Well Tuesday my journey ended with TMC. This will be my last blog entry on here.
My journey is not over, it is just starting! Please follow me on FB if you wish to continue watching me grow.
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Thanks so much for all your support through out this whole challenge.
There are 6 Amazing Women in Abbotsford and 6 in Langley that deserve to win. Please check out their blogs and vote for them with the time comes!
All the best!
Signing off Tara Lawrence
Well folks this could be my final entry. I first off want to thank you all for the support though out my journey. I am so blessed to have so many amazing people in my life. If I don’t make Top5 tomorrow, my journey is not over. I would hope that you would still love to watch my journey in life and weight loss, as I won’t be giving up my goals just because I did not advance in the challenge. So please find me on Facebook, find my group and follow along, lend an ear, and share you thoughts. It’s never over! We never know what the future holds and what can happen. So here is to me making TOP5 and if not here is to me continuing on the journey and crushing my goals!
April 10, 2017 – How does one relax?
Well I am stressed beyond belief, so how does one distress? Well I buy myself Lily’s and clean my house! So that is exactly what I did today when work was done. I cleaned my house, did my laundry, and started to gut out my cloths and my daughters cloths, started to do a little bit of spring cleaning. Bring on this weekend we I can get right into it and hit it hard. So as I write this for you, I am sitting on my couch watching some tv with a nice clean house, eating more cookies then I should and enjoying the amazing smell of my lily’s. All in all a great way to end my Monday!
April 10, 2017 – Just what a girl needs
Well I woke up still rough, still unsure what I am going to do. But as I said yesterday I am waiting till Tuesday to figure out my next steps.
So today I focus on today. AND today is YOGA day. I love my Monday yoga days! Why? Well because it’s a great way to start the week, and my girl Sarah has been with me since day one going to Yoga. Today was a bitter sweet day as this could be the last time her and I got to go to yoga together. As of tomorrow one of us could not be in Top5, or both of us could be out, or the best outcome we both make it in to Top5. So to start my week off right and with my ray of sunshine on my cloudy days is just what I needed after last night.
April 9, 2017 – Breaking point
Well tonight I hit it, I hit my breaking point. We just got the list of the next set of dates for those who make Top5. We I broke down. I looked at the list and all the dates that I would either be late to, unable to attend, or be shipping my kid of to live with someone else for the weekend. It is a lot for a single mom to take on. My daughter is very active in in gymnastics, dance and swimming. It is a lot for me to expect someone else to just jump in and deal with my busy life style. It’s okay for me but I made it that way. But to expect someone to take over and get her lunches ready, her ready, take her to daycare, take her to dance, and then keep her for over 3 nights. It’s a lot! So I broke down, I cried a lot, I even asked my self is this worth it. I know I know I have come so far and worked so hard, but at what point do you deiced it’s enough, or that you can stick it out another 5 weeks. What is 5 more weeks? Well it’s a lot, we are coming up to Easter and Mother’s day and then my mini me she is starting Tball again.
So after a long cry, followed by an email to Jenny, and some texts with my girl Jenn, I decided to sleep on it and wait it out till Tuesday, then when my fate is sealed I can then worry about what I have to do and what I may not have to do. Who knows I am not even make Top5 and all this stuff that I am worrying about may not even been worth in. Stress about the things you can change not the things you can’t!
April 9, 2017 – Mommy day
So yesterday was mommy daughter day, and today is all about mommy day. I booked a few weeks back another paint night, in this case paint afternoon. I am slowly starting to become addicted to doing these. It is so nice to just take a moment out of your life not focus on anything and just get lost in the moment. Painting seems to be a nice release for me, where I can just let go and not worry about anything. The bonus part I get to keep an amazing piece that I created! I now have 3 amazing pieces.
Check out my latest addition.
April 8, 2017 – DATE DATE
OMG it is about time I get to have a day with my mini me, just us to doing it all. What a fantastic day, to take time out and now focus on anything but her. First we did our normal routine, gym at T&N Fitness, followed by Dance at ADC and then off to DATE DAY!
#1 Have lunch. We went to BP and had a great time out eating food we should not have eaten, but was so good and worth it.
#2 Have a nap. Yep that is exactly what we did, we cuddled in her room and just had a good old school nap.
#3 Go to a movie. We had already seen Beauty and the Beast last week, so we went to the new Smurfs movie and ran in to a daycare friend of hers. She was so happy and it was nice to get to know another mom from the daycare.
#4 Bake cookies at 8pm at night. Because why not! She asked and we baked. So yummy, fresh homemade chocolate chip cookies go right to the hipps!
Over all we had a great day and so long overdue! This challenge has taken a lot from us and our time, it was nice that voting was done, all the challenge part of round #2 was complete, and now I could just take a break and focus on us and mommy daughter time. You don’t want to miss out on all these moments, so make them count when you can!
April 7, 2017 – Happy Friday
Happy Friday, today my daughter lost another tooth. Yippee she has now lost 4 teeth. Look how cute she looks.
Also today is the day I got to go to another amazing class by Ashley Bishop. She is one hell of a Zumba instructor. I love her classes and this was the quickest turn around. Last time she was down was for the amazing race by TMC so to have her back within a month is AMAZING and rare. Please follow her on facebook and next time she is in town hope to see you at her class.
April 6, 2016 – Thursday
Well folks, everything is done. Voting is done, the fundraising is done and now it is out of my hands. So what a better time to next the next few days off from blogging, the challenge, and spend some time with my mini me enjoying life. Please check back Monday and I will update you all on all my adventures this weekend.
April 5, 2016 – VOTING IS DONE
Wow wee what a whirl wind. So overwhelmed with everything; I am so thankful that voting is done. Firstly I want to thank every single person that voted for me, that went out of their way to vote, got their family and friends to vote, shared all my pictures on FB, and put up with me honing and begging for votes. My support system is amazing, and I get to find out the results on April 11th. SOOOOO long away, I know it’s not a secret but I know Jenny and Trish just love to hold out on the news and make us squirm. Tuesday cannot come fast enough. So hopefully next week I will get to post this for all to see!
BUT no matter what, weather I make TOP 5, or even TOP 1, in May, or don’t even continue, I am a winner. I have an amazing support system, from family and friends, near, far and even ones across the ocean. This makes me so happy and a winner in life. What else could anyone ask for? Nothing absolutley nothing!
April 4, 2017 – To make you smile
So I went to the gym today and again was reminding all my ladies to vote for me and then I spotted this on the door. Oh my gosh, how much support I have with in this studio, that the owner, my boss, actually leaves notes to remind the other classes to vote me. What a happy for my day.
Then I later get a text from a friend that she has added to her kid’s chore list to vote for me. How awesome is that? I am so blessed to have this wonderful people in life that I can count on to support me through this journey.
April 4, 2017 – Weigh in
Well it’s Tuesday, weigh in, not really my fav day of the week, but always nice to see the change in my body with pictures. Because let’s be honest the scale was not my friend this week. I gained .2 lbs BUT loss 1 more inch. So that tells me I am gaining muscle not fat. And that my friend is good news. So this time I celebrate my gain and love my curvy body.
April 4, 2016 – Fitness Testing
Well it’s been a month since I last did fitness testing with T&N Fitness. I must say I wasn’t looking forward to it, but I actually did quite well. My running not so much, but hey who actually likes running, not I. But I am honestly so proud of myself and my improvement.
April 2, 2017 –Catch up day
Well here is a first, I stayed in bed all morning, no gym, no get up early, no go go go, just stayed in bed and snuggled my mini me. What a change, this is something since the challenge started that we have not done. Its always go go go. What a breath of fresh air. Then we got ready, headed out to do some grocery shopping, and then home to clean house, do laundry, and make lunches for the week. Followed by all this I made dinner and just relaxed. What a nice Sunday!
March 31, 2016 – EVENT NIGHT!
Whooo what a night! We rocked it! Not once did I notice anyone of us frazzled, or stressed. But all kidding aside I feel we did amazing. Our team looked fabulous and I didn’t get home till after 1230 am, so must have been a good night. My team was by far the best team, I think. We worked so well together, everyone put in the work, and no one was a slacker. It was so nice to have a team that was a team and wasn’t just acting like a team. Not only were we a team for this we were a team for all of the segment. We built each other up, helped one another out, got to know each other, and built some amazing bonds. I 100% miss judged some of my team mates and so happy and blessed that I got to know them for them and not the judgement I had made. Each one of my team mates brought their own flair to the group and I feel that is what set up for just a huge success. I don’t feel we would have had the success and ideas with any other group. Not that I don’t love the other ladies in the challenge, I do, I just felt our group clicked so well, based off our past, our experiences, and our personalities, we could have bonded any better. I could go on and on about our team and event, but I know my other challengers read my blog so you will just have to stay tuned till all is revealed. I will leave you with this amazing photo taken by my besty Jenny from JC Moments.
March 30, 2017 – Support Langley 9 Strong
As you all know we are in the Apprentice portion of the TMC. Were we all got into groups and had to team build and put on a fundraiser t support Shape your world society and a charity of choice. Well tonight is my voting buddy Teresa Randles event night. So of course I have to go show some love. What makes it even better is their charity is for the breakfast club which meant their whole event was about kids and kid friends, so can I hear you say, heck yeah date night with my mini me. She was so excited to play the Candy Lonnie toss and won as well she received a goodie bag. Was like going to a birthday party but way cooler for adults. Love it. Also got to hang out with some amazing ladies and have a great night out.
March 29, 2017 – Real talk
Alright so I know my blog looks like this challenge is all happy go lucky time. But I am stressed, I am overwhelmed, and I am seriously counting down the days till voting ends, the pressure is off and my fate for TOP 5 is set, I can’t change it.
This segment has been a rough ride that’s for sure. So much work for our pub night on Friday, the not knowing where you stand or where your placing. The unknown is just a lot for me. I am trying to take time out and focus on my personal life, time with my daughter and time with my boyfriend, but the balance is a real struggle. Here is crossing my fingers, toes, and anything else that the last and final segment is a lot more relaxes and free flowing. I need my sanity back. By no means have I given up, I just have hit my point of where I have given my all that I can and that I am done and ready for the verdict.
I wonder, did I put in enough time, did I loss enough weight and inches, and did I participate enough? Really this is all things that I can’t really change, now, and realize that I have tried my hardest and now it’s all down to votes. This, my friend is where you come in, you votes could be the last thing that helps me make TOP5 or not. No pressure right?!?!
Either way, no matter the verdict, I will be happy with the job I did. I will get to resume life and get back to normal, whatever that is. I have learned so much from this challenge, what my strengths and weakness are. Learning to not sweat the small things, and focus on the larger issues. Does it matter that not all my fellow challengers like me? No. Does it matter that I don’t like all my fellow challengers? No. What matters is that I am doing my best, I am being my best and I am respecting all my fellow challengers.
On a personal level, I am struggling to balance everything, as I stated before. My daughter is home “sick” today. The mother in me is like nah girl you not sick go to daycare, were the other mother in me is like yes stay home, I miss you, we can be “sick” together. Balancing work, challenge and personal life is hard. Life is hard. It is taking a toll on me for sure.
I get this is not the happy talk your all used to, but it’s real, its real life. And as we all know real life is not rainbows and unicorns. Its drama, stress, plans not working out, and busy, or at least my life is. With this challenge it has up my level to a degree I have never experienced. These last 3 weeks have been my breaking point. I tell myself today, one more week, you can do this for one more week. Just because it’s rough now, doesn’t mean it will be forever, this is just helping me so when life throws me another curve ball I can deal with it and not allow it to break me down. Life only gives us what we can handle. Thanks life, but I’m at my quota!
So my friends I ask you to help me get through this week help support me and remind me that I can do this. I have come so far, it’s not time to give up, it’s the final 15 min of a work out, the last 30 seconds of a speech, the final push during delivery, I got this and I will make TOP5. Will you help me?
March 28, 2017 – Weigh in and measurements
Well today was weigh in and measurements, these are the numbers that go into the Abby News. I have stayed on track but not 100% so I’m sure I could be a lot farther in my weight loss but I really like food. So I stick with consistency, same weight loss, and healthy weight loss. But what did get me was the inch loss, I was so happy it was the largest I have had to date.
I know I know, your anxious you want to know. Should I tell you? Ok Ok I will.
Last night’s #’s are
1.8 lbs down for a total f 18.6 lbs overall
5.75 inches down for a total of 13.75 inches overall.
Are you doing the happy dance with me??!!??!!
March 26, 2017 – Pub Night Prep
What a long day. Man we have so many prizes for our Pub Night, and if you have forgotten, its FRIDAY MARCH 31, 2017 @ 6pm till 11pm, but let’s be honest, the party won’t stop with this crew!
But let’s get real, check out just a glimpse of some of our amazing prizes you could win. How could you even think about missing this event??? I don’t know! Let’s not let that happen!
I must say these ladies are doing such amazing jobs bring this all together. Hours of prep, just even take today, they were at my place from 1pm till just after 8pm, getting all the final touches together. I am so proud of them! We are going to rock this Friday. Win or loss, bring in the most money or not, we are going to have an amazing time! Hope to see you then!
March 25, 2017 – Mission Fair
Well yesterday I told you that my mini and I went to the movies, while at the movies we noticed that the fair was at the mall, so today we are now at the fair. What a nice family event. My bf and I had taken Ainzlee and Jenn’s daughter to the fair for fun filled night out. The kids had a blast. They went on this one ride called the sling shot over and over and over for about 45 min straight, money well spent! My daughter has no fear and has the same love for rides as I do. I must say that it was a bit sad at times because my baby is no longer a baby; going on the big kid rides alone without mom, and then riding with some of my friend’s older kids. I was that mom for sure, making sure the ride attendant double checked she was buckled in, but it was a first for me to allow her on a ride for the older kids when I still think she is my baby. As the night went on I got more relaxed and the two kids lasted well past 830pm. They just kept going and going and saying one more ride, please just one more. Finally it got to cold and the night was done. We took them home and it wasn’t long before both girls were out cold. Now that’s what I call a job well done.
March 24, 2017 – Just because
Seriously I can’t get over how adorable I look today. My glam team is amazing. All day and right through the night I am still looking great. Like in my PJ’s I still feel like a million bucks! I don’t think I have ever liked my appearance as much as I do today. I feel so pretty, happy and just on top of the world. It is a nice feeling, if I could have this glam team with me every day, oh the possibilities. I hope one day, if not many days you too can just feel how I feel today. Today has been my favourite day and part of this challenge.
March 24, 2017 – Mommy daughter date night
Well right after photos with Photo Art by Simpson, I rushed over to pick up my daughter and heading right to the theater to have a date night, that was well deserved with my mini me. We went to see Beauty and the Beast. What a great movie. It was so nice to get to do something with just my mini me. This challenge has taken a lot from our one on one, so it is nice to always fit in these special moments! She even wore her Belle dress.
March 24, 2017 – MAKE OVER
Today is the day, the day we all wait for, THE MAKE OVER!
Step 1 – OUTFIT: Thank to my amazing cloths for fitting me so well.
Step 2 – HAIR: Thanks Kritsy from Fusion Hair for her amazing work on my boring hair, I felt amazing!
Step 3 – MAKEUP: Thanks to Karina for allowing us to use her amazing Arbonne line, and to Bethany from Beauty By B for making my face look flawless.
Sept 4 – COMPLETE: Now off to Photo Art By Simpson to get some amazing after shots done. Can’t wait to see them!
I honestly feel like a million bucks, I love how it all turned out, the before and after pictures are just crazy to me. One because I can look this way and two like seriously double take is that me??
March 22, 2017 – Paint Night
Tonight was paint night, finally something not challenge related. This was actually another fundraiser of mine for a race that I will be completing in Oct. It will be my 4th time participating in the Women2warrior event in Vancouver, and as part of the race each member is to raise $300 to help Easter Seals. W2W is a 5k obstacle race that happens annually in Burnaby. It’s a women only event, and they have such a great volunteer team. I look forward to it every year. Candace and I usually do pub nights, but I have really come to love paint nights so I figure why not make that our fundraiser, and try something new. Well what a success, we made $900 for our team and had a blast; even go a nice keep sake. As an added bonus I got to spend the night out with friends and fellow challengers, just having a great time and not worrying about my next move. It’s amazing how we all got the same instructions but different end results. If you haven’t tried an event yet with Paint night, do it, it’s amazing!
March 30th @3pm VOTING STARTS
April 4th @ 12pm VOTING CLOSES
Please vote for me!
March 22, 2017 – Last week’s memories
Well Happy Wednesday Everyone. As I stated last week was so busy and full of so much adventure. I wanted to give you a quick in site to my life last week and all the amazing memories that came from it.
From Wed to Wed:
Wednesday the 15th – was our dry run at Old Spaghetti Factory, we were honoured to server Jenny and Trish. This was supposed to be over the top stress to prepare us for our real run. Well Jenny and Trish did not disappoint. They came out will everything they could and did the task at hand perfectly!
Thursday the 16th – Zumba, it was my weekly Zumba class at T & N fitness. Always a blast!
Friday the 17th – St Patrick’s Day and a sleep over night for my daughter and a friend. So not only was it a late night for her, it was for me, as Jenn came over to hang out and work on some planning for our fundraiser. Before I had picked up the kids and met Jenn at my home, we headed to our venue to plan out how things would go, and ran into to very unique men from another non profit called “James Movement” We invited them to our fundraiser, so maybe you too with get to meet them.
Saturday the 18th – Regular early morning gym date with Jenn, who no showed. Apparently sleep was more important. From there we headed to Karina’s house for just a nice morning with kids running around, screaming, and well-being kids. She made us the amazing coffee and we talked about what our future could hold, hint, something AMAZING. Once we left Karina’s, Jenn and I did some decoration shopping and can you tell she had a blast with my kid. Following that I got to head home, have a nap and then head to my mom’s house for our month family dinner night. It’s always nice to take a break out and just be with family.
Sunday the 19th – Early morning gym date with…..um myself I guess, but when I made it to the gym I was happy to see Cindy, Gwen and my girl Sarah. Following the gym I met with some member of my tem for a hike up Tea Pot Trail. After that we had a team meeting with dinner, TACOS, cooked by me. I love to cook!
Monday the 20th – Was our actual Spaghetti Factory Night event, again what an amazing night. Also Jenn surprised each one of use with a cute necklace, this is mine. I love it so much!
Tuesday the 21st – Ainzlee lost another tooth, and of course weekly TMC meeting, complete with weight in.
Wednesday the 22nd – Today, just your average day, BUT tonight I get to go to my paint night and have a night off from the challenge!
So folks that a week of memories!
March 21, 2017 – Toastmasters and speeches
Tonight’s meeting was brought to you by Toastmasters; they came in to teach us how to do speeches. As part of our assignment we got 10 min to create a speech about why we joined the challenge. I figured I wanted to share my speech with you.
“Hi My name is Tara. So why did I join Total make over challenge, well it was because of Candace, she was a challenger from 2016. I watched her go through it and figured this is not for me. So fast forward to late 2016 when registration opened for the 2017 season. She dropped it out there told me I would do fine and I should join. I was like yeah like where would I find the time? So I kept putting it off, till early Dec when I said “f” it lets do this. So I jumped right in and took the plugged. Then completely forgot about it. On January 13, I received a call from Candace, it through me off, because we not the type of friends that EVER talk on the phone, and then it click oh TMC she calling me. So I answered and said “YYYYYYEEEESSSS, can I help you?” She then answered and said guess what you’re in. I was excited and then I was wait I’m a single mom, what am I going to do with my kid? After an hour of figuring it out and talking to a girlfriend of mine, Melinda, who is currently my stand in baby momma. I called Candace and said I’M IN! To this day I have no regrets giving up my time from my daughter, or having a schedule that is almost more stressful then I can handle, BECAUSE the bonds, the friendships, and the memories I am creating are 100% worth it. Making Top 15, making Top 5, or even becoming #1, doesn’t mean anything to me. It’s the women, these women, these women that are now my support system, my friends, and even my family! This is why I did this! It was my time to shine!”
Ok so that may not be exactly what I said word for word, but man it was nerve racking, I was shaking the whole time, but once it was done, it was just that 2 mins of pressure and anxiety that is now done and over with, for now!
March 20, 2017 – OSF P2
Well tonight the Rack Pack got together as a team and did something outside the box to raise money towards our charities. Tonight we got to be the staff at Old Spaghetti Factory in Abbotsford. Now not only was this out of the box, it was out of a few of my team members comfort zones, as well as myself. But we did it, as a team and rocked the shit out of it. There was no arguing, fighting, or tension. Just straight up laughter, bonding, and fun. We had the people that mattered the most to us come if they could. We had Bonnie as our hostess, who got to greet and seat everyone, followed by our waitress, Tanya, Carly, and Sheryl, whom all had experience in this field, as well as Jenn, who did not have that much experience. Looking at them working, you wouldn’t have known which ladies were experienced and which weren’t. Then we had me, I was the clean-up crew, sell raffles girl and the make sure all of guest were happy lady. We did AMAZING, I am so freaking proud of each one of my team mates. They took this challenge on and knocked it outta the park.
I also want to thank Jason and his team for not only take a chance on us, but allowing us to complete this event without any hiccups.
As a bonus it will be Bonnie’s birthday on Wednesday so as a team, we served her dinner, got her flowers and a card and sang Happy Birthday, Old Spaghetti Style. She sure was surprised.
March 19, 2017 – Team meeting and hike
As a team we decide we should go for a hike, ok let’s be honestly Tanya suggested it and we did it! What a great time, getting to know more members of my team on a more friendly non challenge level. We are all similar and different. I can’t tell you enough how much I love these girls, you’re like sure your just making it up, but no I really do! Each one has their own thing that makes them special. Like who actually hikes with people and their kids if they don’t like each other? So our hike consisted of Tanya, Sheryl, Jenn, her daughter, and myself with my mini me. We had a blast, and the kids did great. We found 67 tea pots, or like items. After the hike, we headed back to my place for another team meeting, and what would be a meeting at my place without FOOD. Well I cooked us all tacos and we had Carly and her two boys come as well. Bonnie was unavailable as she was dealing with her daughter’s fundraiser and Alyssa was asleep, because she has a shit schedule and works nights, A LOT. But none the less, they were both there in spirit and always contribute via text and phone calls.
We ended the night early and I had planned to blog, but as you can see by my previous posts, it was a busy week and all I wanted was my bed, hence why it’s technically Monday and I am catching up on all my blogging!
March 17, 2017 – Pub Prep
Well first off Happy St. Patrick’s day! Hope you are enjoy good food and green drinks.
I spent my night with Jenn working on some pub night planning. Man oh man this is going to be one amazing night. Now I have done many events but nothing like this. A lot of work and lot of prep, but I am grouped with such a fantastic team, everyone is doing there share and no one is left out. But seriously look at these tickets we got on Tuesday. Are they not amazing??!! If you don’t have plans, come out and join us. You won’t regret it!
March 14, 2017 –Weigh in
Well guys, I am back on track! Last week I went up but this week I went down and down enough to be at my lowest total loss for the whole challenge.
Drum roll please………
Currently down 15.6 lbs over all! * HAPPY DANCE* Dance with me, we are all happy!
Also because everyone love a progress picture, here is mine!
March 12, 2017 – Business meeting
Short and sweet, I had a business meeting, which means I had to actual wear normal casual business cloths. Well I was shocked to see how amazing my body looked in my cloths. I have curves that I love, I have a booty that is now defined, and no more tummy rolls in my jeans. I am very happy with the way my body is looking. How many can say that? No many and that is a shame. We all have something we each love about ourselves. So my challenge for you readers, wake up each morning and tell yourself what you love! I know there are many things you can find, and before you know it you will start to love your body all over again and be proud of what you have. It took me 2 months to begin to love my body, so it doesn’t happen overnight. But like Heather says, tell yourself till you believe it and soon it will be in your DNA and you will not only believe it but preach it, feel it and show it!
March 12, 2017 – Girls Fly Too
Oh my, what a great day! Yes we waiting over 2 hours for a 20 min flight, but man Jenn’s daughter and mine had a blast during the ride and watching their faces light up with the experience was just the icing on the cake. So No fly Limits, puts on an even once a year where they promote women in the air force, and give out free rides to girls in a helicopter. Now my daughter has been in an air plain and loves it so it was like a no brainer for me. Yes we must go, so I got tickets. They had plains all over the air strip that you could go in and out of, like air show, and then had police dog shows with drills, and many other units, such as hover boars, small mini plains and tanks. So many men and women in uniform, from all types of divisions, it was nice to see that. It was a great event; I know we will be back! What made it special we got to share these moments with Jenn and her daughter and my other girlfriend Jen and her daughter, so many great memories! I even got to catch up with Jen’s mom Virgina whom I haven’t seen in such a long time. My life has opened up to so many great experiences that I can’t help but smile and think this time last year I may not have the same people in my life or the strength of the bounds with the current people in my life. Everything happens for a reason. But seriously check out these memories!
March 11, 2017 – Happy Saturday
I have been looking forward to today all week. COSTCO! Who doesn’t love Costco?! Well I got to go shopping with my girl Jenn. We shopped Costco, ate snacks and just had a great time. From there we went to Wal-Mart and then I went to Save-on-Foods. Yep I went EVERYWARE today. It was my free day to shop and stock up. Then the best part, I got to have my team for round #2 over to my home, were we got to just plan, team build and prep for our pub night on March 31, 2017. Oh my we have so many exciting things planned, but mostly these girls are amazing. I can’t believe how much we have bonded and how much we just click and get each other. What was great is that one of the girls couldn’t make it till later, but she actually gave up all her breaks so she could come early. Now that’s a team player. But seriously check out my crew, they are amazing! Team The Rack Pack all the way!
*note Alyssa is missing (sad face)
March 10, 2017 – Just another Friday
Well just another Friday, ha nope; today I got to meet up with one of my favourite lady’s ever Karina and another TMC favourite Andrea. We just got to have a nice time drinking Starbucks and chatting about life, about Andrea’s wedding, and events that Karina will be having. I am so blessed that this challenge and brought so many wonderful people into my life and has helped me branch out to a variety of people in which I would not have met otherwise. After our visit I headed back to work and finished off my day. Following work, I took my daughter to her final swim lesson of this term, she didn’t pass but she is growing so much. She can now swim in the deep end on her own without a life jacket and she is only 5! She is such fish.
Later Anita, another TMC connection, she is actually the Langley city coordinator, but for me she is my financial lady. We met for about an hour and she told me that I was doing right with all my money, but did tweak a few things for me. I look forward to our next meeting. Always nice when your money works for you!
March 9, 2017 – Setting Boundaries
Well this week has been a very busy week, with pub night planning and going all over Abbotsford for donations. It’s been hectic. I was so happy that I could fit in a meeting with Heather our life coach. Man this woman knows exactly what to say. I was so over whelmed and struggling I actually had a small break down this morning with someone on the board at TMC over balancing my personal life, with challenge life, and with work life. Well my meeting up with Heather was exactly what I needed. This woman has a gift, and it is a rare one at that. She can just listen, and offer advice that makes you just realize what is going on and what you are doing, and what your next move it. She helped me be ok with the decision I had made and that in the end it will work out for me. Sometimes we as people set our standards so high that it over take us and what we need to do is set boundaries and be ok with not saying yes. The most important thing I learned from her was that WE, We as people do not need to give a reason for anything, if we don’t want to do something or cant, a simple no, or sorry we can’t, will be enough. This is definitely something I need to bring into my life, as I always feel the need to explain why I can’t when I just have to say no and leave it at that. Not only did I leave this visit super happy, and with pep in my step, I have purchase some new undergarment, so now I was happy and had sexy undergarments to go along with it. Always were nice and sexy undergarments, it just makes you feel happy!
Following my day, I headed back to my gym T&N Fitness for round #2 ZUMBA. Oh my how I love Zumba, it’s a work out with dancing and as long as your smiling and having fun, you work is a blast. I am so hooked. Come out if you want to try, every Thursday for March at 7pm at T&N Fitness. You won’t regret it!
March 8, 2017 – Something to smile about
Well after last night, you can tell I am a little down. Well my boss at T&N Fitness sent me the sweetest message that I just had to share.
She is my biggest supporter in everything I do. We have only known each other for a short time, but this woman has had my back from day one. When the days are rough and tough, she knows exactly what to say to help me keep my chin up and to keep moving. She is my friend, my biggest supporter, and my #1 cheerleader. Be thankful for the people in your life and NEVER take them for granted.
March 7 and 8, 2017 – Weigh in and measurements
Well readers it happened, I had hoped it wouldn’t happen but its life and well not everything is perfect. So this week I have gone up in weight, not a lot but enough that it is actually affecting me. I gained 1.2 lbs. Not a ton, considering I did go out twice for my birthday, I had some cake and wasn’t really feel a lot of my work outs which means I didn’t but forth the full effort I should have. I hate that I beat myself up. Its only 1.2 lbs its nothing, but it’s so hard throughout our whole life we have been told what is “healthy”, what is “perfect”, and what the “ideal” number is. Well fine, let’s talk numbers. Last week I had a muscle mass of 105, which is my lowest this whole challenge, this week I was at a muscle mass of 112 that is a 7 point increase! Last week I have a body fat % of 43.7% and this week I am at 39.4%, not only have I dropped 4.3 % body fat, I am at my lowest in this whole challenge. Another improvement my body water %, average is 45%, last week I was 40.6% and this week I am 43%, that is 2.4 % increase. And finally, visceral fat, it’s known as a “deep” fat that’s stored further underneath the skin than “subcutaneous” belly fat. It’s a form of gel-like fat that’s actually wrapped around major organs, including the liver, pancreas and kidneys. At the beginning of the challenge I was at a 10, this is not good at all, average and healthy is a 6. This week……I am an 8. That means I have lost over 2L of visceral fat, and 1 of those liters was from last week to this week. That’s 1L of bad fat that surrounds my organs! Then let’s talk inches, from last week to this week I am down 1.75 for a grand total of 8 whole inches. So readers, what’s the point of all that info, well it’s to show you that yes my scale weight went up, but look at how all my other #’s went down. Focusing on the number on scale when there are so many inconsistencies is so unnecessary. This morning I went to my regular class at T & N Fitness, I was so over whelmed not only by all the love and support, but by their comments. They did not know my struggle yet, as I share this news after class, they were telling me how I’m shrinking, how I’m looking so good, how I’m an inspiration, even one lady said wow it like just happened, where did you. All these comments, blew me away and not that I showed it but I was shedding a few tears, and not of sadness but overwhelming support from these women. For them to pick me up without even knowing I am down. This is why, this time I am not giving up, I am not throwing in the towel like I have in the past. It is so easy to do that, so easy to walk away, it is what I have done in the past, and well it didn’t work! This is why I am here, I am here to change for the better and learn that these gains are only hiccups and I will overcome them! I hope that by reading my blog you too learn from me, learn that its life, enjoy the cake, take that gain and PUSH HARDER, DON’T GIVE UP, and NEVER STOP! Most importantly BELIEVE IN YOURSELF, you are your own worst enemy, stop it. I know, I know it’s so hard to do, but so easy to say. Trust me as you do this I am doing it with you. My enemy is the person starting back at me in the mirror; she needs to be my biggest supporter not my enemy. TODAY is a new day! I got this and I will do it! As Miss Heather our life coach says, say it over and over and it will come true. So say it with me. I GOT THIS; I WILL DO IT, YOU ARE WORTH IT, and most of all NEVER GIVE UP!
March 7, 2017 – Goal crushing day
Well it’s Tuesday again, but today is Fitness Testing Tuesday. So in one months’ time, I have grown internally, but also my body is changing, I am slimming down and I am becoming stronger.
Check out these #’s
Each one I have improved on and that my friend is FANTASTIC NEWS!
Check back tomorrow to see what my #’s are for weight loss and measurements!
March 6, 2017 – Food for thought
Today was yoga day. Gosh I love my yoga with Parallel Yoga. Well today I wasn’t feeling my total self and feeling drained so when Beth the instructor brought up this poem during class. It really got to me.
It spoke to me so much, especially in life. I hold on to so much and act like I am so strong emotionally, when in fact I am not, and it is stronger to let go of things, be brave, and just realize I am not perfect. This is something I have slowly come to realize throughout this challenge. Life is hard. It is not like life was in kindergarten, when we thought the end of the world was not getting to have a cookie. Man how life has changed. We struggle to pay bills, we struggle to keep it together, and we struggle to just stay happy. When I read back this poem again I realize it is amazingly true. We as people always tend to put on a face that life is fine, life is grand, life is amazing, when in fact it’s not. Life is hard, I have said this before, life is not fine and it is real. So holding on and trying to remain strong can in fact break us down even more, when all we need to do is let go. We need to break down, get emotional, and admit that life is not perfect, only then we are strong, because being emotion is not a sign of weakness it is a sign of strength!
March 5, 2017 – Typical Mom Day
Well today started off like any other, got up and went to the gym at Club 16, did my regular work out. Followed by home, shower and off to church. After church I went to pick up my little one, she had stayed over at a friend’s place, as I had been out the night before for my birthday. Well holy mom moment, break my heart, I went to pick her up and boy oh boy she looked rough, she was warm and just had that you know sick, I am sick mommy look. Unfortunately, I had to take her shopping, as I am a single mom and she had already been out. I tried to make it as quick and painless as possible, bribing her every chance I could. What kid says no to a kinder egg? A sick one, that how I knew she wasn’t just faking it, because she had said no each time. Ok so we get shopping done, what a nightmare, get her home, and she honestly walks in goes right to mommy’s bed and passes right out. So I checked her temp and she was 101, so warm. Of course I go into mommy panic mood, let me here you, “yep been there”. Well she slept from 1pm till almost 4pm. I got a lot done, dishes, laundry, some work, cleaning, and even some calls for my pub nights. Then my little one wakes up and boy she is in a mood! Nothing I do is right, she hurts, she’s angry, she’s hot, and she cold. She won’t take any meds and I finally get her to agree to let me take her temp again, and she is now 102, so I am starting to panic, but without taking meds, what are the doctors going to accomplish. So I get her some apple juice and a snack, and just hope is passes. Few hours later no movement on her temp, so I call in my Hell Mary, tell her either she takes some meds or we go to the doctors were she may have to get a prick (needle), well that finally did it, she takes the meds, and is down for the count. All in all it was a rough day, here is hoping she wakes up back to normal.
Now I am not the perfect mom, she did have a high temp, but I am her mom. I am doing my best, there was no handbook when she came, man I wish there was. As I sit here and write this out for you I start to think about when friends, family and people in general tell me I am a great mom, I now can see it. I did everything I could for my little lady when she was ill. Most days she pushes me beyond my patience, loves me to know end, is so sweet and carrying, and then the biggest pain in my butt. But she is my baby and I do everything for her. So yes I can mess up, I can break the rules, I can make my own rules, and maybe I do things differently than the next mother, but in the end I am a great mom.
I can’t believe it has taken for me to realize this, I should have always known, and believed in myself!
March 4, 2017 – Segment #2 – Team work
Today my team “The Rack Pack” met up at my home to discuss out team fundraiser for the apprentice round of the Total Make over Challenge. Well out of all the Top 15, I think we have a very strong group, and not to knock against any of the other groups, because 1 I am not in their group and 2 they are all fabulous women, but our group is just meshing perfectly.
So a little info on the fundraiser night we decided to do. We are doing a pub night at Canadian Brew house, as you know I love it there, such great food! We do have a facebook event, so please come check it out. We are supporting next year’s contestants for this challenge as well…….. ABBOTSFORD COMMUNITY SERVICES. Such an amazing charity they are, they help so many people in Abbotsfrod, how could you not come out have to great food, and support a great cause.
Details of our pub night are:
March 31st pub night fundraiser.
Tickets are $25 and include a burger (beef, chicken or veggie) a drink (beer or wine or highball) and your choice of fries, soup or salad.
Our team, The Rack Pack, are competing against two other teams in this Apprentice-style challenge.
As with any good competition, we have many surprises up our sleeves. This won’t be your usual pub night!
Reserve your tickets now!
March 4, 2017 – Final day of my birthday week
Wow what a week, I am so loved. For the first time in many years, I actually enjoyed my birthday. I have a great family, amazing friends and a wonderful boyfriend. I am so blessed to have the circle of friends and family I do. But it hasn’t always been that way. There have been several birthdays in the past were I faked my way through it, acted happy and just put on that face of “yippee”. Well this year I have actually built and rebuilt some amazing relationships with people. I have learned my self-worth, and I have learned who in fact was and is my friend and who was not. They always say that when times are rough or stressful you learn exactly who are your friends and who are not. Well I don’t like to carry dead weight so all the best to those that are no longer in my circle and welcome to those that are, those that have come to love me for me and support me in anything I choose to do, not matter how big or small. This challenge has really opened my eyes to life and how I should be living it, which friends I should be grateful for and what I was settling for. You don’t need many friends; you need those core people who without a doubt will be by your side no matter what, no matter how many times you ask, and no matter the task. Let me tell you I have a fantastic core group, and I would not trade them for the world.
Today a few of those core ladies joined me at Abbotsford Counting Escape Room, what a blast. I have been several times before but this room I had not. We did the Enchanted Forest, and we got out with just over 6 min left. What a fun time, if you haven’t yet been, go try it out. Followed by the escape room, we headed to Moxie’s for dinner. I love this place. Good food, nice atmosphere and Better Yet GREAT Company. I had new friends, old friends, and lifelong friend come out and celebrate. Some ever brought gifts, which again was never expected but greatly appreciated. I am now 33 years old, and for once I am so happy with life. Not completely but when it all comes down to it, I got it pretty good. Happy 33 to me!
March 3, 2017 – Paper day!
Today the paper came, and the TOP15 are in the paper. Man such a weird feeling seeing yourself in the paper. I must say this group of ladies is amazing, so positive, genuine, and loving. I have built amazing relationship and bonds for life.
March 2, 2017 – My Birthday!
Well readers, I am officially 33 years old. Wow what a day, so much love from so many people. I woke up went to the gym, did my normal routine and then got to have dinner with my family. My mom took my daughter out to pick out my birthday gift, and it was the cutest thing. A potted flower, purple coffee mug, cut card that you actually have to blow out the candle and it sings, and then a balloon, but lest be honest the balloon is hers. I got to have a great dinner at my favourite restaurant EVER, Rendezvous on Old Clayburn, BEST GREEK EVER! And of course who doesn’t have cake on their birthday, well I did. What life if you can’t celebrate, right? I had a few bites and it was good, but I didn’t eat it all and I shared with my kid. I was so overwhelmed with all the birthday wishes, phone calls, and gifts, none of which I expected. Lots of new and old friends helped make my day special. Few really special moments were, obviously the dinner with family, the flowers from my boyfriend, the sweet gift from my daughter, the cute picture from my nephew, the birthday card and gift from my boss at the gym, my very thoughtful gifts from some amazing friends, and the adorable birthday video from Jenn and her daughter, in FRENCH. Man that kid is amazing. Can’t wait for Saturday when we get to go out and have dinner and just have a great time. Check back soon!
Feb 27, 2017 – Photos
So remember when we got all that snow, ha ha like you could forget. Well my girlfriend is an amazing photographer and we decided to do a photo shoot in the snow with my mini me. I love snow and any chance we can take photos in the snow we did. It was actually 2 years ago to the day we did these photos that we did some before the snow at that time disappeared. So I wanted to share with you some of my favourites.
Jenny has done my photos since my mini me was born, all kinds, from maternity, new born, to family photos and birthday smash cakes. She actually did my delivery as well. So nice to share these moments with a friend, family, someone who not only is part f the memories but also captures them for a life time. If you want check out her page JC Moments and try her out, you won’t be disappointed. Tell her you saw this post and she will give you a discount on your next booking.
March 1, 2017 – Birthday week con’t
Yep I am that person; I am making my birthday into a week long event. Monday – new hair, Tuesday – massage with my amazing RMT, and today, today I got bran new nails. I go to JJ Nails, I flipping love them. Be going to them since they opened. My girl is Lisa, she is amazing, always know what I want and can always make me happy, even when I am a pain in the butt. This time, came in with no clue what I wanted. I picked out a colour, bran new to the saloon, and my favourite colour. Super happy, then Lisa got to choose the design, check out these babies, so happy with them. Happy early birthday present to me!
Feb 28, 2017 – Segment #2
Here we are Tuesday again, what wait, what happened? Its Tuesday already! So much has happened in these last few weeks. I have experienced so much, learned so much, and honestly I have grown more than I could have imagined. I no longer walk into a room and shy away, I walk in LOUD and PROUD! I am building amazing relationships with amazing women. I am looking at life with a new attitude and not falling on the negative. Learning you can take every situation and just embrace it to its fullest. Weather that is making a negative situation in to a positive one or taking a positive situation and being thankful for it.
I am so over whelmed with all the support I am receiving from everyone, and know that I will continue to receive. I am also so blessed to have an overwhelming supportive network, that is continually supporting me, no matter how small or large. I swear some of my friends, family and support system were so excited it’s like they themselves had made TOP 15. I actually got a call for my girl Nicole, the owner of my gym, and you could just tell how stinking happy she was; it was like we were jumping up at down like little school girls who crush finally talked to them. It just makes me so unbelievably happy to know that she has my back in this and the belief in me that I can do anything. Not that I need the approval, but it’s so nice to get that and know that people care. Even the girls at the gym are super proud of me, it make me tear up that these ladies follow my story and are inspired by me, when in fact I am the one whom is inspired by them and their achievements I see EVERYDAY!
And finally I am excited to see what this next adventure will do to me, how it will help me grow even more and expand my life and way of thinking to a whole new level.
So today I got to work out my schedule so I could attend a class at my gym, T&N fitness that I haven’t been able to attend in a very long time. I typically go to their 6 am classes, but my girlfriend is an instructor for some of the 930 am classes, so today, I got to go and experience a great *ss kicking work out. Her classes are unique and always kick my booty. Ha I now have booty that can be kicked, something I have noticed on my body that is changing for the better! It was just what needed for today. I am stepping it up this segment and giving it my all on my work outs, taking everything I can from the class exercises and pouring out all my feelings right here for you to read.
Most importantly, today, Tuesday, I will be going to my weigh in and I will walk in proud, head held high and know that I am doing this, I am crushing my goals one day at a time, and I will get to that finish line. So please check back tomorrow, I promise I will post tomorrow before dinner what my #’s were tonight, and how I did exactly as I said I would do. This is a new me, a happy me, a determined me.
I CAN, I WILL, AND I AM!
Feb 27, 2017 – SEXY HAIR DAY!
As I mentioned it’s my birthday this week, so this week is all about me. Today we start off with getting my hair done. Now I have been seeing my hair dresser Cathy for YEARS. She is amazing, honest and so caring. She is fantastic at her job, and I always leave beautiful! She knows exactly what I need and want, and god bless her without her I would not be able to afford the hair I have! If you are looking for a hair dresser who knows what to do with the mop on your head, I HIGHLY Recommend Standz Private Hair Studio! Seriously check out this amazing transformation with my mop! How can you not trust her completely with your hair!
Tomorrow I will be having a nice relaxing massage followed by our weekly meeting. On Wednesday I will be getting my beautiful nails done, check back for a picture of those, and then on Thursday, my actual birthday, I will get to have dinner with my parents, BF and daughter at my favourite restaurant, be sure to check in to find out what that is! What a fantastic week I have ahead of me!
Feb 26, 2017 – Date day
Well it’s been a very busy 6 weeks, and I haven’t had much time with my daughter, so today after my quick gym session at club 16, I came home and got ready to meet up with family for breakfast. My one brothers whom attended, PS I have 4 brothers, had just gotten back from Malaysia. So it was awesome to catch up and hear about his trip. As well another brother, did I mention I have 4, his wife and their son, also joined us. I find it’s important to visit with family especially when you have kids so they can grow up together as they don’t have siblings at this time. It was just a perfect setting with the family jam.
After breakfast, my daughter and I chose to go to the Vancouver Zoo, we have a membership and we just love going on random trips, and just spending the day there. It was nice, quiet and not a lot of people. We took her bike, as well she a late learner but finally learned to ride it, therefore she has been on it non-stop. She was such a trooper to ride all around the Zoo on her bike, didn’t complain till latterly 5 min before we left. It was nice, we got to see some animals up close that we don’t normally get to see, that close up. It was just a nice break to be away just the two of us, before another busy 5 weeks start up.
March is super busy for us, it’s my 33th birthday on Thursday, I have a fundraiser for my 4th Women2Warrior race, and just the normal random life events, family functions, and of course this amazing challenge. Did I mention I’m in TOP 15; I’m still letting it sink in today. Well its bed time for this girl, check back soon.
Feb 25, 2017 – Celebration!
Well what does one do when they make it to TOP 15 and get to move on to the next round of the challenge? Well one goes to ZUMBA for 90 MIN! Yes me and a fellow challenger, Jenn, yes with 2 n’s. Signed up a few weeks back to go Zumba, and that we would be going Top 15 or not! Well Jenn has never been to Zumba before, HeHehe, but I think she will become a regular, YES YES YES. After Zumba we decided to have a well-deserved mom’s night out. We went for dinner, with NO KIDS and then went to the movies for 50 Shades Darker……mmmm Mr Grey will see us now. Well that was exactly the celebration I needed. I got to have a great time with a great friend making the most of our day and cramming so many amazing memories into one pack day. What a day!
Feb 25, 2017 – Top 15 and prizes
Well folks here it is the blog where you get to find out if I made top 15. But what kind of a blogger would I be if I gave you that answer right away? Well stay tuned because like Jenny and Trish did to us I will also start off with my prizes! Check out this picture with all my lovely prizes, I ended up winning 6 TIMES, yes 6 TIMES. Some surprised me, some left me speechless, and some I was just honored to win.
So I won the following:
Most gym visits – crazy right, I go to She’s fit/Club 16, Parallel Yoga and T& N Fitness.
Most blog sponsors – Thanks to all my lovely sponsors, check them out along the left side.
No weight gain
Voted by my peers as #1 challenger – CRAZY and SUPPER HONOURED
Voted 9 /10 by the judges in regards to overall in the challenge, I also shared this with some other amazing women.
Finally I won with a few other ladies in the challenge, for completing the 100 days of happiness, for never missing a day, and currently as of today we are over 35 days of happiness, which means for the last 35 days I have posted a picture on Facebook with something that makes me happy. Love this challenge, it’s not a challenge at all, it’s amazing to reflect on what makes us happy.
Look at that! I was so blessed to be able to win these prizes, but in the end the best prize was completing segment #1 and not giving up.
This brings me to the reason you are here! Did I move on? Did I not? What do you think??? Well……. Yes I moved on to TOP 15!!!! Are you jumping up and down like I am??? Are you freaking out like I am??? Are you crying inside like I am??? Well This was a goal and with out your support I could never have achieved. So from the bottom of my heart, I can’t thank you enough for supporting me, voting for me, and continuing to be my ride or die throughout this challenge.
I can’t wait to share with you, all the details of my next adventure, stay turned, more to come!
Feb 25, 2017 – Amazing Race
What a blast, this was so much fun. We got to drive all over Abbotsford today and visit so many wonderful businesses.
So first off we started at Phoenix Lounge in Abbotsford, checked in and then got to test drive a ford, so obviously we took out the truck. What a nice truck, it was a F-150, super big and lots of room.
Then at 1030 we began our adventure. We started west and worked out way east, thanks to my 530 am wake up, due to excitement, and pre planned our route from the Facebook group for the event. I thought I actually did a great job. Wow, what a fun time, we have two kids on our team and 3 adults, and even with the children we managed to hit every stop and finished before the 3 hour mark. We didn’t come out on top, but we did have a great time, meeting great people, and making so many memories, and learning to work together. I highly recommend joining next year, such a fun family event.
Here are a few photos from the day. We had some special challenges throughout the race, one was a group pic on the slide, one of our whole group up in the air, and one with the Shape Your World Society banner, as well I got to visit my own sponsors, Reflex and T&N Fitness. I am so honored to have these businesses support me like family, heck they are family! And most of all we got to personally hand over our food donations to the Abbotsford Ford bank, so nice to give back to the community.
Feb 23, 2017 – Amazing Race Reminder
Check out these amazing gift prizes provides some amazing friends of mine.
Come out on Saturday do Phoenix Lounge in Abbotsford and test drive a Ford and maybe win one of these prizes.
As well you can still sign up and race alongside myself and the other challengers. Its a family fun event, I will actually be doing it with my daughter.
Saturday Feb 25th
1030 to 130 amazing race begins
1030 to 230 udrive a ford fundraiser
MOST IMPORTANT 130 to 230 prizes and announcing TOP15!
Hope to see you there!
Feb 22, 2017 – Last day of Voting
Well that’s it readers, as of noon today voting closes. Wow what an adventure, stressful-time, and emotional time. I am so over whelmed by all the support. I just want to say thanks so much from the bottom of my heart how much your support inspires me to continue my journey Top 15 or not.
Make sure to check back on Feb 25th to find out if I made TOP 15.
Feb 21, 2017 – Weigh and Measurements
Well readers we are at the end of segment #1 and the beginning of segment #2. On Feb 25th I will find out if I get to continue this journey and become one of the 15 ladies to move on. What a long week we have had, with the “Real Me” Seminar, voting starting and preparing for this segment to end, I have been lacking on keeping you up to date. But honestly nothing really has happened much since my last blog, well unless you count losing another 2.6 lbs, wait what yep 2.6 lbs. So that brings me to 12.4 lbs since the start. As well I have lost a total of 6.25 inchs. I am so proud at my #’s they may not be as high as some of the other ladies, but what counts is that I am happy and I am changing over all, not just body image.
Take a look at these pictures, one was in Jan and the other most recent, look at that change.
Feb 20, 2017 – Day 5 of Voting!
Happy Monday, can you believe we are already at day 5 of 7? Voting is still on, and will continue till Wed Feb 22nd at noon.
Thank you all for your support, I am so blessed to have such an amazing support system!
Keep up the amazing work; it is you who inspires me to continue sharing my story.
Also make sure to check back soon, you just never know what tomorrow will bring!
Feb 19, 2017 – Thanks for your support
Sorry readers, I kind of left you high and dry these last few days. I didn’t mean to, was just committed to the “Real Me” seminar put on by Shape Your World Society. Check my earlier entries to relive my experience at this event.
Most importantly, thanks so much for all your support and votes. Keep up the great work. Voting ends on Wed Feb 12, 2017 @ noon. On Feb 25th @ Phoenix pub I will find out if I will be able to continue my journey but going to TOP15.
Feb 18, 2017 – Final day of the “Real Me”
We today started off pretty chill and relax, normal stuff I already had known. For example, what my stresses are and how to deal with them, that I’m an emotional eater and why it started, whether I’m left or right brain….I’m both, which apparently is rare. But what really got me was the trust, the belief and the bond that I was making with these women. I have always known that I grab to similar people like me but seriously this one exercise we did I could not have grouped with 4 other women so similar to me.
Ok so imagine you’re there, I’d say close your eye but hey how can you read. Anyways, we get into groups of 5. Out of the 5 of us, we have to choose 2 to live and 3 to die, as we are on a ship that is sinking and there are not enough life jackets. So we all begin to explain why we should live. One by one, we tell our stories. When it’s my turn, I go and explain my story of my daughter and how if I were to pass on, she would be given to her father, which is my DEEPEST DARKEST FEAR! I plead and plead as to why if she goes with him, it will destroy her, she will be ripped from the life she knows and be taken away. That my mother would have to fight for her and how that could damage my little girl being put through that. So after this, we then discuss what our options are. I don’t know if it was supposed to be decided as a group yet, but gosh what amazing women, we did this as a team, true it it’s finest. So as a team we did it, we planned exactly who would go and who would stay, which kids would go were and of course which survivor would get the bunny! Well I’m sure you think well duh of course you lived you have a small child. Well shocker, I died.
Wait wait, let me explain.
My group consisted of 4 women with children and one who did want children soon in life. We as a team went 100% logical. We choose one woman to stay because she has children that at this point in her life there is no one who would fight for them and unfortunately their life could and would most likely result in a bad ending. Then we as team choose another woman, who has a very similar story as me. We are both single moms, not with child’s father, and our death is a huge fear for us as the thought of our babies being ripped out of their life is just terrifying, and one very crazy thing, our daughters have the SAME birthday, exactly one year apart! As we are discussing her to stay, I sit back and think about it, however our stories are similar, I have the fact that my mother was very smart with her money and would be able to financially pay and fight to keep my daughter in her current life. I also know that this woman and I have built such a bond that she would do anything I asked her to do when it comes to my daughter, and little side note, she has a great understanding of the court system, so I know she would be right there on my mother’s side fighting for my daughter. I turn and look at this woman and I tell her she lives, she lives, but she has only one thing to do, make sure that daughter gets to my mother, and that she fights, she fights to keep her here. Seriously, I have known this woman for less than 5 weeks and I have the most faith in her that she will protect my child like her own. Alright we decided we got our 2 no issues no disagreements, nothing, we think it done that is it, exercise over, NOPE after all that we now have to say good bye. Well readers, this is the point where I broke down! I looked at all the women and I couldn’t get the words out. I knew my baby was in great hands, but now I had to say goodbye to all these amazing women that have my back! And even harder I have to say goodbye to this woman, my sister from another mother, my sole sister. That was it I was done! I couldn’t even continue to say goodbye to the other 3 ladies. I was a blubbery mess! Then the remaining girls said goodbye, till we got back to my girl and she looked me in the eyes and said “I got her don’t you worry” and then her and I we were a blubbery mess together!
After many tears and hugs, I felt drained, but I also felt our group is now stronger than ever and we have this bond that is unbreakable! We each had one another’s back, stood by each other and built one another up. 5 weeks, 5 weeks we were so strong in our bond that we planned out exactly who would get our kids, one woman who was already a mother of 5 children gained another child and a bunny, and my girl, my sole sister, she finally got her twins. What an adventure to be on with such amazing women!
Feb 16, 2017 – Night #2 at the “Real Me” Seminar
Tonight was about the forgiveness, regrets, and future.
Forgiveness, now that is hard one for me. I have some people in my life that I really need to forgive and let go, they are staying rent free in my mind and taking up valuable space for more important things. We got in to partners and I stated who we choose to forgive. I began with the simple; I forgive my biological father for abandoning me not once but twice. Simple right! Well then to the main person who it taking up a lot of my space, my ex, my daughters father. I have come to realize that his actions are not my fault, no matter how much I feel guilty that history is repeating itself. I have done the best to protect my daughter and I have given him many chances, I can’t help he choose to work with anger and resentment over moving on and rebuilding for the future. So I decided to say I choose to try and forgive him. I have been trying harder each year, but now I am going to move on and forgive him. He is not worth the amount of space he takes up.
Regrets, ha we all have regrets or so I thought, but this is always true. Did you know there are people in this world that choose not to have regrets? Well I would love to just live life with no regrets, so dang it, I am going to do my best and put this in to action. I have worked hard to already change my ways to allow my life to be lived to the fullest, and in such I will continue to do so. You can’t change the past but you can alter you path to the future.
Future, this got me tonight. We were asked to create our own eulogy. So like a typical mother. I wrote it as if my baby girl (who is currently 5) was saying it. In my mind she was grown and married, as well she had kids of her own. She began by saying how proud she is of me, which is one of my dreams and concerns, that I make her proud, and how I had just lived my life to its fullest. All things that made me happy, I did, all things that I dream of one day doing, I did it. I had become the women I want to be and it made my eulogy smile and tear up. This was the moment my walls started to break down, and I began to realize that I am already on the right path to make those dreams a reality.
“I am worth it! I am strong! I am me!”
Feb 18, 2017 – Happy Voting Saturday!
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Feb 17, 2017 – Friendly Friday Reminder
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Feb 15, 2017 – Night 1 at the “Real Me” Seminar
Well that was interesting, I got to dig deep and re-live my child hood, then my adolescents and reflect how my life now is or is not how I pictured it to be. As I tried to remember my child hood, I slowly realized that I could only remember blocks and sections. Yes I have pictures of memories, but I don’t actually remember them. So much I have blocked out. So of course we dig a little deep, pull up some of those feelings, those memories we can remember and begin to peel back the skin and come to some ah ha moments.
My first ah ha moment was that I am not alone, I had similar challenges, life styles, dreams and disappointments as many of my fellow challengers. One that I really began to focus on and even before this seminar was coming out is the need to be accepted and approved. I tend to not be able to take a compliment or take advice. I’m sure this is not news to you if you have read my blog from start. As we begin to dig deeper I start to think, did I get the approval I desired as a child? Did I get the acceptance in whatever form I need as child? My answers are NO. I wasn’t the popular kid, I tried to make friends and it was hard. I didn’t get the pat on the back when I excelled, I don’t get told I did a good job, or I was doing great. So it has now affected my adult life. When people, friends, and family tell me I am doing a good job, or I’m a great mom, or my house is clean, or my boyfriend telling me I’m beautiful, I tend to just shrug it off.
So as one of our exercises we were to state, without thinking, something we need to release for our lives. I choose ACCEPTANCE. I decided last night that I don’t need to search for acceptance. That I need to believe in myself and know that I am doing a good job, I am a great mother, and that I have the greatest of friends and family, my heart is full! So in return of releasing we were to fill that with something we wanted to allow in to our lives, so can you guess what I choose? I choose BELIEF! Belief in one’s words, comments and advice and the belief in what other say about me.
Coming to this realization, has opened my eyes to believe that I can find that girl inside me that rather walking into a room sad she walks in to a room with a smile that people can see and notice, because after all aren’t we all just looking to be happy with ourselves?
So I leave you with this:
“I choose to love myself the way I am! I don’t need other people’s approval to feel complete!”
Say it to yourself, say it out loud, and BELIEVE IT!
Feb 16, 2017 – VOTING STARTS!
Oh my, it’s already that time. Today at 3pm Voting for Top 15 will open! If I have done something, said something, or inspired you in anyway, I would really appreciate your time to go to the link provided and vote for me. Each day you get 10 votes per IP address. This means your computer at home can vote 10 times, your work computer can vote 10 times, and even better your cell phone, with WIFI off can vote another 10 times. Any amount of votes can help me move on in this challenge.
Thanks so much for all your support!
Don’t worry, I will still be here till they announce the Top 15 and share all my adventures, thoughts, struggles, and progress. Hopefully with your support I will be able to continue to share my story throughout the TOP 15, and Top 5!
Voting starts TODAY Feb 16th at 3pm and continues to WEDNESDAY Feb 22nd at 12pm.
10 VOTES per day per IP – As I explained above, please vote every day.
Feb 14, 2017 – Weigh in and measurements.
Well what can I say? One I was looking forward to tonight. Got on the scale, good good, broke the 200 lbs, better better, now to measurements…..wtf. Pardon my French but what, some #’s go way up and some go down a bit. Overall I gained inches back. What is going on? Why is this so flipping hard, complicated, stressful and depressing? I see so many others having large #’s and I’m getting so down on myself. I worked so hard to overcome not worrying about a # that now all I am doing is worrying about that #. Why are we told that a # is what makes us healthy and happy and not obese? I have struggled with my weight as long as I can remember. I have to literally bust my butt to the point of having no rest days, live bite to bite, calorie to calorie. I have cut out pop, lattes, candy, junk food, and I’m working out 2 to maybe 3 times a day with walking, boot camp, yoga, gym and just life. So why is this weight not leaving me like everyone else I see. I know, I know don’t compare yourself to others, I say it all the time but it’s so flipping hard not to when their success is right there in front of you. And really I have nothing to be frustrated about my #’s are good for 4 weeks in this challenge, I’m just so flipping frustrated with the whole thing. I don’t get why I can help others so easily when they are down, but can’t believe my own words or accept help and advice from others. They say muscle and fat are the same in weight just different in circumference. So if my weight is going down, why aren’t my measurements comparing?? Am I wrong or misinformed on that statement? I don’t know the answer but it’s so frustrating. I do have my women friend coming but man not only is it a pain in a butt, it also makes us blot and struggle with weight loss
Like I know exactly what this body can do. It has completed 3 – full tough mudders, 3 – 5k women2warriors, 6 – 5k colour runs and soon to be another colour run, 5k foam run and 5k manic run. It has gone through one pregnancy. As well as many other exercises I never thought I could do, like run on a treadmill, do a handstand, do a 4min and 27sec plank and over 28 push ups from my toes, and I’d like to add these have all been within the last 5 years! Since high school I have lost over 100lbs. So why do I still focus on a flipping # that is all it is. It doesn’t define me, but today it is sure breaking me right down!
As I sit here and write and write and write, I try to focus on the good. Like the way my body is starting to look, the fact that I am noticing my butt more and that my tummy is looking smaller; contrary to the measurements. Noticing my endurance is getting better and I can do cardio much longer. Noting my strength and that I am able to lift more and with stand more. What I need to do is focus on the big picture, the overall end result. Do I just want to get to a # or do I want to crush my goals and become stronger, faster and start excelling where I am currently failing.
Yes! That is exactly what I want, focus on the positive!
So with that being said, my results for this challenge are in one month I have lost 9.8 lbs and 3.75 inches. Not perfect, but I myself am not perfect. I am a piece or art that continually changes for the better!
Feb 14, 2017 – Preparing for Week #4 weigh in.
Well its Tuesday again, it seems these weeks are just flying by. Tonight is
weight in and measurements. I’m not going to lie to your guys, and I hope I don’t disappoint you all, but its life, real life. I had eaten out 3 nights this past week, which is a lot in my opinion. I did my best, I tried to make healthy and smart choices, and I hope the scale and inch loss reflects. When I say that, I am concerned, I worry, because as I have stated I am doing this for a change, real change. What is life if you can’t eat out, or can’t have a desert once in a while, or share an ice cream, with your kid? I don’t want to be that mom, women or person who says oh I can’t or oh I shouldn’t. I want to be able to make a choice weather I do or don’t and be ok with it and not hate myself. I want to be able to make the decision that if today I want to have a cup cake, I can. My birthday is coming up, 14 days to be exact and I want to be able to go out and celebrate and not worry what one night will do to the scale. It is one night! It’s not like I will be living that life style my whole life, no I have and I won’t go back! I am learning to live life to its fullest and learning to break the rules once in a while. So when I walk in to my meeting tonight, this time I will go in head held high, and be proud of my results, because it is real life, and in real life, Rome wasn’t built in a day, nor will my body. It will be a work of art, an always progressing piece of art! I am proud of this body and what it has gone through to become what it is, and I will be even prouder of this body tomorrow and they days to come of all the progress it continues to make.
Please check back tomorrow to find out my results!
Much love and Happy Valentine’s Day to you! From me to you I send you many internet hugs!
Feb 14, 2017 – Prepping for “Real ME” Seminar
Wow oh wow, we were asked to gather some pictures from certain times of our life and parent’s life. Well let me tell you, what a blast from the past these photos were. Some were “gosh I was cute” or “man what was I thinking” and even better yet “thank goodness my fashion sense has changed”. It’s always interesting to look back on memories and reminisce, some good memories and obviously some bad ones. I can’t wait to share with you my experience over this week with this seminar. Stay tuned!
Feb 13, 2017 – Love yourself.
I really wanted to share this with you.
Today Gina, our herbalife sponsor and nutrition experience each week of the challenge. She had asked us to post 3 pictures of just ourselves, as we all need to learn to build ourselves up instead of always tearing us down. Share the beauty that we have inside and out.
So here are my 3 pictures, all 3 are within the last 6 months, Ironic hey? That I feel most beautiful now than I ever have in my whole life! Other than the day I gave birth to my daughter.
Now readers I challenge you to find 3 pictures of you, ONLY you. Share them on Facebook, place them on your wall, show a friend, just share them how you wish, and in return challenge your friends. Let’s all share the beauty we have with in our selves, that shines through daily!
Much love and HAPPY EARLY VALENTINES DAY!
Feb 13, 2017 – Shoppers Drug Mart Make Over
Well today has been a productive day. Its Family Day! I got to go to the gym and do yoga, plus tidy the house. As well later we are planning a walk around Mill Lake in Abbotsford.
But as an added special treat, the Top 30 get to receive a makeover from Shoppers Drug Mart. Well today is my day. I never wear makeup so to get this is a real special treat for me. I asked them to keep it simple and very oh natural. Well I think they did a marvellous job! Don’t you?
Well folks, on the 11th my girlfriend Jenn, yes with two n’s, and I, decided to take our girls to the trampoline park in Abbotsford. She is also a Top 30 challenger, check out her blog as well.
Well let me tell you, not a great experience for us single moms. Due to our daughter being under 46 inches we couldn’t jump with them. The girls had fun but we were very disappointed. As moms you love to share experience with your children. Well that night just turned out horrible, rough dinner out and just overall not a great play date.
So I bring you to today! A new day, a redo! We went to another park in Langley and had a freaking blast. We were there for over 2 hours, and the girls were just giving it their all. Jenn and I had a blast trying new things. Jumping on a platform, to cartwheels and flips into the foam pit! It was such a great work out that we totally lost track of time and well dinner again ended up being another outing. Well we almost had flash backs from the night before, but in the end we got our food, it was so good! So good in fact we broke down and had desert, well Jenn did and of course I supported my friend and ate with her. Chicken tacos and warm cookie with ice cream for the win! Thanks to Montana’s and Extreme Air Park for such amazing memories we got to share with our girls.
Special little insider detail, did you know? Of course you don’t but you will now. Both our daughters are born on the same day and are exactly 1 year a part giver take a few hours. How amazing is that!
Feb 10, 2017 – How I’m really feeling
Well readers, these past few weeks have been very emotional. This challenge is just that a challenge to challenge our way of thinking, our way of living, our way of eating, and really just the way we see ourselves through ourown eyes.
Well I can tell you, I am changing, I am starting to look in the mirror and love myself.
The other day at T&N Fitness I was teaching a class and in the corner of my eye I couldn’t help but look and notice that I have a BUTT, I HAVE A BUTT. I was so distracted that it made all the ladies laugh. I love that they can witness first-hand how I am growing, they are family and it’s a great thing to share with them.
Another example, I have been really trying to up my routine and with the snow storm we just had, it affect me a bit, but I didn’t let it get me down. I have an elliptical in my house, so when my boot camp was cancelled, I got up and did a short work out on it. Usually I struggle to get to 20 min, but this time I got on and I didn’t even notice that my timer for 30 min had stopped. I went over by about 5 min, guess I had crushed that goal; didn’t even know it was a goal. New goal,to go 45 min!
So much is changing; I am now basically living in work out cloths. I celebrate when I get to have a real shower, longer than 5 min, and can make it the whole day in real cloths, and I mean like no sports bra and no pj’s. These are goals, I kid you not. Today I was super happy, that not only did I get a real shower, shaved my legs and all, I actually got to put in my contacts and were real cloths for 2 hours. Progress I tell yeah progress. I’m sure your laughing but this does make me super happy, always the little things that make us happy.
Well that’s a bit about how I have changed so far, but how I am feeling, thats another story. I am experiencing so many emotions. Happiness, sadness, defeat, stress, overwhelmed, depressed, unsure, unworthy, determined, pretty much you think it I am feeling it. However this week has me really emotional. I know I am doing great. I am losing a healthy amount of weight each week, I am doing some sort of exercise every day, and I am eating right. I am avoiding temptation and I am making good choices.
I am finally at the stage of realization. I have overcome so much in my soon to be 33 years (March 2). from being bullied, abandoned by my sperm donor, having a child and having things not work out with the father; which make me feel like a failure, to gaining weight after I had lost it, to dating the wrong men; abusive in all ways , and finally by allowing myself to believe that I am worth less.
Well NO MORE!
This challenge has helped me realize I am not alone, realize my self-worth and that I do matter, and realize that what had affected me and lead me to my eating disorder of emotional eating, I am now doing to others, to people I love and care about. I don’t need my daughter thinking that this is ok, that this is how life it to be. This little girl looks up to her mom so much, I need to be a better example. I want her to be proud of me!
I am looking forward to next week in this challenge, as we get to experience this amazing program called “The Real Me” seminar. How I am looking forward to digging deep, breaking through all these layers that I have buried so deep and becoming a new person, a stronger person, a happier person. I want to love myself as I am TODAY, because as I always say weight is just a # and it doesn’t define you. I could get to my “goal” weight but if I don’t just love who I am now, I will never be satisfied!
I love all your support and I love that you can share this journey with me.
Feb 8, 2017 – Parallel Yoga
Well we are 4 weeks in and I have been going to Parallel Yoga around 3 times a week. Now this place is absolutely amazing! Not only are they a sponsor for the total make over challenge, but when you go in it just so calm, inviting and peaceful. I really like Flow to Slow, plus a few others but this variation is amazing. Stef is the leader of the class I attend on Wednesday at noon. Now this lady really gets my blood flowing, in a great way. She challenges me every class I attend and even when I don’t always move gracefully, I still feel like I am conquering my intended goals for the day and growing at each class. If you have not tried Parallel Yoga out yet, please do so. They offer your first class to you for FREE, so why not. Maybe you to will find a love for it, like I have.
Below is not a picture of me but of Stef, look at that strength.
From my heart to yours Namaste!
Feb 8, 2017 – CTV News
We today I went for my routine walk around Mill Lake with my best friend and fellow challenger Alyssa. We normal walk every morning after her shift at work. Well today was a day to remember, as we came around towards the mall entrance from the west, which is different for us because we usually start at Ware St and head North to West, but this time due to snow we had to start at Bevan and head West to North. Well this lead us to a lovely lady from CTV whom was doing a segment on the snow, and we got to be on TV.
Copy this link and check it out.
Amazing things happen when you adjust your routine just a bit.
Happy Hump Day.
Feb 8, 2017 – Prizes, gifts and VOTING!
Have you had a chance to see what prizes and gifts we get at each stage of this challenge? Well fear not I am here to show you all the goodies we get.
Top 5 and wild case
Please make sure to VOTE. Without your support I may not make it to the next stage.
Please copy this link to help with vote – First round starts Feb 17, 2017 @ 3pm
Feb 7, 2017- Weigh in
Well it’s that day, that dreaded day where we step on the scale, our enemy and look anywhere but down to find out the results. But today I am a new woman. I took pictures again this week and I thought to myself, it does not matter what the scale says, I see the change when I look at the pictures. I start to see my lovely curves become more defined, when I’m at the gym I find myself staring in the mirror and actually not hating what I see. We are over halfway through the first round and I’m letting go of the negativity, I’m learning to love myself as I am, and I’m trusting in this process. In return it’s rewarding me in way I cannot explain.
My goal from this challenge is to just love myself no matter the # on the scale. The # on scale is just that, a #! It doesn’t define us, it doesn’t change who we are as a person, and it certainly is not what we need to focus on. Exercise and eat right, and your body will reward you for it. Now last week I was just over 200 lbs and this week I did not go under 200, BUT I did lose weight and in return I gained some confidence back. I am seeing a change in my body, the way I feel, and I am no longer shying away from the mirror.
So this week I lost…….. are you ready readers?? I lost another 1.8 lbs which brings me up to 8.4 lbs lost since Jan 15, 2017. I am exactly 200 lbs on the dot; and you know what that means, next week I WILL break the 200 lbs mark and a new milestone will be created.
Happy moments brought to you by progress!
Feb 7, 2017 – Week #3 overview (day 4 of snow days)
Well what a week this has been. 4 snow days in a row, schools and daycare’s are closed for 2 straight days. What has happened to the west coast? Well I certainly have not let the snow get me down. I have been outside regularly shoveling: a work out in its self. My daughter and I have gone on many walk, day or night, as well have done lots of indoor and outdoor playing, puzzles, and butt slides.
On Saturday I was telling you all the amazing new memories I was creating by not having my whole life planned. Well bring on a new change where your week days have to change due to closures. My week days are 100% completely planned, from when I get up, go to the gym, come home and take my daughter off to daycare before I start my work day. However with this snowmageddon many places were closed or had cancelled their programs. Now I don’t do well AT ALL with plans being cancelled, and I had to just let life happen, and you know what, it did, hell didn’t freeze over like I thought or to some people made it out to be. OK well the west coast did but that was just Mother Nature. So that just goes to show you that life continues whether your plans do or don’t.
This week has been more about personal growth for me. I am learning that there is more to life then planning out your next moment. As the snow melts and we return back to normal, I will definitely be taking each day for what it’s worth. Still having my day to day routine, because a routine is needed, but still allow for those moments to just happen, allowing plans to be altered or cancelled and welcoming spur of the moment adventures to happen at any time. I am so blessed to have been able to experience this and learn from it. This challenge is more than just weight loss, it helping me find myself and helping me grow as a person. From the bottom of my heart I appreciate all of your support through my journey. Thanks
On another note, guess what today is??? Weigh in Check back tomorrow for my results!
Feb 7, 2017 – AMAZING RACE ABBOTSFORD
On Feb 25th Amazing race is coming to Abbotsford! If you are interested in being on one of my teams find my group on FB.
(Tara’s Amazing Race crew for TMC)
It’s a family fun event. There are tons of great prizes for best costumer, door prizes and final overall winners. As well you get to witness who will move on to the Top 15.
There are many ways to support me.
1. Sign up under me with your own team
2. Become a sponsor for me for the race – message me on Facebook for more info
3. Pledge me, any $ amount helps support the Shape Your World Society and the Abbotsford Food Bank.
Please join our main event page on Facebook:
(Abbotsford Amazing Race – 5th Annual)
Feb 5, 2017 – Snow day AGAIN.
Well Abbotsford we have been hit with some major snow this time around. I swear I have over 2 ft at my home, and I have shoveled over 6 times in 24 hours. Well I never thought I would be that one that would blog about my day, but SO much happened today that would never have happened. It again is a continuation from yesterday. I am learning day by day to just live with in my schedule and try not to plan each moment, because while I am planning those to come moments, I am missing the now moments.
So let’s begin. I woke up and looked outside, and well surprisingly it didn’t snow all too much since the last time I shoveled last night, so I was going to take advantage of my boyfriend spending the night and have an early morning workout. I don’t always get these moments, because as I stated before I am a single mom, so I have my mini me 24/7, so to get that person whom I trust to watch my kid for some me time, I jump on it. So I arrived to the gym around 750 am with a girlfriend of mine, who also wanted to join, as her car is just meant for this much snow. I was excited to have a work out buddy. As well another lady form Top 30 Hayley made it out of her driveway and came with us. I know this snow has in packed so many of the Top 30 with their routine of going to the gym. Well after my gym session I headed home, and guess what I did, can you guess, I bet you can’t….. ha ha well that’s right I shoveled again! What is so funny is as I was shoveling it began to snow, like what is up west coast. I’m a Saskatchewan girl but man this is a lot of snow for one sitting, what did you do to Mother Nature to piss her off to much??? After I gave up on shoveling, as it was coming down fast then I was clearing, I came inside and have a great time with my mini me. WE played board games, did puzzles, and made pancakes. Now my daughter LOVES pancakes, so this is a regular in our house. But typically on Sundays we don’t make them much anymore because we attend church on Sundays, however with the snow day, church was closed. To be honest I have been so busy with life that we don’t get to make them at all, so this was such a blessing to do this again, one of those memories we get to bond over. This time I decided to modify the recipe to include a big more protein, I will post the picture of the recipe and all I did was double the recipe and removed .5 cups of the flour to add in one scope of epicure coconut protein powder, so yummy. Well my daughter ate 4, yes 4 of them! I call that a success. Well now it’s about 1pm and the snow has STOPED yes it has STOPED. So I jump up to get my clothes on and head out to shovel for what will hopefully be the last time, today??? Well my neighbours were out doing the same thing, great minds think alike, and they have kids so my daughter went off and played while I got another work out in. Later on, we meet up with another set of neighbours whom were sledding in the court yard, and wound up playing out there for another 1 hour. Well I am pooped, I am tired and I am hungry. We go inside to have a little afternoon snack. Now you would think I have already done so much today, well yeah but I wanted to take full advantage of having no plans and go straight to cleaning up my house, because lets be honest this challenge is a full time job and sometimes little things like dishes, laundry and clean floors get put to the side. So now I sit here watching the Super Bowl, clean house, still clean sidewalks (bonus), and one very happy kid. Off to make dinner!
Feb 4, 2017 – Snow day! We today Abbotsford got hit with over 20cm of snow, and to be honest it feels like 2 feet. It just won’t stop! Well I managed not to let the snow stop me and head to the gym. I went at 8am to my gym T&N fitness, so happy they were open, so my surprise some ladies showed up, I was so proud of them for coming and not using any excuses, but let’s be honest I tried to give my own excuses till my girlfriend Mel messaged me to ask if we were open, so that was my little kick that made me go, and I was so glad I did. That was till I got home and the snow didn’t stop! I have now shoveled twice and I looked out before I began writing this and well guess what I am doing tonight? Can you guess?? Yep I am shoveling! Yuppie! #saidnooneever I can tell you that I love snow; I love it so much, but shoveling it not so much.
On top of this snow day, as I said yesterday, this is my FIRST Saturday in forever where I had nothing planned. Well it turned in to a pretty exciting day. So not only did I make it to my boot camp glass, but my wonderful boyfriend stayed home with my daughter so I didn’t have to take her with me. This was a nice change. So happy to have found a man who can step up and be like a “father” figure to her, and help me out so I am no longer doing it all on my own. Now typically we have dance on Saturdays so I miss out a lot because it takes over my whole morning, from getting my daughter dressed to class, having class, coming home and then getting to make lunch. With it being cancelled, I got to experience something amazing. It was the first time in 5 years that parallel yoga closed due to anything, well as I said we are all having a snow day here in Abbotsford, and for the safety of her clients as the roads are getting worse as the day goes on, she decided to do YOGA LIVE via Facebook! Now if I had gone to Dance I would have not gotten to go to the yoga studio and participated in their regular class. So this snow is a blessing that brought yoga to my home to share with my daughter, a memory we also shared with my Sister in Law and nephew over Facebook, as they too were able to join in on the live video from Maple Ridge. What a precious memory! As I went out to shovel my yard AGAIN, I realized this is what Heather was talking about. This was what life gives you, those moments unplanned that turn in to amazing moments that would never have gotten to experience. So my challenge to you, my readers is to take time out, allow yourself to have an unplanned day, and just see what life will put before you, you never know what you are missing if you keep living for the next planned moment!
Catch you all later, hope you’re enjoying your snow day!
Feb 3, 2017 – Life coach one on one. Well today I got to have a one on one call with one of our sponsors, Heather; she is an amazing life coach. Ok so back log…. Well I a very organized, almost too organized, OCD, crazy cleaner, and over planner, like I have my second Friday in September planned, I kid you not! I am that person that would just rather do everything because no one can do it right. It’s hard because I have a 5 year old that wants to help so badly, and I want to let her, I just can’t let go of the control. To some this is normal but to me it has become a way of life and a habit I want to break. How fun it is when you control everything and just don’t live life and share the moments having fun, messing up, and living unplanned. I find it over whelming to be so on top of things that it would be nice to just go with the flow.
So Heather had asked me what it was I wanted to gain from this challenge. Now I am sure most would say loss weight, get skinner, etc. Not me, I want to gain the confidence to just be happy with life and learn to live in the moment! Learn to let my daughter fold the cloths and sweep the floor and just be ok with it. To be ok with not having plans or having someone else make the plans and just go with it and not worry. Trust me this is a really big struggle for me. Well Heather gave me some homework; to let Wes plan a date night without any control from me, and to allow my personal life to just have some unplanned moments.
Ok let’s move up to earlier tonight, I get an email that my daughters dance class has been cancelled due to the snow we are getting here in Abbotsford. Well let me tell you this, this Saturday, tomorrow is my first Saturday without ANY, none, zip, absolutely no plans, no meetings, no places to be……. What am I going to do? I am going to wake up and see where the day takes me! Check in tomorrow to see what happens!
Feb 3, 2017 – Football inspired bootcamp. Well this is a first at T & N fitness, a class inspired by football for the super bowl this weekend. Oh my, this was a fun but hard class. We flipped tires, ran with restraint bands, some deadlifts and push ups, plus a back to back ball pass and this crazy thing called battle rope. Battle rope may be my new love. To see the video follow my FB page Tara Lawrence – TMC Journey. The best part we did all these activities with a partner. It was so much fun and class just sped by. It was so inspirational and motivational having your partner cheering you on. My partner was Tania, well let me tell you she is an amazing cheerleader, and her energy pushed me to try harder. I am so blessed for the friendship we have! She is the one I am doing push ups with in the photo below. I honestly can’t wait to do this again! If you haven’t tried them out yet, please do, you won’t be disappointed.
Feb 2, 2017 – Fitness Testing! Well on the first Tuesday of each month at my gym we do fitness testing. I had to miss, as well I teach the 6am class, so I had planned to go to the 930am class till my co-worker’s son was sick; so I covered for her. In return she came early today before the 930am class to do my test. Now I haven’t done fitness testing since last JULY! Well let me tell you, it was hard. Some of my #’s changed for the better and some not so much. Positive my running I shaved off 6 seconds, heck yeah I did! Running is not my strong suit at all so this is a big deal! Well where my strong suit is plank. I had held it for 4min and 27 sec. That was a great record, till last May I pulled out my back. In July I held out for 2min and 27sec. So today you can imagine my heart ache when I only made it to 1min and 24sec. I felt like such a failure. I realize my back is still regaining its strength that it had lost. However just like my weight loss, I know where I can be, I just have to work at it to get back there! So practice practice practice, and I will again reach and surpass that #, and continue to progress. So I will no longer look at this as a failure, I will look at this as a setback that I WILL overcome! Check back next month to watch my progress!
Feb 1, 2017 – Today I find myself struggling. I see other ladies dropping #’s in weight and inches. Now I feel like I’m busting my butt off, so why aren’t my #’s dropping like theirs. I start to get to a negative place, and from our lesson on Tuesday, negative is not a happy place and not a place I want to be. As a result of this I decide to message one of my girlfriends who had been in my situation in previous years. Like a true friend she gives me some tough love and some amazing advice. Focus on you and you only, don’t compare yourself to the next person, you are all different and most importantly trust in the process! So here’s to me and the process! Much love everyone and thanks for all your support. 17 days till voting starts.
Jan 31, 2017 – Weekly weigh in and measurements. Not going to lie Tuesday isn’t my favourite day of the week, which is a shame because they should be. To witness my progress first-hand how can one not get excited?
So today was weekly weigh in and as an added bonus we did measurements. Well in both cases I went down. Yeah! But again I’m just okay with it. Why am I not happy?? Not like you can answer for me, but I sit and think: WHY? Well I think I have come to realize that for me this has been a bin there done that, type of situation. Last year I was 15lbs from my “goal” weight, so I know I can do it, but I got off track and began to put on the weight. So although I am getting progress I guess I feel the progress is just not enough; this is not a good way to be thinking. I really need to forget the past and realize what I was or what I did in the past didn’t work. I am doing this for the long haul. So slow and steady it needs to be, and remember any progress is GREAT progress!
So when I walk into my T& N Fitness Bootcamp class tomorrow and tell them of these results, I will be proud, I will be happy and I will take the praise! Because progress is progress!
So drum roll please……….
I am down 1.8 lbs and 4.25 inches.
That’s 6.6 lbs and 4.25 inches since Jan 15, 2017. This is progress and I am happy with progress!
Jan 31, 2017 – Perfectly Imperfect! Love your skin! Be positive! These were some phrases that were brought up at our weekly meeting. What do those mean to you? What do those mean to me?
We have now come to a new age a new way of thinking. We should learn to love ourselves, no matter what. Trust me that’s a lot easier said than done. Why is it we always dislike something about ourselves? Always want to change something? How do we change our way of thinking so we love ourselves?
Tonight we did an activity; we sat around in a circle and went one by one what we love about one another. I was amazing to see how it affected each person differently to the next. Now for one I don’t like to be the center of attention, but for the first time I took it in and lived in the moment, hearing all these amazing compliments from women I barely know. We converse a few times a week, maybe work out together, and even talk over Facebook, but do we really know much about each other in 2 weeks. Well let me tell you, we do, you could see it in the joyful tears, the loud laughter, and the big smiles on all the ladies faces. If these true statements can affect a room of ladies that only met 2 weeks ago to this degree, imagine how it could affect the next person you talk to, how saying one nice thing to someone, anyone could change their day, which in return change your day, your way of thinking! So readers my challenge to you, each day as you carry on with our life, take a step back and before a negative thought enters your mind about how slow this person is in line, how annoyed you are with someone’s kids in a store, how their driving gets under your skin, or anything else that comes across your mind. Stop, look and think of something positive! Maybe even have the courage to tell them face to face you thought. Try it; you just never know how your kind words can change someone’s day. I know tonight my night was changed just by watching each of these ladies faces light up with all the positivity.
Jan 30, 2016 – Week #2 Overview
Well it’s the end of week #2. Again this week was another amazing adventure.
New things this week:
I have taken up walking Mill Lake each morning. The walk helps me clear my head and gives me some alone time. When am unable to walk due to weather or life, I make sure to make some “me” time with my adult colouring books. If you don’t have one GET one, they are amazing and just help clear your mind.
Some of my progress:
I’m starting to get a little more comfortable at the gym. I began to run on the treadmill and each day I go I run more. I have been learning the weight machines and even started to do some weights on my own. Now I can do free weights but the machines are better for my center of gravity and helps so I don’t pull any muscles. I am definitely building stronger bonds with the ladies and getting into a nice day to day routine. I learned I still need to take in more protein for the amount of exercise I’m doing. But overall I’m just taking it all in and digesting it day by day. Rome wasn’t built in a day!
Jan 28, 2017 – Today I went to the gym with my BF; still not sure how I feel about it. Oh I should introduce him, his name is Wes. So anyways I got there before him so I decided to do a warm up. I got on the treadmill and today I told myself I was going to run, I was actually going to try even if it was only 1 min. I did it! I freaking did it! I was so proud I tried again, and used this as my warm up, man that was some warm up. Then I go off to work on some weights with Wes. Today was chest day, and if you don’t know what that mean, heck nor do I. But I followed and adjusted my limits at each station About 30 min pass and he goes off to do some free weights and I head back to treadmill for some more cardio and you know what I did I got back on and RAN again. This, this is progress. I make this goal today that by the time the Top 15 are announced I will be running 5 – 6 min straight at a time. Follow my progress and watch as I crush this goal!
Jan 28, 2017 – Tonight was date night. What a date night…ha ha I like to know to. Well my BF and I have both busy schedules, and then I decided hey lets add on more and join this challenge. So needless to say we don’t get many date nights. So I called up my mom and said hey do you want your granddaughter for a sleepover, I just need a night when I’m not a mom. Hands up for all the moms that understand! High 5! Well she said yes; happy dance! So we did a gym date followed by dinner in a real restaurant with real food and no KIDS. It was so nice.
Now I can hear you all….what you ate out, aren’t you eating healthy? Yes I did, because I am using this challenge for real life. I don’t want to be held back, can’t have this, can’t eat that, because in real life there are birthday parties, nights out, date nights, and much more. Now what some people miss is that when you make a healthy lifestyle change, it doesn’t mean salads for life. No go out have food indulge, but make smart choices. I did! I asked for mayo on the side and dressing on the side. This way I get to choose how much I use, and you will be surprised to learn that you will probably not use as much or even notice it missing. And what’s life if you can’t just live it. Have that bite of cake, share a dessert with a friend or like me share a deep fried pickle appetizer with my BF. These little treats will help you not to over indulge and lose sight of the ultimate goal you have made for yourself
PS we went to Canadian Brewhouse, highly recommend it!
Jan 21, 2017 – Well this morning I went to my regular Saturday morning class. It was a circuit. This means 1 min per station for 60 min. Well my daughter woke up this morning excited to go, this made me proud. She obviously can’t work out during the class but right after her and I did a short run. She was so excited to do the work out with mom, like mom.
So when I’m asked why I joined the Total Makeover Challenge, I did it for her, to show her anything is possible. If you put your mind to it you can overcome anything. And that strong and healthy is more important than the scale, the pant # and the look of your body. Be happy with the skin you’re in.
Jan 27, 2017 – Today…what can I say about today? Well I had a great class with Parallel Yoga, the class was called restorative. If you haven’t gone yet, go now don’t walk run! Then I decided do a little shopping at the store next door. As I was paying for my items I was just off in dream world when the cashier had asked me, wait for it, asked me when I was due! Like what the fudge brownie are you talking about lady??? Yes she repeatedly asked me when I was expecting my baby. What baby? Unless you count that 33oz of liquid water ready to burst because I forgot pee after yoga. I was just so taken back. I completely forget anything that happened in the 2 min. Say have a nice day and proceed to walk with my head held high right out of that store! Then I get to my car and that’s when it hits. Do I look pregnant? How could she ask such a thing? Yes I was hurt. I was upset. What women wouldn’t be? Usually I would emotionally eat and cry about it. But what has that done for me in the past? Nothing just helps pack on the pounds and lower my self-esteem. Well this time it’s going to be different! I’m not going to let it get me down. I’m going to use it as motivation, determination and pure dedication to work harder on loving myself the way I am. So in the event this happens again I can proudly state, no I am not pregnant, but I am a very happy mother to a wonderful 5 year old, thanks and have a great day! Walk out with a smile on my face. Because when you love yourself no one can dull your sparkle!
Jan 25, 2017 – Today has been one emotional day. I have always been told I have my life together, I’m so organized, I’m a great mom etc etc. But in fact deep down I feel like my life is in chaos and all over the map and I don’t have my life together. I’m only organized because I have OCD and everything has to be done and planned or I lose my mind. And as for my parenting skills, a great mother? How can I be a great when I have a hard time keeping my patience and I lose my cool when really I should just breathe? Breathe just breathe, it’s simple you inhale you exhale. Then just sit back and looked at your life. Look at your family, your friends, your partner, at your home, your possessions and just feel blessed? Well today was just that day. Today I was getting frustrated for whatever reason and I started reference all the negativity and finally just get fed up and needed to take a stand. I created a Facebook page for anyone who simply just wanted to be involved in my journey through this total make over. To my surprise many people wanted in. They were so supported and told me all these amazing things like you’re great, you got this, you’re amazing, you’re my inspiration, way to go, and you know what that made realize that there must be something I’m missing if all these people can see this but I can’t. So what did I do? I got out my crafts and I made myself an inspiration wall. I wrote down all those amazing comments so that each morning I am reminded of those traits and that each new day will be a great day, I will be great, I will be more free flowing and less stressed, I will be more okay with living in the moment then planning the next and I will gain patience and be less quick to react. Because what is life if we don’t just breathe, we don’t just take a step back and live in the moment rather than for the moment. When all else fails just inhale and then exhale…..just breathe.
Week #1 end and overview (Jan 15 – Jan 24)
Well today is the 7th day of my journey. I have taken in so much information. Like did you know you should be drinking half your body weight in water (oz.)? Yeah I did and man oh man my bathroom and I are best buddies.
I have also experienced so much. Going to the gym for the first time in my life. Now I lead a very active life. I attend a women’s only boot camp called T&N Fitness Studio, formerly known as KP Fitness Studio. But walking into a gym and actual gym with physical equipment and weight machines not just free weights is overwhelming. If you never have been to a gym and you walk into Club 16 you will understand what mean. But hey as everyone says you have to start somewhere! Oh and then yoga, yes yoga….why was I so against yoga…..I LOVE YOGA. Go try it out! Parallel Yoga has sponsored all the Top 30 in Abbotsford, but even without the sponsorship I would still recommend them, just check out their reviews.
With all I have learned and experienced the best part of this first week is the ladies, the bonds, the friendships we are all making. Yes this is a challenge but watching the women bond and lift each other up and motivate one another; right there makes us all winners and its only week #1
Jan 24, 2017 – Weigh in! Well today’s that day, the day we step on the scale. So many emotions…did I do good, did I lose any weight, did I gain? Why am I stressing over a number? It’s just that! Does this # define me? So many thoughts and emotions just get on the scale and see….you can do this I tell myself, you can do this. So I take that step, one foot then the other and I wait for what seems like 5 whole minutes, and 30 seconds later…….I look down and see the # the dreaded #…….what???? I did it I lost 4.8lbs. But why wasn’t I happy? Why wasn’t I overjoyed? It was a loss. Shouldn’t I be happy? Needless to say this is a struggle, losing weight is a struggle, getting fit is a struggle, being healthy is a struggle. So when the night was all said and done, I wasn’t happy about the weight loss BUT I was happy that the # is changing, it is going down and in time I will be excited to step on that scale and I will be not happy but PROUD of that #, and know I DID DO IT!
Jan 15, 2017 – Meet and greet. Tonight we got to meet the Shape Your World board who is the board that organized this amazing challenge. As well as some of the sponsors…..wow so many amazing sponsors, I couldn’t even pick one to be my favourite. And finally the top 30 ladies of Abbotsford and the top 30 ladies of Langley, so many beautiful women, all with amazing stories. The night was packed with information, lots of information and the dreaded weigh in. Well my starting weight for this challenge was 208.4 lbs. Continue to read my blogs to see what happens to that # as well you can follow my day to day journey on Facebook by joining “Tara Lawrence – TMC Journey”
Jan 13, 2017…..a Friday…..yes, Friday the 13th, well it’s supposed to be unlucky. In my case this day was the day my life changed. In the early afternoon, I received the call, that call I had been waiting for. I got in….I had made top 30. And then my excitement turned to disappointment. My daughter had gymnastics the same time as the scheduled weekly meetings. I was reluctant but felt I had to pass up this opportunity because I was putting my daughter to #1. Shortly after my call had ended I talked to a friend who was a past challenger and told her of my disappointment, and to my surprise she offered without even batting an eye that for the whole duration she would pick up my daughter each week from gymnastics and keep her till my meetings were done. I was brought to tears, the fact that one of my dear friends would give up their time to allow me to finally do something for me was just overwhelming. So what did I do…..Oh I called the total make over board member back and told them of the great news! So in fact this Friday the 13th was a very lucky day for me.
Hello, strange way to start a blog but I am going to write to you as I am standing in front of you talking face to face. So prepare to get to know me inside and out.
First of I am a single mother of one fabulous 5 year old. You will hear LOTS about her. I am currently in a relationship with a one of a kind man. You too will hear lots about him maybe not as much as my daughter (laughs). I have only lived in BC for little over 12 years, I am originally from Saskatchewan. Yes I know I can hear you all say it…I am a roughriders fan; please don’t hold that against me.
A year before having my daughter I was just little bit over 290 lbs. I realized I needed a change. I began working out at home and trying lots of weight loss programs. I ended up losing just over 80 lbs. before I found out I was pregnant. Because I was still very over weight, I had to watch what I ate and attempt to not put on any wait during my pregnancy. Well that didn’t work. I was soon up to 230 lbs. from 210 lbs. After having my daughter I was just over 220 lbs. For the last 5 years I have worked my butt off at a local women’s only boot camp studio, as a result I have completed 3 Tough Mudders, 6 Colour Runs/ Colour Me Rad (5k), with daughter in toe and 3 woman2warrior obstacle races. I will be completing my 4th W2W as well as my 1st rugged maniac run and 5k foam run. As a result of my hard work I got down to just over 185 lbs. And then the weight just started to come back, the poor choices came back and I started to go downhill. This brings you all to the present where I average around 205 lbs. up or down 5 lbs. Which brings me here to the Abbotsford Total Makeover Challenge? Follow along to experience my journey first hand.