone any single parent, knows that you take your rest whenever and wherever you can get it.
Any parent also knows that razor sharp hearing and eagle eye sight you develop.
So when the house goes silent, you know something’s up. And you bolt awake, filled with dread. Right?
Hmm. Maaaaybe not.
Waking up from a wee nap to find new body art and pictures to prove it happened is priceless.
See? It really IS the little things.
May 2, 2017
Sooooooooo. It’s Tuesday. Weigh and measure day. I KNOW you didn’t forget. I mean, how could you. No doubt you’re on pins and needles waiting to hear.
Should I make you wait any longer? Naahhh.
Weight: Down 5.8 lbs (for a total of 17.6 lbs)
Inches: Down 2 inches (for a total of 20 inches)
HELLS TO THE YEAH!
It’s been a friggin tough week. So hard to stay on track. Wanting desperately to numb my feelings and console my heartache with treats. Remember that Haagen Dazs? And that Lindt Intense Orange chocolate? And chips? Mmm, I do.
But guess what? I put my big girl panties on and dealt with life. In the responsible way. Not the emotional way.
Now tell me I don’t freaking rock. Bahaha, you can’t. Because you KNOW I DO!
May 1, 2017
Blogging. My blog.
I was unaware how therapeutic it could be. I know, I know….it’s journaling. Something experts have recommended for ages.
For some reason I hadn’t opened my mind up to it.
I think the fact I can share my goals, frustrations and funnies with others is appealing. It provides a little sense of accomplishment. Surely someone out there, somewhere, takes something from it. Even if it’s a little chuckle at my sheer dorkiness. I’m totally ok with that.
Blogging may have to be a part of my journey going forward. Awesome sauce.
April 29, 2017
FROCK – noun
April 28, 2017
Sometimes I feel like I’m preaching to you. I keep saying how the challenge has brought amazing people into my life. How my support network is strengthened in ways I didn’t know possible.
Well guess what….I preach it because it’s true.
At an absolutely low time…and I mean LOW…the lovely ladies I’m “competing” with had the thought, desire and effort to send some love and strength my way.
How lucky am I?
April 27, 2017
Hamster wheel. Roller coaster. They say life is a ride and they aren’t lying. So buckle up, Halford.
One thought/phrase that’s been repeated multiple times throughout this challenge (and I’m FINALLY getting it) is “in the event of a loss of cabin pressure…secure your own mask first before helping others.”
Did you read that last part?
Secure your own mask first before helping others.
Secure. Your. Own. Mask. First.
Earth to Jenn. How many times must one hear this, see this or read this before you truly get it?
Answer: Lots. I get it now.
April 26, 2017
If only I ran as fast (and as long) on the treadmill as the hamster on the wheel in my brain runs. Man that guy is working overtime. He must be on triple time by now.
Since the Best Kept Secret to Success in Life, Love and Business seminar this weekend my brain has been aflutter. I see the direction I want to go in and want to start taking the steps to get there. Alright, you know that’s not totally true. I want to just fast forward and BE there.
But I’m learning to embrace the journey and actually enjoy the view!
I know I haven’t really spilled all the beans to you yet. Secretive? A bit. But mostly because I haven’t mapped the road yet. Should I give you a little hint? Would you like that? Of course you would.
My future will hold public speaking. Team building. Morale boosting. Self defence.
Excited? Yep, me too!
April 25, 2017
Any chance you’ll forget it’s Tuesday? Oh wait, not if I keep reminding you.
So yes, weigh in night. No doubt you can guess, with my excitement, where this is going.
But in keeping with the tradition….. *drum roll*
Weight: Up 1.4 lbs (Total loss: 11.8 lbs )
If I’m being honest, I’m very disappointed in that number. I definitely indulged in treats this weekend, no doubt. But I made sure to keep active too. Clearly I went too hard one way and not hard enough the other.
So here we are. A few weeks from the end of this challenge. With the numbers increasing. That’s not cool. This is still a challenge after all.
So I’ve got two choices. 1) Be disappointed, get down on myself and say screw it. 2) Get my butt in gear and fight like hell.
Any idea which option I’ll choose? Stay tuned…..
PS. I still wouldn’t change it. This really IS life.
April 24, 2017
Well. Shit. Talk about pendulum swing.
My sweet little munchkin is still struggling. Right now my heart is so incredibly broken. It feels like it’s shattered into a million pieces.
The worst feeling in the world is seeing your little one struggle so hard and not being able to “fix it”. What I wouldn’t give to just relieve her of those struggles.
Realizing that I don’t have the miracle cure I’ve started to reach out to those who may have the expertise, training and experience. Something’s gotta give. For all of our sakes.
April 23, 2017
To say I’m absolutely and completely spent would be a huge understatement. But this time, it’s in such a good way. I feel exhausted. Drained. Yet energized. Excited. On fire.
We had to say goodbye to the glorious beach and cabin that was home for 3 days. A breakfast with stellar women seemed to be the perfect way to send ourselves off.
After a beautiful ferry ride and drive with my girlies, I got to give that little munchkin of mine a great, big hug. If that just doesn’t overflow your heart, what will?
April 22, 2017
Socks? Knocked off.
Remember that spark I mentioned? There was a special woman who took that spark and ignited a damn fire inside of me. I was instantly drawn to her. I call her Ginge. After today, I am positive that she was placed into my life for a reason.
I’m not sure I’ve been this excited in…well, ever. And I highly doubt that Ginge even knows the beast she’s unlocked.
I’m not ready to share a whole ton of what the fire means for me yet. Just know, it’s great things. And I am beyond excited.
Ginge…thank you in advance. https://www.facebook.com/OneMindandBody/
After a nice dinner with the girlies we held an epic dance party in Cabin 443. And I do mean, EPIC. 4 hours long. Great dance moves. Ridiculous challenges. And amazing laughs. Thank you ladies….these are lifetime memories!
April 21, 2017
Have you ever had that feeling that you had no idea what you were in for? Yeah, that was us with this seminar.
There was something powerful about the energy in the room. As the day progressed it became obvious why. Those women. The brave, intelligent and passionate women who filled the room. We were surrounded by nothing less than pure awesomeness.
These women, all strangers before today, helped break down my barriers and show my vulnerability. This isn’t something I share lightly. But I felt so calm. At peace. Beyond safe.
I started to recognize the inner workings of this glorious person named Jenn. (With 2 N’s…it matters)
I could feel a spark lighting. That’s a great feeling.
After an intense day I took a walk to the beach and we were treated to a dip in the mineral pool at The Grotto Spa. Ahhhhhhh-may-zing! This was most definitely the best way to wind down from a mentally and emotionally spent day.
April 20, 2017
Does anyone even know how much I love road trips? I just freaking love them.
Ours started off with a torrential downpour in Abby. I was hoping that wasn’t a sign of what was to come. But once I had Gwenny and Carly in my car, the skies started brightening up. Seriously, the world brightens up around them!
Beautiful sights on the ferry ride over. But WOW, the cabin knocked my socks off! We’re in for a great weekend!
But let’s talk about the moment that really blew me away. Three of the twelve of us had to volunteer to walk off the ferry and meet a ride waiting for us. I instantly volunteered. Not sure why just figured, why not? As I was heading out I heard someone call my name.
It was Paul. A dear friend and amazing person. I hadn’t seen him in months. Since he moved to the island actually. Turns out he was headed over to the mainland. If I hadn’t volunteered to walk off, I never would have seen him. Although it was brief, it was perfect. Started my time away off on the most fantastic of notes. So. Much. Love.
April 19, 2017
Tomorrow the Top 6 in each city hit the road. Off to a seminar/retreat weekend. How freaking cool is that?
I think we’re all due for some time away. We’ll learn some things about ourselves. We’ll bond. And with that extra night away, we’ll recharge. Much needed!
I told my group I was bringing snacks.
But they’re really getting this…..
Think they’ll be mad? *Hee hee*
April 18, 2017
Yes, yes, it’s Tuesday. Weigh and measures. After a long, glorious, food-filled weekend.
*Drum roll* (maybe uber quiet this time)
Weight: Up. About 1.6 lbs. (Our last week’s weigh in wasn’t on the sheet so this is the worst case #)
Inches: Up. 2 inches.
Disappointing for sure, but definitely expected. I enjoyed all the holiday festivities and paid the price. Both in those numbers and in how I felt after. Still a good lesson.
So forget the weigh in, let’s get to the good stuff. Paint Night at Zealous Art! Such a great night to have all the Langley and Abby challengers in one room. It really does feel like we’re nearing the end of this adventure.
And yes, it is certainly an adventure!
April 17, 2017
Well now, THAT was a weekend! It was crammed so full of awesomeness that I can hardly process it all.
None of it was relaxing yet I feel incredibly rejuvenated. From start to finish this weekend was about feeding my soul. Sometimes it was fed with chocolate, turkey, chocolate, gravy, chocolate, ham, chocolate and ice cream. Other times it was fed with laughter, love, hugs, laughter, exercise and laughter.
Though that pesky scale may disagree tomorrow, I think it sounds like the perfect balance!
April 16, 2017
Well it was touch and go for a bit….but the Easter Bunny did come this year. And Mother Nature was in fine form too. Why not start your day with a sunny Easter egg hunt?
The EB must have been aware of the challenge this Mommy is participating in. He was kind enough to bring a few treats but focused on more unique or creative little treasures. Do It Yourself Tattoos or a Yo-Yo competition anyone?
What a glorious weekend! LOOOOOOOOOOVE!
April 15, 2017
Mmmm, Easter dinner. Who am I kidding? Any family dinner is a much anticipated event.
Honestly, the last couple days have been amazing. Perfect actually. Well, maybe if the food consumed was zero calories it would be perfect. LOL
The munchkin and I stopped at the mall just to “see” some things. It turned out to be an awesome trip to the mall. Sure we picked up a few goodies but best of all we had some cool experiences while we were there.
An impromptu (and FREE) visit and picture with the Easter Bunny. Handmade keychains. Sales on everything we went to “look” at. LOVE!
Top the day off with an incredible feast with a group of people I admire and adore. What more can a girl ask for?
April 14, 2017
There are a few things in life that make me excessively happy. Like, ridiculously, deliriously happy. My sister coming to town is one of those things!
And guess who’s in town?!?! Ooooh yeah, my heart just may explode!
Even more special is the fact that we got surprise her with a little celebration. See, she’s at a really special stage in her life. She’s recently engaged. And it suits her.
There was no better way to celebrate than a day filled with High Tea and shopping in the Fort. The weather was beautiful…making the day just that much more perfect.
April 13, 2017
Where does one begin? This day is incredibly bittersweet for me. If I’m being honest, it’s more bitter actually.
12 years ago a very special boy was born. Although he wasn’t my son, he was the next best thing. I was lucky to call him my stepson. I loved that kid. I still do.
Unfortunately, relationships change and family makeups are altered. Sometimes beyond your control.
This day is difficult for me. I have a desire to send some love and ketchup chips his way. He looooves ketchup chips and can’t get them where he lives. I’ve been asked to refrain from doing so. And that hurts my heart. I hope he knows I’m always thinking of him.
See? More bitter than sweet. This day is one to be celebrated. And I still do so. Silently.
April 12, 2017
Tired – check
Amazed – check
Humbled – check
Honoured – check
Emotional – check, check, check
I was clearly wearing my heart on my sleeve today. In an almost vulnerable fashion. I’m so proud of how far I’ve come. And I’m so stinking proud of many of the other challengers. I’ve seen so many of them humbly accept their fate in the challenge. And be genuinely happy and supportive of those who made it through. That takes character. And that does not go unnoticed. I’m so blessed to still have these women in my corner. Pushing me to test my limits. Encouraging me to succeed. Ready to pick me up if I fall and send me back on my way.
Even the cheerleader needs a cheering squad sometimes.
April 11, 2017
As previously mentioned, today was brought to you by the letters…
O M G
Followed by a whole bunch of !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Top 5 and Wild Card were announced tonight. No doubt you’ve already figured out the news.
TOP 5 BABY! I’m ridiculously excited. And nervous. I had my eyes on the leadership seminar at Tigh Na Mara. This challenge has awakened many things in me. My passion for team building, leadership and building other up most specifically. I’m looking forward to developing those passions and seeing where they can take me.
The other remaining challengers are fierce competitors so I’ma haveta step up ma game. I mean, I’ve come this far, why stop now?
April 10, 2017
Sleep? What’s that? Why would I be sleeping the night before the big announcement?
Tomorrow will be brought to you by the letters LBD. And OMG. Maybe some SMH or WTF.
Either way, one thing is for certain…I’m not done. Don’t get me wrong. I want Top 5. Like reeeeeeaaaaaaallllllly want Top 5. But if, for some reason, it’s not in the cards it just means it wasn’t meant for me.
I’m destined to do great things. For myself. For others. This challenge came to me when it did for a reason. And I will give that reason meaning and purpose.
That being said…cross everything for me. Think happy thoughts. Send positive vibes. If this was skating I’d ask you call on Tonya Harding for me. Ok, not really….but you get the point.
Friends…THANK YOU! This adventure would not be possible or nearly as awesome if it wasn’t for you! xoxo
PS. I’m even shaving my legs for this. Seriously wish me luck.
April 9, 2017
A little 8 am gym sesh. A fabulous hair appointment. A glorious nap. And a successful grocery shop and meal prep.
That’s how Sundays are spent. Except next Sunday. That will be spent in a turkey coma. Willingly self induced.
Holiday dinners are my jam. Turkey, potatoes and gravy, OH MY! And let’s not forget the ham, coleslaw, salad, brussels, corn, carrots and CHOCOLATE! Yummmm!
Great, now I’m hungry.
April 8, 2017
So how does one celebrate the recent return to being a human?
A MAKEOVER! That’s how! One of the many benefits to the challenge was a complimentary makeup application at Shoppers. Man, did Melissa (at Seven Oaks Shoppers) knock it out of the park!
Not sure I’ve ever been complimented this many times in one day. I KNOW, SHOCKING!
Next up….being Mean Mommy. While my little one was out I cleaned out her room. Note I didn’t say cleaned UP. I cleaned OUT. Little Miss will have to be comfortable with books, art stuff and some stuffies. At least until we get back on track with our behaviour.
That certainly didn’t negate date night though. Our date routine has been slightly amended since the challenge started and tonight we got back to basics. Undoubtedly good for both of our souls. She sure is an awesome date.
April 7, 2017
Listen, I don’t want to make you jealous. So please turn away if you are over worked and under rested.
I think I’ve sleep more in the last 3 days than I have in the last 3 years. No joke. Either sleep is what I needed to kick this bug’s @ss or my body staged an inner protest and demanded to have its needs met.
Either way, sleep for the win! I’m definitely not 100% but I’m human again. Look out world, I’m coming for you.
(I doubt I looked this adorable, however)
April 6, 2017
Day two of I Don’t Know What This Is But Please Make It Go Away!
It’s been a while since I’ve been knocked on my butt this hard. And I don’t even care that I’m sick. I care that I’m not making it to bootcamp, Zumba or the gym. WHO IS THIS PERSON? Someone has taken over my body. I never would have believed those words would come out of MY mouth.
The bright side? Naps. Gosh, those are glorious things.
April 5, 2017
So who doesn’t love waking up feeling like you’ve been hit by a Mack truck?
Oh, you don’t? Yeah, neither do I.
There is one very HUGE benefit to the day, however. Voting closed at noon! Yes, that’s a good thing!!! Final weigh in and measures for this segment is done. Voting is over. Now I sit back, like a normal person, and wait. My fate will be what my fate will be.
I can’t say I’ve given it my ALL. I’ve slipped. I’ve stumbled. But, I’ve picked myself up, dusted myself off and gotten back down to business. That, my friends, is an epic win for me.
Thank you for riding this roller coaster with me. I appreciate each and every one of you beyond measure.
April 4, 2017
Ok, since the cat is out of the bag, I have to share this…
That team I’ve been raving about? The Rack Pack. That fundraiser we worked incredibly hard on? Beyond successful.
Anyone want to know how much we raised as a team?
Yes, you read that RIGHT! Tell me that’s not one freaking amazing team!
And now on to the regular Tuesday programming…Weigh and measure night.
Weight: Down 1.6 lbs (Total of 14 lbs)
Inches: Down 1.7 inches (Total of 20 inches)
All in all, I’d say that is a successful night!
High Five Rack Packers!
April 3, 2017
Well. Poop. Mondays are already the most blah day of the week. Is there any way we can add to it?
Why yes, yes there is.
How about a notification that it’s time to have an unexpected meeting with your little one’s teacher? I know she’s been going through a lot lately. Dealing with sickness and social/emotional stuff. But damn. A meeting with the teacher? That brings me back to the days when I had to sit outside the principal’s office. I mean, not that I ever had to do that.
Fingers crossed that as a team we can figure out what’s going on. Or at least figure out how best to support her.
Parenting is the most rewarding job….but it sure can make your heart hurt.
April 2, 2017
I could hardly get out of bed this morning. My back hurt, my brain hurt and I just didn’t want to face the world.
Perhaps it’s the crash after the big event. Or maybe it’s that now my mind is focused on that dreaded voting. Have I mentioned how anxious that makes me? I can’t seem to make it out of 8th or 9th place. And I have my heart and mind set on making to the Top 5. But that damn voting. It counts for 30% and I’m panicking.
At this point there’s nothing I can do. *Insert emotional eating here*
Yes, this is the point where I want to turn to food. And not the good stuff. I am legitimately hungry. But my heart wants to be soothed with chocolate. And the tried and true soul healer, coffee Haagen Dazs. My old friend.
But alas, although I’m feeling down I’m sure as hell not out. It’s time to pull out my new friend, self control. We’re actually more acquaintances than friends. We’re still getting to know each other. Might as well sit and have a snack with him.
April 1, 2017
Well, there’s no joke here. I have the world’s best group of friends. I mean, who can say they had a friend drive down from Kamloops to attend their fundraiser? I can!
Although I could easily have been disappointed with who didn’t come out to support our event, I realized I be a fool to waste time on that thought. Instead I’m overwhelmed with the quality and dedication of the ones who did!
My cup is overflowing and my heart is full.
March 31, 2017
At last, the big night is here. The team put in so much time and effort in the weeks leading up to the event that we spent the afternoon getting our hair done, doing our make up and putting on our fabulous outfits.
How smart was that? We went into the event ready to handle what the night threw at us.
And you know what it threw at us? ONE FANTASTIC NIGHT!
We had an incredibly supportive group of guests. Our supporters and general pub patrons generously opened up their hearts and wallets to us, helping us make the night as successful as possible. I’m pretty sure the endless supply of prizes to be given away and won helped.
I am so grateful to have had the team I did. We really and truly came together for one common goal and guess what? WE ROCKED IT!
March 30, 2017
And here we go again. Voting season is upon us. Sigh.
It’s exciting and nerve wracking all in one. I try to tell myself I won’t peek at the standings. Or that I won’t stress or worry. Well guess what, I’m a liar. I keep getting drawn back to it like a moth to a flame.
Can you even imagine how hard it is to watch your picture drop up and down the list based on how many votes you’re getting? If you thought Bridezilla was bad….try Votezilla. Or Winzilla. We’re evil-er.
I totally catch myself eyeing up friends and colleagues, wondering if they’ve maxed out their voting today. As much I want this, I’m trying not to be TOO much of a pest. Sort of.
So I sit back and wait. The reality is, it will be what it will be. I’m sure I’ve said that many times before. In fact, perhaps it’s a contender for my next tattoo.
On that note, I must bid you adieu. Although sleep eludes me I must try to catch it. Tomorrow is The Rack Pack’s BIG event. Don’t worry, I won’t eye you up and down wondering if you have your ticket. Because of course you do. Who would miss this?
March 29, 2017
I love surprises. And presents. But really, who doesn’t?
When you arrive at work to find a handmade pressie from your bestie on your desk, you know it’s going to be a good day.
Good lunch meeting. Good fundraising success.
Arrive to a team meeting to find dinner waiting for me. Yes, rough life. Very rough.
Looking around the room after all the prizes for our fundraiser are wrapped and organized and realizing WE did this…..SPECTACULAR!
We. Are. Awesome. #TheRackPack
March 28, 2017
Oh I know what you’re waiting for. I can see right through you. Fine, have it your way. Here’s the numbers…
Weight: Down 2 lbs (Total 12.6 lbs)
Inches: Down .25″ (Total 18.25 inches)
Today is the start of Week 11. I certainly won’t complain about those numbers. The best part about them is they’ll keep going down.
And the best part of the day was trying on all sorts of clothes at Cleo. Do you know how amazing it feels to have someone look at you and hand you clothes she thinks will fit, meanwhile you’re dying inside because you know they won’t…But they do? UM, PRETTY FREAKING AMAZING!
March 27, 2017
Daaaaaang, did I get my *ss kicked at bootcamp tonight. What a solid workout. I know I’ll be feeling that tomorrow.
And I deserved it too. Things have been so busy with the fundraiser that my gym time has slipped. And since we need the scale and inches to move in the right direction, I need to get back at it!
The added bonus, of course, is blowing off some steam. I seem to be at a point where I feel like I could break. Not all challenge stuff. My little one being sick. My little one testing her boundaries like never before. My long commute. My desire to succeed. My mind never shutting off. since breaking isn’t an option, that physical vent session was just what I needed.
Bring on a new day.
March 26, 2017
Have I mentioned that I have the most amazing team for the Apprentice challenge?
No seriously, I’m not just being nice. I am in awe of each and every one of them. The strengths each one brings to the table is incredible. The ideas flow freely….and let me tell you, there’s some GREAT ideas.
You’ll get to see some of them when you join us on March 31st for our pub night fundraiser. Where is it again, you ask? Why, it’s at the Canadian Brewhouse at High Street. We start at 6:00 and end when you’re tired of hanging out. Come for as little or as long as you like.
Back to the team. Do you require proof of how great they are? How many people give up an entire day just to package and wrap raffle and auction prizes? Yes, an entire day. And we’re not done. THAT’S just how many prizes you can win!
Here’s just a sneak peek…
March 25, 2017
When the day is this good, where do you start?
How about with the most amazing part of the day? A glamour photo shoot by a talented photographer. Sexy hair nailed by an amazing stylist. Make up flawlessly knocked out of the park by an awesome make up artist. And top quality products supplied by a ridiculously wonderful woman.
Perhaps a sneak peek at the sexiness that ensued is in order. And let’s round it off with a “before” and “after” picture of my progress thus far.
So how do you top that? Um, how about getting to strut your stuff while supporting fellow challengers at their fundraiser? Yes, that sounds about perfect to me. Let’s throw in a pic of the fun from that event for good measure too.
March 24, 2017
Muuuuch better day! And an even better night.
There’s something so therapeutic about time spent with my bestie. Couple that with the fact were lucky enough to be in company of incredibly smart, entertaining and funny people and BAM, Friday made!
Well worth skipping the gym AND the gin.
PS. She said I could post pics. That means she REALLY loves me!
March 23, 2017
Let’s recap the day, shall we?
Afternoon: Meh. Everyone survived.
Evening: Just put me out of everyone’s misery.
Result? Early bed and extra cuddles. Win!
March 22, 2017
Who here has tried one of those paint nights? If you haven’t, it’s now a must do. Trust me on that one.
I signed up for Paint Nite to help support two cool chicks in their fundraiser. Figured, how bad could my painting end up?
The answer: Not too friggin bad, actually. It’s flawed up the wazoo, for sure. But at least it doesn’t look like a squirrel painted it. That visual is in your head now, isn’t it? You’re welcome.
Since I generally live by the “try everything once….twice to be sure” motto, I’ll definitely give it another go.
March 21, 2017
Alright, let’s get down to the nitty gritty. I know you know that it was weigh in night.
Weight: Up. I believe 1.8 lbs.
I won’t lie. I knew this was coming. I broke so many rules this week. Rules? I make the dang rules. In all seriousness, I did partake in a lot treats and “comfort” food. And let’s face it, the gym suffered too. But hey, such is life.
I’m the maker of my own destiny. And while (in the words of a very wise person) I may have gotten a flat tire, I don’t have to slash the other 3. So guess what? I’m pumping that tire back up and getting back on the road.
It’s kind of hard not to when you see more positive results on the Tanita scale. When your body fat goes down 8.4%, your muscle mass increases 8.6 and your visceral fat (google image that if you want to really gross yourself out) decreases by 3 liters (DID YOU READ THAT……3 LITRES) in 9 weeks, you sure as heck get back on that road!
Highlight of the day….pedicures with my munckin. Great way to end our time off together! And our toes look oh-so-purdy now!
March 20, 2017
Of course the munchkin sleeps in on a day Mommy was up before the crack of dawn for bootcamp. Murphy’s Law, right? Side note: Who IS this Murphy person? I’m not a fan.
The cat is officially out of the bag. My team, The Rack Pack, unveiled one of our surprises. Tonight we treated friends and family to a very unique event. They all came to dinner at the Old Spaghetti Factory in Abbotsford. Big deal, right? Um, yeah it is! We were their SERVERS!
Anyone who knows me knows how humorous this really is. So while the service may have been lackluster, the food and entertainment surely wasn’t!
Moral of the story: You can make anything fun with the right people.
I truly do have a fantastic team and an astounding support system. MUCH LOVE PEEPS!
March 19, 2017
Ok seriously, do I have the BEST team ever or what? Not only are we mid-challenge personally, we’re mid fundraising challenge as a team.
So what do we do? We start a team meeting off with an awesome hike. Simply amazing that we can plan, organize, strengthen our bonds AND include our children in the process.
A definite highlight was locating the teapot another challenge and friend had left up there and adding our mark to it. What a great memory…definitely something we’ll do again.
After the night fresh air we were ready to get down to business. Let me tell you, folks, we have some awesome surprises in store for you at our event. I promise you, you will NOT want to miss it!
March 18, 2017
Uh oh. Guess who set their alarm for bootcamp but neglected to change the “weekday” selection? Yup, this girl. Shameful.
Just how does one recover from that?
Well, you be grateful that you got a little extra sleep. Clearly you needed it. And you spend a few hours with some quality women. Women who make you want to do better. To be better. Women who make you feel better.
Round the day off with a lovely dinner date with the woman you admire most and the princess who has your heart and VOILA! Day fully recovered.
March 17, 2017
Happy St. Patty’s Day! No green beer here but we were able to celebrate the day spreading some good cheer and mini pots of gold. Isn’t that what this day is for?
Today involved doing some fundraising work (though I’m not sure it can be called work if it’s this much fun) and laughing with a couple leprechauns.
Our pub night planning is getting so exciting I just want to tell you all about it. But I won’t. Why kill the suspense now? Apparently the suspense may have some thinking we’re not up to much. Don’t let that be you. Who likes egg on their face? Come join us on March 31st and trade that egg for a big freaking smile. Because that’s what you’ll be doing. All. Damn. Night.
For now, Mum’s the word.
March 16, 2017
What a busy, yet terrific day. Although the day was filled with appointments, some good and some not as good, we managed to squeak in a lot of fun.
The munchkin and I had THE BEST brunch after another dr’s appointment. It was definitely what the doctor ordered. We treated ourselves to some shopping…which might I say was VERY uplifting. Do you know how great it feels to walk into a store to try on clothes and have to have the staff bring you smaller sizes? And keep bringing you EVEN smaller ones? Seriously, EPIC WIN!
Needless to say, for the first time in, like, well, ever, I can’t wait to show off the DRESS I bought. The one that I’ll rock at the Little Black Dress Cocktail Party. The night I find out I made it into Top 5! (See what I did there? They call that manifesting)
The Little and I decided to celebrate. And guess what we did it with. Ice cream. Yup, I’ve been waiting for the moment when I just REAAAAALLLLLY wanted it. That was today. And so, we enjoyed every last drop of it. Try not to be jealous when you peek at the pic.
March 15, 2017
It’s here. The half way point of the week. Hump Day. Usually we’re excited to get to this point. Today, however, I am BEYOND STOKED for it. Why? It’s my Friday.
A couple days off with the Little during Spring Break is much needed. Some girl time. Some sleep time. And some (read: LOTS) pub night prep time.
I’m grateful for the “free” time to put towards this challenge. Sometimes it’s very hard to balance work, the challenge, being a mom and simply just being a human. Taking one thing off the task list feels like a vacation.
March 14, 2017
Yeah, nothing special. Just another day here.
Oh yeah right, I KNOW you didn’t forget what day it is. TUESDAY! Weigh in day.
So let’s do this….*drum roll*
Weight: Up .6 lbs (total down 12.4 lbs)
Actually, not really. The old Jenn would have freaked out after two weeks in a row of being up .6 lbs. The new Jenn realizes how much is changing. And how hard I’m working. I’ve earned that .6 lbs.
I’m dropping clothing sizes people! That’s the way in which I gauge my progress. People are commenting on how they see a difference. Best of all, I FEEL different.
Extra great touch to the night…getting a little makeover for receiving the Top Social Media award last round. Yay me. Who goes to work all day and a meeting all night and leaves looking better than when they arrived?
Thank you Karina Lanting for sharing your tips and amazing Arbonne product. My skin still feels awesome and I don’t want to wash this prettiness off! I can’t wait for our photoshoot!
March 13, 2017
Have I mentioned that I love my Apprentice Challenge team (The Rack Pack in case you were wondering)? Have I? Seriously LOVE them? Like, LUH-UH-UH-VE them?
No? Silly me. Must have slipped my mind.
I enjoy coming home after a team meeting so proud of our team and so excited for all the surprises in store.
What surprises, you ask? Tsk, tsk….too soon to tell. But trust me….you’ll want to stay tuned.
All that planning and excitement made me work up an appetite. Bon appetit!
March 12, 2017
Jenn’s Bucket List
*Complete a half marathon
*Make it to Top 5
Take a helicopter flight
Oh yeah….strike that one off the bucket list, baby! Wait, maybe I want to leave it on there but with a longer duration and more scenic route.
Either way, it’s always so cool to scratch things off that list. Even cooler when you get to do it with your munchkin….for FREE. Yes, I said free.
The princess and I were lucky to secure seats with The Sky’s No Limit – Girls Fly Too event this year. What an incredible event. It literally knocked my socks off. The little one almost backed out last minute. But she didn’t. And hearing her yell “THAT WAS THE BEST RIDE OF MY LIFE!” (all 6 years of it so far, lol) through that headset will a lifelong memory. Watching her step out of her comfort zone and soar to new heights (literally and figuratively) is priceless.
March 11, 2017
Have I mentioned how fortunate I am to be part of such an awesome challenge? Have I mentioned how blessed I am to be part of such an amazing group of women?
As we plan our big fundraiser I am in awe of our many talents. Each one of us bring something so valuable to the table. We connect. We mesh. We gel. We have fun. We laugh.
We. Are. Awesome.
Seriously awesome. This stuff changes lives. And I’m grateful to be alongside these women.
Mad love, ladies!
March 10, 2017
After another day spent with a sick little one I was able to spend some times with friends.
There’s nothing more therapeutic than a little time with the bestie. Especially when she’s as amazing as she is. Sometimes it’s just her presence that makes things better. And sometimes it’s her words of wisdom. Or humor.
She reminds me there’s always a reason. There’s always a purpose. And I love her to pieces.
Since I’m in a sharing mood…I’ll share a slight victory. After my night out I stopped at the store. I WANTED treats. Remember that Haagen Dazs I always mention? Well guess what?
I had it in my hand. But it stayed at the store. Willpower for the win.
March 9, 2017
I was completely looking forward to Zumba tonight. So looking forward to it. Needless to say, when plans changed I was disappointed. And I felt so selfish. Because plans changed due to….guess what? Yep…a sick kid.
To say I’m frustrated and worried is an understatement. I broke down. Again. Like, massive break down. Feeling so fricking vulnerable. This is not something I am comfortable with. Especially when I’m vulnerable because of my child. Something’s gotta give.
Watching her go through so many ups and downs is tearing my heart out. Parenting gets easier, right? RIGHT?!?
March 8, 2017
Being home with a sick little one sucks. It’s not cool seeing her dealing with so much. And let’s be serious, daytime tv is brutal. It’s going to be an interesting road getting her back where she needs to be but I’m grateful that it’s doable. Seeing the doctor took a bit of a weight off my heart.
Why not enjoy that by getting your ass kicked at bootcamp? Honestly, I moan and groan through the whole thing but I LOVE IT! I feel so great after it. So accomplished. Even more exciting is they’re starting Zumba tomorrow. This girl can’t dance and probably never should. Ohhhhh but I will. I’ll dance my little heart out.
When I LOVE something this much I feel I have to share. So I’m inserting an absolutely shameless plug here. No, this gym is not a sponsor of mine and I wasn’t even asked to talk about them. But I MUST! Go see Nicole and get a good, solid butt whooping in!
March 7, 2017
If you’re following along you’ve been waiting for this post. Because it’s Tuesday. And Tuesday is progress report day.
But before we get into the goods, let’s chat about real life. I’ve been feeling overwhelmed. Run down. In over my head. I realized that was ok and part of the process. And I figured there was no way I was the only one feeling that way. Not just in this challenge but in real life. So I did something that was very hard to do. I shared my feelings and vulnerability with others. Like lots of others. I did a Facebook Live post where I shared a bit. I cried a bit. I was more than a bit real. And guess what? I felt good about it. Turns out I’m ok being human. Imagine that.
So now on to the big news. The progress…
*Drum roll* (Yes, I will post this every time and in my mind I will hear you doing it)
Weight: Up .6 lbs *boo* *hiss* (Total of 13 lbs)
Inches: *gasp* Down 5.5 inches (Total of 18 inches)
Are you READING that? 13 lbs and 18 inches in 7 weeks! Can we say rock star?
March 6, 2017
Back to the grind. I’m not sure my mind or body is ready for it. Then again, whose is?
It’s Monday. They write songs about this day. For a reason.
Today my mind was consumed with fundraiser prep. It’s exciting to be able to challenge ourselves and give back to our community. But it’s overwhelming when you remember it’s a competition between other teams.
I spent all breaks and my lunch making calls, looking for donations and prizes. Have I ever mentioned how I DESPISE asking for things? But alas, it’s a challenge. And I just don’t back down from challenges.
This WILL be a successful fundraiser!
March 5, 2017
Let’s have a little fun, shall we? You see those pictures over there on the left? You know, the dreaded “before” pics?
Those were taken exactly 7 weeks ago. At our very first Total Makeover Challenge get together, the Meet & Greet. Remember, the night I realized how huge this opportunity was? The night I panicked a bit and wondered if I’d gotten in over my head. Yeah, that night.
Aside from the fact I’m still determined and motivated and LOVING this opportunity, there’s another very concrete way to determine if this challenge was, indeed, too much for me. If I was in over my head.
Take a peek below and decide for yourself. Is this too hard? Too challenging? Not worth sticking around for? (Rhetorical….I KNOW your answer)
And I should clarify, this outfit was worn once. That first night. So there’s no wash-n-wear to attribute to the difference in fit.
March 4, 2017
The alarm goes off at an ungodly hour and I’m confused. There’s work today? I mean, why else would someone get up so early. On a weekend. Oh wait, yes, I remember. Boot camp. What the actual heck?
Boot camp was actually a great way to start the day. None of the day was wasted! I mean, a wee nap in between events isn’t a waste, right? Not when you feel THIS good after it.
And the nap provided just the right energy to head into a night of fun with a couple awesome ladies. Competitors on this journey with me. Teammates in our current fundraising challenge. And friends for an indefinite amount of time. They seriously are fantastic people.
Why not celebrate a birthday with an Escape Room and dinner? This certainly will NOT be my last escape room. I might even brave the scary ones one day.
March 3, 2017
Ahhh pub night. This used to be a common Friday night. Myself and the bestie and a few other special peeps would wind down from the week and catch up with each other. It was coveted time. It was not taken lightly or given away easily. Dedicated friend time.
Since I’ve taken on this challenge Friday nights were repurposed. They became gym nights mostly. By my choice. My voluntary choice.
Tonight was special though. Pub night trumped the gym in order to bid adieu to a wonderful woman heading onto new challenges and adventures of her own. It was great to celebrate her. It was great to connect with my peeps. Gosh, I sure do LOVE them.
And as much as I would have loved a cold G&T, I was more than ok just enjoying the moments. The sounds. The people. The conversations. This fills my heart and feeds my soul.
March 2, 2017
So what do you do when the little one still isn’t feeling the best but you’re going a little stir crazy?
Domestic stuff you’ve been putting off for too long. A little bit of organizing and cleaning. Not nearly enough….it definitely is NOT my strong suit. At all.
But let me tell you, the best feeling is crawling into your bed with crisp, fresh linens. Sooooo cozy.
March 1, 2017
There’s something so amazing about kids. They have this ability to see life and the world so differently.
Sometimes I just sit back and watch my little one. Pure observation. Studying her.
Remember when we were kids? Not a care in the world. Well, that’s not a true statement. But back then we cared about what mattered! Our family, our friends, our selves. Imagine that. Man we can sure learn something from them.
Have you ever watched a group of children from all different backgrounds, religions and languages interact with each other? Guess what….they figure it out! They communicate and understand each other more than us adults do. Kudos to them.
Anyway, back to observing my little. I watched her create a card for a dear friend. Card is a bit of an understatement…it really is a masterpiece. She didn’t care that she was sick. She wasn’t concerned that bed time was approaching (no surprise there). She was intent on creating the PERFECT card. And that she did. This thing tells quite the story.
Gosh I just love and admire her.
February 28, 2017
Do I even have to say it? Does anyone even need a reminder about what night it is?
Ooooh, that’s right….WEIGH IN NIGHT!
Being dreadfully honest, I was so excited for tonight. I was so close to hitting a milestone. See, I count weight in decades. And I’ve set mini goals along the way so that they’re achievable and I don’t lose focus. So each time I drop into a new decade it’s cause for celebration.
Are you with me on this decade thing? Just in case you aren’t, for example, someone who was 200 lbs would need to drop into the 190’s to reach the next decade. The next goal would be 180 lbs. See how my mind works there?
As the day went on I started to panic a little. Perhaps I’d told too many people I was excited for tonight. What if I didn’t lose at least 1.1 lbs to make that new decade? What if I jinxed myself? Well guess what? You can’t jinx hard work and determination. So there. Silly Jenn.
So here’s the cold, hard facts friends…
Weight: Down 4.2 lbs. THIS WEEK! For a whopping total of 13.6 lbs!
Are you freaking kidding me? Not only am I in the next decade, I’m well on my way to another one! In fact, I think this is the lowest I’ve been at in almost two REAL decades!
This calls for a celebration. The coffee Haagen Dazs kind of celebration. KIDDING! I’ll celebrate at bootcamp tomorrow night.
February 27, 2017
Ain’t nothing gonna break my stride….*Sing it with me friends* Nobody’s gonna slow me down, oh no. I got to keep on moving.
I apologize now if you can actually hear my singing voice as you read that.
So it was a Monday. Still not feeling well. At all. But that’s no reason to sit and mope. The work day seemed to pass quickly and as much as I wanted to head home to bed, I decided to check out a little bootcamp class. Wow…talk about getting your *ss kicked! Perhaps I was still a bit too sick to take that class on. But hey, I didn’t die. Or pass out. Or puke. That’s a win.
The kidlet decided to cash in on my weakness. Why not throw a fit? About everything? Including the meaning of life? After a 20 minute car ride filled with attitude and screeching, we went straight to bed. No dinner for me (though I really didn’t feel like food anyway) and no lunch prep for either of us. Here’s to an even earlier morning. #supergrouchyface
In case this needs to be said, that’s a JOKE.
February 26, 2017
And just like that, WHAM! I’m down for the count with a head cold. I was able to fight it off long enough to complete the Amazing Race Abbotsford and celebrate Top 15 placement with a 90 minute Zumba class. (Which was FANTASTIC by the way)
Now I spend the day in bed knowing I should be doing laundry, grocery shopping and meal prep. No worries though the food will make itself, right?
February 25, 2017
Today was the big day. The Amazing Race Abbotsford, The Ford Drive 4 UR Community and the announcement of the Top 15. HUGE DAY!
My fantastic team and I, comprised of myself, my Little, my mom, a friend and her little, raced around Abbotsford visiting some great business, answering questions about those businesses and taking selfies. So fun!
Wait, the best part….we were in costumes. Oh yes folks, The Itty Bitties were out in full effect. Hot as heck, too. Please don’t be jealous when you see the pics.
So should I share how the announcing of the Top 15 went? It went well. Great group of people. That’s all folks.
You bet your bottom dollar I made it in! I’m officially one of the Total Makeover Challenge Top 15!!! *insert applause and whistles here*
That’s an amazing feat. And incredibly humbling. I was given the honour of the Top Blogger, the Social Media award, Top Pledger, the highest Ford surveys completed and shared the honour of being recognized for our contributions to the #100DaysofHappiness challenge and scoring high with a secret panel of judges.
WOW! I’m blown away. Humbled. Honoured. Grateful. Amazed. So much gratitude here folks. I am surrounded by the best people in the world and it shows! I’m picking up what you guys are putting down and I’m sharing it with the world. Ok, at least the Fraser Valley.
My biggest hope is that the ladies who didn’t make Top 15 still work their asses off to secure the Wild Card spot. There are a couple women whose absence in the Top 15 actually makes my heart heavy. So ladies, I’m talking to you. You know who you are. I expect to see your sparkling eyes, bright smiles and beautiful souls often. Like every dang day. Got it?
Much love to all of you who’ve helped me get where I am. My gratitude is endless!
February 24, 2017
Pro-D Day. Field trip with daycare day. Needless to say I was shocked to get a call that my munchkin needed picking up. She was sick. Again. Sigh. This is exactly where single mommyhood kicks you in the teeth.
My little one will always come first. But let’s be realistic. I just had 4 days off due to snow and ice. And we are short staffed as it is. I sent a few messages and made a few calls. Within minutes I had one friend dropping off a carseat with my sister so she could pick my kidlet up until I made it home and another friend already on her way to pick my daughter up. Seriously, two bail out options.
One bail out option that I didn’t have more than 6 months ago. The other I didn’t have 6 WEEKS ago. Yes, my saving grace was a woman (read: friend) that I met less than 6 weeks ago through this challenge.
Now tell me this challenge isn’t really the TOTAL Makeover Challenge. Tell me, if you dare, that this isn’t life changing.
February 23, 2017
Yes, there’s nothing quite like waking up to a throat on fire and the feeling your head is going to explode. Didn’t I tell you something was amiss?
I’ve been in a fog all day. An “I should have stayed in bed”, downright grumpy fog. Not sure how anyone could stand to be around me today. I didn’t want to be around me. All afternoon I fought the urge to just cry. At one point I wasn’t sure I was going to win that fight.
I think I’m coming down from an epic 5 weeks. It’s been a whirlwind. Lots of learning. Lots of change. Lots of growth.
As much as it’s all for the best, I’m tired. Not just the ready for bed tired. My brain is tired. My heart is tired. My soul is tired.
I suppose I could fake it and put on a smile. Pretend everything is hunky dory. But that’s not me. I don’t fake sh*t. I’m tired. I’m overwhelmed. I’m sad. And guess what, THAT’S OK! It’s not a bad thing. It’s a real thing. It’s freaking life.
So I’m sick. And I’m blah. And I still freaking rock. I’ll take this awesomeness to bed and get some good rest. Actual sleep with any luck. And I’ll continue on with my awesome self tomorrow.
Sweet dreams, friends!
February 22, 2017
You know when it feels like something’s off but you can’t quite figure out what? Yeah, that’s me. There’s a huge sense of relief that the mini challenges this round are done and the voting is over. But something’s amiss.
As much as I wanted to curl up in a ball and go to sleep tonight, I didn’t. I had plans with some great ladies and I knew I had to keep them. I needed to keep them. For me.
And whattya know? I’m a smart woman. Tea with two fabulous women and two pretty kick ass kids is great therapy. Good conversation, lots of laughs and some down time. Incredibly good for the soul!
Bonus of the night….I didn’t spill my FULL, hot tea on myself. Yes! I’m rocking this adulting thing!
February 21, 2017
Do I even need to ask what night it is? Surely y’all remember by now, right? Tuesday. Weigh and measure night. Since this segment is just about over it was also the night to turn in our pledges, our prizes, our Ford surveys and our sponsor information.
Exciting and nerve wracking all in one is the fact voting ends tomorrow. TO-MOR-ROW! Thank goodness! (Shameless plug, don’t forget to place all your votes tomorrow by noon)
I can’t lie, this challenge has been a huge adjustment for me. It’s challenged me in more ways than I had expected. Clearly I’m hoping it’s not over for me just yet but I do plan to breathe a sigh of relief tomorrow when the polls are closed. PHEW!
Alright, alright, I’ll get to the stuff you want to know. Here are the cold, hard numbers.
Weight: Down 2.2 lbs (for a total of 9.4 lbs)
Inches: Down 4 inches (for a total of 12.5 inches)
All in 5 weeks! High-freaking-five! No seriously, high five someone near you for me. You can be sure I high fived myself. For reals.
February 20, 2017
After a long night with the munchkin it was HARD to get out of bed today. What I wouldn’t have given for an extra hour or ten of sleep. Needless to say, it was a long day.
Mondays are always fairly busy at work and every minute of every break and lunch was spent organizing and planning for the last few days of this segment of the challenge. I’ve tried very hard to manage my networks and pool my resources where appropriate. A tough task since I’d like to make it further in the challenge but don’t want to cash in all my chips too early.
I sat back and really took stock of the support networks I have. They are amazing. Seriously. I have a fantastic family. The best friends one could ever ask for. And an incredible group of colleagues that are closer to friends than you’d expect. How lucky am I?
I think my heart and mind are still reeling from the Real Me seminar. I think they’re both in overdrive just processing the information and planning for the future. This is a good thing. I just hadn’t planned for it to impact me the way it has. The night before weigh and measures is usually spent at the gym. You’d especially think so the night before FINAL weigh and measures of this segment. You know, since they do help form part of what gets you through to next round.
Instead of the gym I did some meal prep. And snuggled an awfully adorable sick kid. And I ate chocolate. But not because of my emotions this time! I ate chocolate because I actually really wanted some. And it was goooood. I had two glorious pieces and guess what?!?! That’s all I needed! I didn’t eat the whole damn thing just because it was there and I was feeling blah. That is honestly a first. I’m not sure what this challenge is doing to me but damn, I LIKE it!
PS. I did put on pants today. Jenn for the win!
February 19, 2017
After a late night of pondering (there was lots to process after that seminar) I was up early for a hair appointment. As much as I was looking forward to brightening my purple hair it was a bit bittersweet. I’ve come to enjoy my Sunday morning gym session with the ladies.
But the hair looks great so I’ll take it!
Unfortunately much of the rest of the day involved having a sick little one. Some cuddles, a movie and a nap. And a non eventful trip to emerge. (Simply because doctor’s weren’t open and it couldn’t wait until morning)
Needless to say, this Mama is tired. I threw tomorrow’s lunch together and am hitting the sack. Tomorrow is a new day.
February 18, 2017
The final day of the Real Me seminar was yesterday and I wanted to post about it so bad. But I couldn’t. I was spent. Drained. Depleted. Oddly, in a good way.
I swore I wouldn’t break. I wouldn’t cry. I’ve made peace with much of my past as I’ve been on a self discovery journey for the past 2 years. I hadn’t turned my mind to the parts of the FUTURE I wasn’t prepared for.
Like death. And the fate of my daughter should that happen sooner than I’d like. Scary freaking concept. Not cool.
Much of the content of the seminar I’m not willing to share. It cut many of us to the core. Exposing our innermost feelings, desires and experiences. Our mistakes, our flaws (perceived or real) and our regrets. I respect and cherish the women involved too much and things like that are way better left in the moment.
However, the take home from this experience is amazing. I’ve formed strong connections with women whose names I hadn’t even heard of 5 weeks ago. A group of women I’m honoured to call friends and blessed to know I’ll always have a connection with.
The seminar was real. It was raw. It was eye opening. It was memorable.
I start today tired, almost exhausted but my heart is full. Actually, it’s over flowing. That’s a pretty good position to be in.
February 17, 2017
Night 2 of the Real Me seminar. This seminar is a journey into the inner workings of each individual. It’s about self discovery and personal growth.
So what am I learning about me?
Well, generally speaking, I really like me. There’s parts of me that I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE. And there’s parts of life where I’d like to take a mulligan. To a degree. I think I’ve been on a path of self discovery for the last two years. I’m learning to let go. And I’ve realized that I have very few regrets. Like real regrets. I mean, things happen for a reason.
If you don’t see the reason….keep looking. Good or bad, it’ll come.
An oddly humbling and definitely terrifying exercise tonight involved writing our own eulogy. Death scares me. Less about actually dying and more about being apart from my daughter. Terrifying concept.
One particularly important realization though – when that time comes…it will NOT be a sad time. I want my family and friends to celebrate my life. In all its dorky, quirky, unique glory. Remember, I like me. I embrace me. And even I will celebrate me.
Highlight of the night – a group of roughly 60 women (+ 2 men) singing Tim McGraw’s “Live Like You Were Dyin”. Forever etched in my brain.
February 16, 2017
Today’s post is brought to you by the letters O.C.D.
Wow, there’s nothing that brings out your O.C.D. and neuroticism like watching your picture move up and down the voting page a million times a minute! Somebody make me walk away. Clearly I’m not responsible enough to do it myself. Seriously, who put me in charge of adulting?
So let’s move on to something way more exciting and uplifting. I’m stoked to announce that Susan Bains of Centre Holidays is my awesome blog sponsor. Folks, she’s amazing. Everyone say “Hi Susan!” If you’re looking to book a little getaway, a big vacation or a destination wedding, please do yourself a favour and touch base with her. I promise you will be glad you did.
On that note, I am going to put my big girl panties on and walk away from the devices. The reality is, it’ll be what it’ll be! Thank you all so much for the love, support and votes. None of this is possible without each and every one of you!
February 15, 2017
Tonight was night one of The Real Me seminar. Basically this is my journey into self discovery and personal growth. While I may not be willing to share lots about my experience with this seminar I will share a bit of what I learned tonight.
Me at 12 – What were my hopes and dreams?
– I was going to be rich when I grew up.
– I was going to have 2 kids. Twins. One boy, one girl.
– I was going to be an actress. A super famous one.
– Failing that, I was going to be a lawyer. One that made Matlock look dopey.
– Failing that, I was going to be a detective. One that made Columbo look dopey.
– I was going to live in Hawaii.
Me at 40 – What are the differences between those hopes and dreams and reality?
– I’m so not rich.
– I have one girl. She’s the love of my life. And there’s no way I would have survived twins.
– I’m still meant to be a star. There’s still lots of time.
– I didn’t become a lawyer. Though I work with lawyers. Some pretty damn awesome ones at that.
– I didn’t become a detective. But I love hot detectives.
– I have even friggin’ been to Hawaii.
So apparently things didn’t go as planned. But they say things happen for a reason. And I don’t doubt that for a second.
Perhaps the most important thing I learned tonight…
VOTING STARTS TOMORROW!
O-M-G. I’m calling on all of you. Please, take a few minutes out of your day and send some love (by way of votes) my way. I can’t thank you enough for sharing this adventure with me!
February 14, 2017
Happy greeting card holiday folks. I’m not one for V-Day. No it’s not because I’m single and yes I do have a heart. I’ve never been one to buy into the hype and commercialism. Of course I help my little one make cards and little treats for friends and teachers to celebrate the day. But honestly, we do that more than just one day a year. It’s always irked me how some people act like jerks the other 364 days a year but they’ll pull magic out of their *** this one day and everyone swoons. Gag me.
So on to something I do LOVE about today. (Aside from the adorable munchkin below). It’s Tuesday. Do you remember what Tuesday is? Ohhh yes…..weigh in day. And for added love, it was measure day too.
So without further adieu, let’s get down to brass tax. *Drum roll*
Down .2 lbs
Down 4.5 inches
For those keeping track (ok, me), that’s 7.2 lbs and 8.5 inches down! IN 4 WEEKS!!!
I come home with those numbers to this smiling face and a beautiful V-Day pressie from her. Awww shucks, I may have caught a feel.
February 13, 2017
Yes, why not leave Valentine’s prep until the day before? I mean, it’s only 20 kids and 10 teachers you’re helping your little one make cards and little gifties for. No biggie.
Best course of action, break it down into stages.
1) Print and cut cards. Add glitter glue and leave to dry.
2) Have shower and bathe the child.
3) Do grocery shopping and pick up last few V-Day items.
4) Drop munchkin off for Daddy time and hit the mall, grocery store (again) and gym.
5) Realize gym is closed so hit Starbucks for a tea.
6) Pack 10 teacher treat packs for daycare teachers while tea is cooling.
7) Take tea to go and pick up the Munchkin.
8) Have her fill out the cards while you attach the glow sticks.
9) Wipe away tears and convince her 20 cards will take no time at all.
10) Have her pack the big treat pack for her Kindergarten teacher and pretend you don’t see her sneaking a couple.
See? No biggie.
February 12, 2017
DATE NIGHT RE-DO!
As luck would have it, it’s a long weekend. Family Day weekend to be exact. Perfect reason to attempt a date night do over.
My munchkin, myself and another Mama and her princess headed back out for some trampoline shenanigans. NO, we did NOT return to the same place, obviously. We drove about a half hour to a trampoline park where we knew we could jump with the kids.
And jump we did! 2 hours of solid running, jumping and climbing out of foam pits. I know the kids had fun but I have to admit it was exactly what I needed. Great exercise, great therapy and great laughs as I attempted cartwheels (pretty sure you can’t call them that when I do them) and trying to land a jump up onto a platform. After many failed, and downright hilarious attempts, I managed to land the jump. The cartwheels are a work in progress. Correction: WORK IN PROGRESS. This one’s gonna take some time.
Check out the Mamas and their Mini Me’s.
February 11, 2017
*Warning, some content is not suitable for all viewers….*
Do you know what’s frustrating? Rhetorical, don’t answer. You know I’m going to tell you what I find frustrating.
As a single mom, my time with my little one is precious. I value every second of it. We have a Mommy-Daughter date night once a week. Sometimes it’s super low key – a movie and popcorn at home. Other times it’s a little adventure out to do something fun and bond.
Tonight we made plans with some single mommy friends. To jump. And have dinner. No, not at the same time, silly. We decided to try out a trampoline park we hadn’t been to. That turned out to be a huge disappointment. That venue’s policy made it so that the adults and kids couldn’t jump in the same section. So we sat there watching our school age kids jumping alongside little wee toddlers. Damn near babies. Super disappointing since we’d been to other parks where families are allowed to jump together.
Anyway, we headed for dinner in the hopes of salvaging date night. What-the-actual-….?!?! Dinner took 2 1/2 hours!!! With 3 kids. Have you ever had 3 starving children and 3 Hangry Mama Bears in your presence? Not a pretty sight.
Luckily, the manager of the restaurant is a mom of young children herself and realized how frustrating and disappointing the experience was. She certainly went above and beyond in an effort to salvage the night. Kudos to her!
I guess the Little and I have had so many great experiences that I can’t complain too much. But it certainly is disheartening to have things go so far awry. Thankfully, cuddles are ALWAYS a great way to end any night.
February 10, 2017
Freeeeeeedom! Back to school and back to work. That means back to real adult conversations, yes!
Gym Friday (formerly known as Gin Friday) was on a temporary hiatus. I had the pleasure of having great conversation tonight with a couple amazing women. Both of whom I’d like to be like. One is a freaking champion, a warrior. The other is an absolute gem, priceless.
You know the company must have been good when I decided to spill an entire tea on myself (don’t worry, it was only warm) and I didn’t run home to mom. No joke, I looked like I’d peed myself but in true Jenn style, I just owned it. Hey, it’s a fashion statement.
Sorry, no pics for you to laugh at. Some things are just best lived in the moment.
Fabulous night. My spirits are high and my heart is full. I’m a lucky woman.
February 9, 2017
Sweet mother of……WHAT IS HAPPENING?
I’ve never seen anything like this. That ice. That rain. What an amazing scene. It’s beautiful to look at. Yet slightly dangerous clearing it all up. Seriously, take a peek at the pic and tell me you want THAT falling on your head!?!?!
I can’t lie. I’m going stir crazy. We need to get out and about so badly that I even shoveled the drains on our block so the flooding had somewhere to go. Yes, it’s the neighbourly thing to do. And yes, it’s still a good work out. But this went far beyond that. I smelled freedom. And I wanted to taste it!
February 8, 2017
Maybe I owe last night’s success to all this shoveling. Seriously, when will this madness end?
I heard the sound of the snow plow and went running outside. Had to make sure he received a warm welcome and a heartfelt thank you!
The bright side of all this white stuff….the little one gets to play in it while I work out by trying to rid ourselves of it. Multitasking at its finest.
February 7, 2017
Tonight we were treated to a nutrition session at Save On Foods and a makeup application session at Shoppers. Both were great sessions but the cherry on top of the night was my new fabulous Stila glitter liquid shadow. Oh-em-gee, that made the trek down the street through the snow to catch a ride absolutely worth it!
The girly side of me peeks out once in a while.
Now on to the great news portion of the evening. Results of the weekly weigh in.
Down 2.6 lbs! (For a total of 7 exactly)
We’re three weeks in folks! While that may not be prime time tv reality show results, that is a result I’m thrilled with. It’s progress! Sustainable progress. This is how lives change. Count me in.
February 5, 2017
It’s amazing how much you learn through this process. Equally amazing is all the changes you go through. Physically, mentally and emotionally.
I’m not sure I was prepared for all of it. The new found energy is fantastic. A little frustrating to be using the majority of it for shoveling snow. The changes that come from your body processing new foods and proper nutritional balance are….um…well, let’s just leave it there.
At least the menu is tasty!
February 4, 2017
Hello Snowmageddon! Such a bittersweet time for me. The snow is so beautiful to look at and fun to play in.
But right now it causes me a paralyzing fear. On New Year’s Eve my daughter and I went out and had to drive home in the snow. We made it home, our car didn’t. We drove down a hill and as we levelled out I started to fishtail. We did a 180, into the oncoming traffic lane (with traffic a bit down the road) and hit a telephone pole. Her door hit the pole. For me, it was super slow motion. The realization that she was about the hit the pole and the inability to do anything to stop it left me with nightmares for weeks. It replayed over and over in my mind. Sounds crazy, I know. Afterall, she was fine. We were fine.
Nonetheless, the paralyzing fear crept in as it came closer to the time I had to go pick her up. Yep, I white knuckled it the whole way there and back. But I got her home! Safely. And yes, I cried. Apparently I do have a feeling or two.
So out we went to play in it and enjoy it for what it was. And since I didn’t make it to the gym, I supplemented my work out with 2 hours of hardcore shoveling. Take it where you can, right?
February 3, 2017
Ahh, Friday, how I love thee. Most of the time.
Today was Food Day at work. One of my favorite peeps is moving departments and we must send her off in style. I baked my cookies that seem to be almost a classic now and made spinach dip. Mmmm. I love spinach dip.
So much food. Two tables worth. And you know what? NONE of it tempted me. It was great to see and felt festive but I wasn’t drawn to all the sweets and comfort foods.
And, no, I wasn’t restricting myself. I just wasn’t interested in them. That’s a huge win!
February 2, 2017
Not going to lie. Today is one of those days you should just fast forward through. I woke up super tired and in a grouchy mood. No real reason behind it. And sadly, that mood hasn’t really subsided.
I’ve been lucky to feel incredibly motivated and energized lately but today I’m just not feeling it.
So, I’m putting my big girl panties on. I’m having dinner, packing lunches and giving myself a time out until my attitude is adjusted. Read: Early bed and a good night’s sleep (with any luck).
Tomorrow’s a new day.
February 1, 2017
This blog post is brought to you by my 6 year old gem of a kid. Seriously, I’m under strict instructions to make this post about dinner. Those of you who have little ones know all too well that sometimes it’s just best to say “Yes dear”.
While driving home from daycare she proclaimed she was making dinner. By herself. With no help. And it was to be a surprise. I’m not going to lie….I silently panicked. Not because I’m taking great care with what I eat but because I recall her last creation.
Her last unassisted culinary creation was a combination of raspberries, blackberries, melted chocolate, icing sugar, crumbled soda crackers and a sprinkle of salt and pepper nicely placed on a ritz cracker. Mmmmmm!
Wow, she let us off easy this time. *insert massive sigh of relief* Blackberries, strawberries, blueberries and raspberries with cottage cheese. And some ritz bits for her. Three different versions of the dish, lovingly prepared to each of our preferences and specifications.
Bon appetite, kiddo!
January 31, 2017
Tuesdays. You love ‘em or you hate ‘em. Or something. Today I’m somewhere in between. Tuesdays are weigh and/or measure days.
After last night’s broken promise I knew to expect the scale to be less friendly. Hey, it is what it is. So let’s focus on the inches….my desired goal anyway. Want to know how that went?
Another drum roll please…..
Weight – increase by 1 lb (down 4.4 lbs overall now)
Inches – decrease of 4 inches
PHEW! Not really something to shake a stick at. I’m working hard and it’s showing. Not just in the numbers but in how I feel. How I sleep. How I behave. How I smile. I certainly cannot be unhappy with progress. I’m moving in the right direction. My attitude, determination and focus is shifting. Zero complaints there!
January 30, 2017
Well. Poop. I cheated. On myself. And I’m disappointed that I did it.
No, it’s not food related. And no I didn’t skip the gym. I promised myself I would not weigh in at any point, except at our weekly weighs and measures. Tonight the scale at the gym was calling my name.
Literally, I heard it say “Jeeeeennnnn, come step on me.” I was in a trance, I swear. I wasn’t pleased with the number, it seems to have increased since last week. And I get it. I understand all that goes into a small fluctuation. That’s not what disappoints me. I’m bummed that I broke a deal I had with myself.
Well, what do I do when I’m disappointed or bummed or sad? I eat. That dreaded Haagen Dasz. And chips. Then round it out with some sort of chocolate. Must have balance, right?
Uh uh. Not tonight sweetheart. I pounded that frustration out on the elliptical, the bike and the treadmill. That’ll show me! No more cheating. No more broken promises. Back on track.
January 29, 2017
Let’s play Never Have I Ever, shall we?
Never have I ever had this level of commitment to anything. Particularly myself.
Never have I ever demonstrated this level of organization.
Never have I ever enjoyed the gym or yoga this much.
Never have I ever felt so damn good.
Never have I ever wanted something this bad.
Never say never. Lesson learned.
January 28, 2017
Great friend I am…was supposed to be up early for a solid 5K walk with the bestie. Turns out the start of a cold knocked me out solid. Completely slept through my alarm. Luckily she’s pretty great and won’t kick me to the curb. Yet.
Yoga with some of the ladies and Jump Fest with my little lady were highlights of my day. Nothing beats date night with that kid. I can pretend the trampolines were purely for her pleasure but let’s be serious…I’m a kid at heart. A big, dorky kid. And I’m perfectly comfortable owning that and rocking it out!
January 27, 2017
It’s official. Gin Friday has been restructured. I’m happy to announce the grand opening of GYM Friday.
Seriously? Gym Friday? By choice. Actually, it’s not just by choice, it’s by desire. I was actually looking forward to the gym. Someone check my temperature.
After watching the windshield of my 7 day old car crack as I was driving down the highway, those 2 hours at the gym were much needed. Usually I’d scream or yell or cry at something like that. Instead, I chose to sweat.
Look at me being all grown up and stuff. Look Mom, your little girl is growing up!
January 26, 2017
It’s kidlet night tonight. No gym. I promised to commit myself to this Challenge but I’m a mom first and foremost. From here on out Thursdays will be spent making dinner, playing and getting some physical activity in with her.
That’s actually another reason I took this challenge on. Last year we started running races together. 3 km. 5 km. Obstacle courses. Pretty soon she’ll be sprinting ahead of me and I don’t want her looking back and seeing me keeled over on the ground gasping for air.
Cuddles, hugs and a bedtime feud sounds a-ok to me.
January 25, 2016
I woke up with renewed excitement. The last week was a struggle to transition to new routines and process new information. I definitely don’t have the hang of it yet. But last night proved I’m on the right track.
Seriously, I’m so freaking proud. There’s an extra spring in my step and it’s not just because I’m 5.4 lbs lighter. I’m a different kind of lighter. Free. Open. Growing. I feel like my mind is clear. My head is up and my shoulders are back. My possibilities are endless.
And my tears are free flowing. Good tears I think. Relief maybe. It feels good to do this. I feel good. I feel motivated. And I feel like it’s time to stop talking about this so I don’t wake up with raccoon eyes. I don’t always do well with the feels.
January 24, 2017
Week one complete. The moment of truth. Drum roll, please…….
5.4 lbs down!
Heck yes! I can do this. Scratch that. I am doing this. Go me!
What’s even more awesome is that as a group we lost 94.8 lbs. The smiles and high fives were amazing. The highlight of may day was looking around the room, feeling proud of each woman there and knowing they all felt the same way. A group of 30 women. Competing with themselves and each other, technically. Yet genuinely happy to see the hard work and dedication pay off for others around them.
January 23, 2017
Protein is not my friend. Ok, it is but it sure doesn’t feel like it. My brain hurts trying to calculate protein and calories. It was so much easier when I didn’t measure either. Never had a problem reaching (read: far surpassing) my caloric intake.
Now that I’m planning and making smart choices I realize how little I knew. I think my brain is getting a work out. Does that mean I can THINK about having that Haagen Dasz?
January 22, 2017
Stop the presses! No seriously, this is big news. I got out of bed on a Sunday morning to go to the gym. Willingly.
The amazing side effect is having a burst of energy I’m not used to. I took on Costco. Laundry. Domestic stuff. And *drum roll*, MEAL PREP! For the whole week. I’m not sure who this girl is but I kinda like her. I may have to keep her around for a bit.
January 21, 2017
So I went to the gym yesterday. And I didn’t die. Imagine that. Why not try my hand (or foot or face plant) at Yoga? My daughter makes it look easy. She thinks the idea is humorous. “Maybe you’ll learn the peeing dog pose too, Mommy.” (She’s 6) *inside my head* Oh good gosh, I hope not.
I walked into Parallel Yoga and felt comfortable right away. It’s a very welcoming environment. And I see faces I recognize. Turns out we’re all trying out this new thing. Now I really hope I don’t have to do peeing dog pose.
Phew! Downward dog, cobra and tree. I can do that. Sort of.
Know what else I can do? Cry. Yes, cry. At yoga. And no, not from pain or injuries. Guess it stirred a little something up in me. I’ll probably give it another try. Colour me impressed.
January 20, 2017
Gym? Heck yes!
January 19, 2017
So the little one is still sick and wants her mama. I can’t argue. Sometimes I still want mine when I’m sick.
No gym. Again. Here we go. Same old patterns.
Oh but wait, there’s a treadmill in the garage. Sick kids sleep. Great Scott! I might be on to something.
January 18, 2017
So tonight was the night I was going to step foot into the gym. You know, pretend like I knew what I was doing. Turns out the little one had different plans. A call from the school to pick up a sick munchkin wins.
Competitive Me feels frustrated. Feels like the beginning of the same rut. The one that has me on the couch with some delicious coffee Haagen Dasz.
Mommy Me knows the munchkin will always come first in times of need. And I wouldn’t change that.
Realistic Me says sleep is an important part of a healthy, balanced life. Besides, who would turn down these kind of cuddles?
January 17, 2017
Um. Wow. Just wow. Where do I start? How do I start? What was I thinking?
Get healthy. Challenge yourself. Show your daughter how to be all the things you teach her to be. That’s what I was thinking. Remind me to stop thinking. I think.
So we stepped on to the most evil of all scales. No surprise or upset when it comes to the weight. It is what it is. It’s part of why I’m here. But man, pretty sure being willfully blind when it comes to muscle mass, body fat and metabolic age was much friendlier!
The goal this week: Eat 100 grams of protein and drink more than 3 litres of water per day. PER DAY! This is going to be interesting.
January 16, 2017
I don’t think I slept a wink last night. Information, faces and strategies ran through my mind non-stop. If I thought last nights event was a whirlwind I better buckle up.
It would probably be best if I stopped putting the cart before the horse. Tomorrow’s meeting will give me a better idea of what’s in store. But oh how I love to make a Plan B. And C. And D…..
January 15, 2017
Ahhh, what have I gotten myself into? I applied to be part of what I thought was a little makeover challenge. My plan, if I was selected, was to quietly participate in the challenge and see how far I could push myself. Heck, I hadn’t even told ANYONE that I’d applied.
Well silly me. There’s nothing “little” about this challenge. I just got home from a whirlwind evening filled with information, excitement and overwhelm. There were so many faces, so many names and so much positivity I can’t help but feel excited. And nervous. And excited.
Moral of the story: I have got to learn to research better before jumping in to things. Eyes wide shut.
Or do I? Sometimes you just have to jump in both feet first. Wish me luck!