Trip to Winterpeg
I secretly planned a trip to visit my sister in Winnipeg for this weekend. It’s my nephew’s birthday and I get to see my baby niece. I’m so excited and it’s right over voting week, which is kind of perfect. I will have something to keep my mind off of it and I hopefully won’t be super stressed. I get to help with my nephew’s birthday party and I’m even going to enjoy a cupcake! Thank you to everyone who has supported me and helped me along this journey!
We put the FUN in fundraiser!
Last night we had our Dazzling Divas fundraiser. We have been raising money for two great causes. My group chose The Meadow Rose Society, whom support impoverished children under 3 with fresh diapers and food. We are also supporting Shape Your World Society! The fundraiser was so much fun and I’m so glad we went first out of the 3 groups. We raised so much money and can’t wait to see how much more we can bring in with our extra stuff.
Makeover and Date night!
Today was makeover day!! I had been super stressed about what to wear for my photoshoot but with the help of my amazing group, we figured it out! I went to Art of Hair Design with Sandra and she was so fantastic. She knew exactly how to work with my hair and it looked amazing. I had so many compliments on my hair today! After hair, I went for my makeup with Bethany and Karina. They were so much fun and knew so much about makeup. I was so happy with how Bethany did my makeup, she used all the colours I would have picked. It was super nice to get pampered for the day. I was most nervous for the actual photoshoot but Photoart by Simpson was amazing! Arlene and Andrew made me feel like a million bucks and I felt like a star for the whole shoot. They even let me have a sneak peek of the photos and I was blown away!
I called my husband as soon as I was done the photoshoot and told him it was date night! So we had a wonderful evening together out on the town. We had a super nice dinner at Greek Islands and heading to a movie after that. It was such a fantastic day!
The struggle is real….
The scale is not my friend anymore. It has been going up and down, up and down. It has been super frustrating and discouraging. But my coach has been super fantastic and has definitely given me new insight. Although the scale hasn’t moved, my body has totally changed. I’ve lost inches every week and I’m feeling fantastic. So I’m going to keep doing what I’m doing and I’m going to get where I want. It just may take a bit longer than what I wanted.
I am exhausted! What an amazing day! I couldn’t believe the turn out for our Amazing Race and how many awesome costumes we saw. We had an awesome team made up of my sister and my two kids. We were all a character from Batman and had sooo much fun running around to all the different stops. We really thought we might have a chance of winning the race but some teams must have had teleporters, they were so fast. It probably didn’t help that my five-year-old was done after the second stop. But she was a trooper and we had a blast! And a special thank you to my hubby who wore a onesie for his costume. He said ‘If this doesn’t show how much I love you, I don’t know what does’.
I MADE TOP 15!!! I was so nervous when they started calling all the Top 15 ladies up to the front. I wasn’t sure I did enough to make the next round. I was ecstatic when they said my name! I’m so excited and so ready to get on with the next challenge!! Bring it on.
It was bittersweet to have to say goodbye to some of the girls that won’t be moving on. I sure hope they try for the Wild Card and continue to come to Tuesday meetings. Now off to bed!
FIRST PLACE!! Looks like I ended first place in voting!! I can’t believe it. I think this whole voting process has been the best part of the challenge for me thus far! I’m blown away by how many people went out of their way to vote for me. There were people I have never even met, voting for me! I had people I haven’t talked to in a long time, vote for me. It felt so good to know how many people are rooting for me to win this thing! And to think I was so ready to give up a few weeks ago.
I really appreciate everyone who has gone out of their way to help and support me. THANK YOU to all my friends, family and people I haven’t even met! I want to say a big Thank You to my sister, Hannah, who has been a big reason I’ve come this far. She is my gym partner every day and is always up for trying new routines or workouts when I need to switch things up. I could go on with a list of people I need to thank, but I will save that for when I win this thing!
This has been such a tough week! Trying to keep my mind off the voting and staying focused has been such a challenge. We had our final weigh in tonight before we get cut from 30 ladies to 15. I was hoping for a super great number on the scale to help push me into the top 15. I lost 3 pounds this week! I will take that number! I have completely changed how I’m going to work out. I tried my first HIIT workout yesterday and Zumba today. I thought I was going to die after the HIIT workout but man I felt accomplished! And Zumba was probably the best workout I’ve had in a long time. It may not have been very pretty but I was still working my butt off. And my instructor was so great and so good at what she does. I will definitely go again! I just hope I won’t be as sore tomorrow as I am right now.
Cracked Under Pressure
This weekend was our Real Me seminar. It was incredible! I had such an amazing time getting to know all the other women in the challenge. It’s really hard to think of this as a competition while we’re forming such great friendships.
There were so many great exercises that we completed to understand so much about ourselves. It was a real eye opener in some areas. I learned that I possess different skills and strengths that I had no idea I had! It gave me some great ideas for what I should do when I grow up.
It was during one of our exercises that involved regret that I lost it. And, as pointed out by one of my fellow contestants, I swore I would not cry during this process. But, alas, I lost it during our ‘eulogy’. We had to write out our own eulogies and we also had to state who was going to read it out loud at our funeral. Something really struck a chord with me during that. I really started to think about what other people thought of me and whether or not that’s the way I want to be perceived. I really took a lot away from this weekend and had a blast hanging out with the other ladies!
Today is the start of VOTING!! I could barely sleep last night because I’m so anxious. I’ve been trying to network as much as I can and I hope it’s enough to bring in the votes. My sisters have been such big supporters and the rest of my family has given me a ton of support as well. I’m overwhelmed with how many people have been encouraging and supporting this whole journey I’m on. I want to thank everyone who’s been a part of this whole experience with me!! I appreciate it more than I can put into words!
The Real Me
I just got back from our first session from the Real Me seminar. We go back again on Friday and Saturday. I think this is going to be a super intense weekend. Tonight they gave us a glimpse of what we’re in for and I’m a bit nervous for the rest. There’s going to be a lot of digging deep to pull out all the crap and obstacles that’s stopping us from being who we are supposed to be. I’m excited and a bit nervous. I’m not one to cry in big groups or get in touch with my inner self, but I’m going to keep an open mind and hope for the best.
We had our second to last weigh in tonight before the first segment ends. It was a little discouraging…again. I went up a pound but went down in inches. I definitely have to kick it up a notch this week. I’m hoping to try some new things this week and get in some more cardio. My eating hasn’t changed at all so I guess my body isn’t liking the workouts I’ve been doing. I’m not sure but I have to figure it out.
I so badly want to make it to the top 15 but I fear my weight loss won’t be enough to get there. I’m hoping I can rock the votes and hope I score enough participation points to make up for the lack of loss. And now for the Real Me Seminar….
We are in Squamish for the weekend for my son’s hockey tournament. It’s so hard to stay on track when you aren’t at home with all your everyday things…like a sink. I brought all my shake stuff but I forgot to bring dish soap to wash the container. Eww….so that’s made things difficult and I haven’t had as many shakes as I should. And when the family is eating out every day, it’s hard not to join them. I made a few good choices and I made a few bad choices. It has been a very tough weekend. Living out of a hotel for 4 days really messes you up.
But we’ve had a lot of fun just hanging out together as a family. We were able to spend a bit of time in Whistler, which is one of my favourite places. And Squamish is beautiful as well, so I will make the most of the weekend and get back on track tomorrow.
What Friends Are For
At some point this week I mentally gave up on everything. Today I binged on food, just like I used to. Completely threw healthy eating out the window. With all the snow and ice that we have had to deal with, I haven’t been able to go for a walk or get to the gym. It’s been super tough. I haven’t even been wearing my Fitbit, which just doesn’t ever happen. I even started thinking of things I could do or say to get out of our seminar that’s scheduled for next week. Done and done.
But I have amazing friends who like to call me out on my shit. My girlfriend verbally slapped me across my face today and gave me the wake up call that I needed. She told me exactly what I needed to hear and I’m super thankful for her! So I’m back on track as soon as I wake up. We are heading to Squamish for the weekend and I intend on making full use of the hotel gym. I’m going to try Zumba on Tuesday for the first time and maybe even a spin class. Time to mix things up a bit. Thank you for the ass kicking today, Jen!
I feel like I’ve hit a wall. I have been researching plateaus and what happens when you hit one. I didn’t really even believe in plateaus but I guess it’s an actual thing. I’ve lost 50 pounds since last March but haven’t been able to get passed 50. I’ve been fluctuating for a few months and I’m not sure what to do. So I’ve been reading up on things to do and different things to try. Hopefully I can turn things around. We only have 2 more weeks until the top 15 are announced. I really want to be able to make it to the next round but I don’t think I’ll get there with weight alone.
Well, had another weigh in for the Total Makeover Challenge. I have to be honest that I wasn’t super motivated over the weekend. Friday really messed with my head. I was expecting a super awful number on the scale but I only went up 0.8 from last Tuesday. So maybe Friday was an anomaly? I dunno, but I won’t question it. I’m still a bit frustrated that I’m not losing weight like some of the other girls. Lots of girls have hit double digits for weight loss already!
After weigh in we went on a field trip. Half of us went to Save On for a tour with a dietitian. She was super informative and gave us lots of great tips and tricks. I now know what a jicama is and look forward to trying one. We also went to Shoppers for a beauty lesson. We watched one of our girls get a makeover and it was super cool to see her tricks for applying makeup.
We were also given a blitz challenge for the week. We have to sell 10 booklets of tickets for some pretty awesome prizes. I feel like I’ve tapped out my friends and family with all the fundraising we have to do for hockey and dance. I’m hoping I can sell a couple. Starting to feel overwhelmed again with everything we have to do. Hopefully I can prioritize and chip away at everything.
I met with my Herbalife coach today and didn’t have an awesome time….ugh. I stepped on her fancy schmancy scale that measures everything from muscle mass to water levels. Most times I love it but not today. After having such a great weigh in on Tuesday at our TMC meeting, I was hopeful for another good number. Goodness knows I’ve worked my butt off these last few weeks. BUT her fancy scale said I went up 2 pounds!! Ain’t cool man. That really got in my head. I’ve been super bummed all day and definitely feel defeated. Not sure how much more I can do to get the numbers to go in the right direction.
I’ve been stressing all week about weigh-in because I figured it would be a big night for me. I went to the gym with my sister this morning and felt really motivated. I was able to hold a plank for 2 minutes!! With my emotions being all crazy this week, I almost broke down in the gym and cried. When we started going to the gym last March, I was able to hold a plank for 10 seconds. I realized how far I’ve come in just under a year and I was blown away. I decided my weigh-in was going to be great.
At the meeting we started with our weigh-in and I held my breath….1.8 pounds lost this week! That put me under that stubborn number!! And then I cried, it’s on film somewhere thanks to Trish. I think the girls thought I had a bad week. But I told a few of them why this number meant so much to me and then I cried some more. Ugh.
To top it all off we had Heather and Kim come in to talk to us about self esteem and self worth. Not my favourite topic. Especially when we had to accept compliments from everyone. Super uncomfortable for me. And apparently there will be a lot more of that in our Real Me Seminar. So I better start preparing myself now.
Weigh-In with Gina
Gina has been my Herbalife coach since last March and I have been doing really well with her. I’ve lost around 46 pounds so far and many inches. But today when I weighed in with her I was at this dang number that I can’t seem to get past. I hit this number in the summer and sabotaged myself by gaining 8 pounds. So I’ve finally shed those stubborn pounds but now it’s all in my mind. I haven’t been able to pass this stupid number and I think it’s because I haven’t been below this number in 9 years(since my son was born)!! My hubby and I struggled with a bunch of miscarriages before and after we had my son. And I’d always gain a few pounds but never be able to drop them before I got pregnant again. So now I’m at this point of no return. Either get over this emotional hurdle and move on with life or stay the weight you are forever. Gina has been so amazing with me. She gave me a kick in the butt and told me I WILL get passed this number next week. Sooooo we shall see.
Social Media Guru
Part of the challenge that I have been dreading, is the social media aspect. I’ve never been a big poster on Facebook. I had all my settings to the most extreme privacy and didn’t have very many Facebook friends. So when we started this challenge and I had to change my ways, I was terrified. But tonight we had a social media queen come and talk to us. She has used social media to create a business for her and her family. It was amazing to listen to her story, she was very inspirational. And she had so many tips and tricks for how to utilize all our platforms to make the most of this experience. I know a big part of this challenge is to give us all a voice, which many of us have never had, but ugh it sure is taking me out of my comfort zone.
Another exciting part of our meeting was the weigh-in. After this first week I lost 5 pounds!! Long way to go, but super excited! Hopefully I can stay on track this week and have more great numbers!
Life Coach Meeting
I had my appointment with our life coach, Heather Rieder, who is amazing! She really dug in deep and I was a bit resistant at first but she kept digging. She really wanted to get to the root of my low self esteem and after a few hard fought tears, she nailed it. Now she wants me to begin the journey of undoing the damage. She said I have to unlearn my learned behaviour, ugh which isn’t something that will happen over night. It sure wasn’t the easiest 30 minutes of my life but I feel like it was one of the most impactful. Heather was so relatable and really connected with my story, I can’t wait to see her again at our seminar!
I feel so pumped up about this challenge! The women are wonderful, the sponsors are incredible and the organizers are encouraging. I’m not feeling as overwhelmed as I was a few days ago. I’ve decided to take everything in stride and focus on one thing at a time.
First Tuesday Meeting
I feel as though ‘overwhelmed’ will be an ongoing theme for awhile. There was so much information tonight! I’m so thankful we get handouts for everything because I would for sure forget everything. I always want to take on as much as I can and tonight as I drove home, I realized I need to compartmentalize each part of the challenge. The most important part is to focus on me and bettering me. I need to put the competition part aside because otherwise it will consume me. The information that Gina had from Herbalife was amazing!! Nutrition education is such a huge part of losing weight and not everyone has the tools we were given tonight. I’m feeling so grateful that I was chosen for this amazing experience and I hope I make the best of it.
The day after
I woke up feeling pretty pumped for the day and that wasn’t just because today is my birthday!! I don’t feel as overwhelmed as I did last night but it’s still a lot of information to take in. I want to win this thing!! So I ate healthy all day and the true challenge came during my birthday dinner. My family took me out for dinner and I think I made pretty good choices. But then out came a slice of brownie birthday cake covered with whipped cream! I wish I could say I had enough will power to say no to the cake but I won’t lie. I did have a few bites because whipped cream is my favourite. It was my birthday after all and I’, not going to feel guilty over a few bites of brownie.
I started my 100 days of happiness today! I figured my birthday is my favourite day of the year and makes me happy so a great day to start. Hopefully the rest of the week will be great.
Meet and Greet
My first night of the Total Makeover Challenge and feeling ALL the emotions! I am honestly a bit overwhelmed and frankly terrified. Tonight’s ‘Meet and Greet’ was completely out of my comfort zone. I married a social butterfly so that I didn’t have to be but I was all by myself tonight. It was surprisingly not as painful as I thought it would be. I found a table right away and the girls were all so friendly. As I sat there taking everything in, I couldn’t help but feel inspired. I was inspired by every single woman who is now sharing this journey with me. I want to know every single one of our stories and celebrate them, because we matter! And that was the phrase that stuck with me all night, it isn’t something I have believed in a long time. I am hoping this journey will give us all that power back.
I know there is a ton of work ahead of me and I know I will need a day or two to process all the information thrown at us tonight. But I feel positive and motivated to keep on track. I am so looking forward to Tuesday’s first meeting.