I woke up this morning singing a little Rod Stewart tune…..y’all know the one…..Tonight’s the Night.
I can’t believe it’s over after tonight. Well, it is, but it isn’t.
The Challenge is ending but for me the journey is just beginning. I have more I want to do and see and accomplish with my health and fitness goals and I am ready and motivated to crush them. I don’t care how long it takes me, but I will join the 100lbs down club. I promise you that.
I am so thankful for everything and everyone this Challenge brought me. We have had such a glorious ride together. We laughed until we couldn’t anymore, we cried and we open and vulnerable with each other, we shared secrets and dreams and we have formed bonds that can not be broken. I know we may not all say in touch, or see each other once a week, but no one can emulate what we walked through together; especially this last 6 weeks <3
To my friends, and their friends and even some total strangers – THANK YOU. I know that we have to completely put ourselves out there, time and time again and for me you guys ALWAYS showed up. You shared my posts, you recruited voters, you came to fundraisers and bought contest tickets. You motivated me and took time out of your lives to follow my journey and encourage me when I needed it. Whatever I asked, y’all gave me 100%. THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart. Without your support and help, I don’t know that I would have made it this far. I don’t know that a day passed where I didn’t have a text, call or pm from someone, just saying I’m awesome, or that they’re inspired by me, and that was HUGE. THANK YOU <3
Whatever the final outcome tonight, we’ve all won. In some way, shape or form we all take away from this. Mentally, emotionally or physically we are all in better spots than we were in 4 months ago and that is priceless.
I will try and post one last entry this evening after all is said and done, so keep your eyes peeled.
Much love friends xoxo
What a week it’s been!
Fashion Show rehearsals, exercise, fittings, home, work, a 5km run/walk and friends. I feel like I haven’t had time for anything! There have definitely been a couple of late nights and early mornings. I am pretty sure that this is the most tired I have been in the past 4 months. Never, ever could I be a model and have this be my regular gig. No dice, not this cowgirl.
But I have absolutely loved every second of it. It sounds weird to say, but I have.
It coming to an end is a bit bittersweet for me.
But back to the picture at the top – WINE!!!! Tonight, I wine. And yes, it’s only Tuesday morning, but gosh darn it, I deserve it.
The Last Supper <3
It was sooooooo nice to sit down and just be us. To enjoy a Chef’s Table Dinner was such a treat. I am not one to be adventurous when it comes to food or drink; it’s not often that I waver from my comfort foods. Things I know I will like and enjoy – chicken, steak, you know, the basics.
This was a nice change from that. Dynamite Rolls with mango in them, a fish taco, a salmon dish. All deeeeeeeelicious and left me wanting to try more!
We laughed and shared and had an amazing night. It’s hard to believe that we only have 1 week left and then it’s back to life………back to reality.
Thank you Earls Chilliwack – it was a glorious treat and I will definitely be back!
Final weigh and measure tonight then we are spoiled AGAIN with a chef’s table dinner at Earl’s in Chilliwack. I don’t know what I’m more excited for!
Just kidding – I worked HARD again this week, so I’m jazzed for the scale. Again, who am I?? Excited and looking forward to getting on a scale????
-8.2LBS!!!!!! In a week!!!! IN. A. WEEK. Plus another 2 inches!!
I worked hard this week again. No cheats, tons of water and a very strict diet that was high in protein and healthy fats and low in carbs, sugars and sodium. I was diligent with my exercise – even if I couldn’t get to the gym – I worked out at home on my treadmill and with kettle bells, I walked the lake and I hiked. And it paid off. I actually almost cried when I saw what I had done!
I don’t know that I can even put into words how good I feel about myself right now. I AM BEYOND PROUD.
People keep telling me I’m glowing and there’s something different about me, and there is. There so is. I look at my before picture and that person is almost unrecognizable to me. I am so proud of myself and how I was able to turn my life around. I was so lost and hurting and now I feel like I’m walking on air. I feel free. Like I don’t have to worry about making bad choices because I know the value and the worth of making good ones.
I no longer crave shitty foods, instead I want to treat myself with a yummy yogurt bowl or some veggies and dip. I’m not saying that’s how it’s always going to be; heck as I type this, I’m eating pizza. The difference now? I’m eating 2 pieces of fajita light pizza on multigrain thin crust with no dip and a water and not an entire medium stuffed crust with extra cheese and a container or 2 of dip with a 1L of pop to wash it down.
You can still have the pizza and the success, you just have to figure out how to balance your goals and your expectations <3
It’s a process and it takes time. You might even start 10 times before it finally happens, but when it does……look out. Because if you’re anything like me, there won’t be any stopping you.
I got pampered today at MD Cosmetics. I spent some time with one of their lovely technicians, Andrea, and it was fab-u-lous!
I’ve never gotten a facial before, so I wasn’t really sure what I was in for and I was a bit anxious.
We opted for a pumpkin facial rather than the hydra facial because my skin is a bit sensitive and she nor I wanted me to have any sort of reaction or irritation, especially with the fashion show creeping up so quickly.
She is so good at what she does. She could tell I was a bit anxious and she talked me through each step. It was very relaxing and I got in a quick little power nap while the goop was soaking into my face.
Once she had me all cleaned up, I couldn’t believe how soft my skin felt. And, I was glowing!
Thank you Andrea, and MD Cosmetics for yet another lovely treat we received as Challengers. It’s not something I would have done on my own, but it’s now definitely something I will do again.
Our first fashion show practice!!!!
I am SO excited for this show!
I am excited to show off the new me, to walk strong and feel proud and to have fun with this amazing group of ladies I have grown to love so very, very much.
Do you wanna talk about how kick ass we are?!?!? I was blown away at how well we did! Like, I am pretty sure at one point I had goosebumps. This is not something you’re going to want to miss seeing!
It’s nice to get to do something with the Langley Challengers; I feel like even though we are going through the same things, we are not as close as I thought we would be. I think after a few more practices, we will all get to know each other better.
Our coordinators Nikki and her friend Shara were amazing. Very helpful and encouraging and they had some amazing ideas to really help us get our sass on!
And guess who’s face will be leading the line of lovelies at the big show???? If you guessed me, you’re right!! I’m a tiny bit nervous, but in all honesty, I also LOVE it!!
I am counting down to the 16th!
Every once in a while I like to enjoy some ‘me’ time. Actually, I don’t ‘like’ to enjoy it – I freaking LOVE it. Maybe it’s a drive, maybe a walk, a trip to the gym or just some quiet time in my room.
Somehow I ended up with an empty house on Saturday night and I took FULL advantage of it. I knew what was in store for me the next couple of weeks. Fashion show practices, working out, fittings, voting stresses, the 5km run, Mother’s Day plus work, family and life!
I had a great workout at the gym that morning, did some puttering around the house, washed my Jeep and walked Mill Lake. It was about 7pm when I opted for a nice, hot bath and my robe. Yes – my robe and a bath on a Saturday night. Who am I?
I caught up on all my shows that I’ve been hoarding on the PVR, I watched playoff hockey and I relaxed. It was glorious. I slept for 11 hours and it was the greatest!!
It’s important to take care of yourself, spend time on you. You’re so important and so worth it <3
I just finished my first week at my new job
The people there are great and I am fitting in nicely. It’s definitely a change of pace from what I was doing before, but I think I’m going to enjoy it there.
It’s definitely nice having something to do during the day. The Challenge has kept me quite busy, but I was still missing something. Going from working full time for the last 15 years to nothing for over 6 months really took a toll on me mentally.
I know it’s not what I want to do forever, but I also knew I couldn’t not work for much longer. It was hard.
I have some plans for my future and some things I’d like to achieve, but having something to do, and a purpose within a great company now is awesome!
4 months ago I was a sad, broken, shell of a woman. I was unhappy and depressed. I didn’t show it all the time and tried to mask it with a smile. I was slowly killing myself. Not working it was easy to stay in bed all day and eat shitty food. Often, the only time I’d leave was to hit up a drive thru, or 2 and then I’d go back to my bedroom. I can’t tell you how many repeat episodes of House Hunters International I watched.
I knew what I could potentially ‘get’ from this Challenge and when I saw the Facebook ad a tiny voice in my head said “you’re ready this time”. And dammit, that voice was right. This time it’s different. This time everything is clicking when and where it should. That doesn’t mean it’s been easy – some days it’s been HARD. Hard as all hell. But this time the fire in me didn’t go out when it got a little windy. It’s a fire burning with a passion for what I’m doing. Fuelled by something that won’t be extinguished. It’s an actual interest in how food and exercise work. What works for me and my body. How to make this a lifestyle and not just a thing I’m trying.
When I started this I set a few goals for myself. 2 of them are big, but I’m driven and strong and I will crush them.
I’m 35lbs away from that first goal. More than half way there. So close I can taste it. Lol.
And that second goal? I weighed in at 323.4lbs in January. Last night I was 283.4lbs. I WILL get there. I’m going to keep grinding until I do. No matter how long it takes.
We’ve all worked hard and could easily take this, but I feel I am most deserving of your votes and the votes of your supporters. This Challenge is about changing as a whole. Tearing down the shit and making a new path. It’s a forever change and I think that is what I’ve done. Yes, it took doing this for a second time for it to happen, but it happened. It’s a journey, not a destination and I can’t believe it took me so long to figure that out.
YOU READ THAT RIGHT!!!!!! 40 MOTHER TRUCKING POUNDS DOWN!!!
I told y’all I was going to work hard this week, and work hard I did. I lost 7.2lbs!
I was very vigilant on my diet (no cheats), on top of my water intake and was at the gym, every day, working HARD.
I feel so good, and nothing is going to stop me. I’m going to bring the same fierceness and determination into this week with me, the end of the Challenge is approaching. I am not done my fitness journey by any means, but it’s beast mode time. It’s on and there is no quit in me.
Watch what I do next week xoxo
What are your visions for your future?
Last night we made vision boards. They are so much fun to do, and I think that if you believe and accept the things you want into your life and thoughts, you will get them.
Mine is focused on the next few years. I want to travel, compete in 5km runs, mud runs, be happy, make an impact.
I know I can achieve all of these goals. It’s just a matter of time <3
On Sundays, we hike. And hike we did.
Angie and I set out for Hoover Lake after I saw it on a local hiking page. We wanted something longer than 5km, but weren’t quite ready for 10km yet. It looked like a perfect fit at 7.5kms.
Most of the hike was uphill on a logging road. I found myself out of breath quite a bit. on the way back, we realized just how uphill it was! But it was good.
I love being outside and hiking is quickly becoming a passion of mine. I have a bum knee, so I am not into anything with a crazy, steep incline that I have to get down after, but in doing some research, there are quite a few local gems I can’t wait to hit up.
It took us 3 hours and we had a blast! I love the friendship I am forming with this lady. I hope she knows she’s stuck with me
I can’t wait for warmer weather and longer hikes. North Van appears to have some gorgeous day trips that I can’t wait to check out!
Another day of pampering. I don’t know that I have ever had it this good <3
Today started with a trip to see my lovely friend Sandra at Art of Hair design. I was excited and open to almost anything! We chatted, I showed her some pictures and she started to work her magic. Before I knew it, 4 hours flew by! She is phenomenal at what she does. What we talked about; happened. It’s not as light as I would like, but she explained to me that because I had box dyed my hair (black) so many times, getting the colour I want will be a 2-3 step process. But man, it legit feels like I got a hair transplant. No joke. I love the cut, colour and how easy it is to style!
Then off to PhotoArt by Simpson for make up by Bethany Anne and then another photoshoot with Andrew and Arlene.
Bethany Anne is a makeup goddess! I always love the way she makes me look and that gal has a knack for doing my brows! I always love them <3. It was nice to see Karina there for a split second too! Thank you for the Arbonne make up!!
I was never a fan of having my picture taken, but Andrew and Arlene make it so much fun. It’s easy, we laugh and they always manage to capture killer shots! I got one tiny sneak peak and was blown away! I can’t wait to see them all!
Thank you all for your generosity, it’s above and beyond anything I expected <3
I bought the Pats shirt to wear for the Super Bowl in February. I didn’t end up wearing it because it was too tight and I was not comfortable. It’s a men’s XXXL.
These 2 pics are from yesterday. It’s not where I want to be, but I’m SO PROUD of where I’m at. 14 weeks into changing my entire life basically. From a size 22/24 or 3/4xl to a size 14/16 and a 1xl. 35lbs and 35 inches. I’m stronger and more determined than I’ve ever been.
Friday Night <3 <3 <3
I needed a night like this. Girl time.
It started with Ang and I making mani/pedi appointments at JJ Nails (yes, ANOTHER AMAZING sponsor gift)!! Jenn joined us and we laughed, cried and chatted for a few hours. All while sitting in massage chairs! There’s not a thang wrong with that!
Then it was off to Bonnie’s for her sweet Legs legging party. I did not intend on buying, just going to be with friends and have some fun, but daaaaaaaaaamn. These leggings are soft like butter. And the patterns are so cute! I ended up with a couple of pairs – one with little wine and cocktail glasses on them and one with cute little sloths.
The party ended and soon it was just a few of us. We decided to figure out our photoshoot outfits and have an impromptu clothing swap. Jenn drove all over town, collecting our clothes at our houses so we would all be content with our outfit choices. Not something I would have normally done, but I love these ladies and it was so much fun! Much needed and so many laughs!
Today I got to spend some time at Optik International with the manager, Joanne. They gave us a mini challenge to complete!
We got to go in, choose a set of frames and a pair of sunglasses that we get to wear in the fashion show! She offered to fit us with contacts if we require them, or said they will put our prescriptions into them so we can see the night of. So cool! Who doesn’t love shopping?
The mini challenge was to make a short video about Optik International and post it on our Facebook pages. Which ever video gets the most likes at the end wins a pair of sunglasses! How cool is that??? Head over to my Facebook page (Shannon Waters) and please LIKE the original post with the video in it to help me get closer to winning!
I’ll post a sneak peek of the frames here, but y’all have to wait till the fashion show to see the sunglasses we chose!
Today I got my lashes done!
All ladies in the Top 5 + wild card were given a set of lashes from Hush Lashes (inside of Fabutan). Which by the way, has been AMAZING!!! Between tanning and the red light therapy, it’s one of my favourite places to visit. Plus, the staff there are freaking phenomenal!!
So lashes……. I was so excited!! My technician, Kristina, was the BEST! We chatted and laughed the entire appointment and she was great. You know when you just click with someone? Like, you just get their personality and sense of humour? That. She even guided me to the bathroom halfway thru the appointment!
I LOVE THEM!!!!!! LOVE, LOVE, LOVE them. Peace out mascara! I loved them so much I immediately booked and appointment for right before the fashion show!!
Thank you Fabutan and Hush Lashes <3 <3 <3
Good old Tuesday nights.
I was not as excited about this Tuesday as I have been about others. I knew that my weekend of island life was about to catch up with me and the competitor in me didn’t want to be kicked out of the ‘No Gain’ club. I wasn’t ready to leave. Yes, I could have worked out harder, or not had as many drinks, or made different choices – but I didn’t. And I am OK with that.
Because, life. Because, balance. Because, CHOICE.
I am navigating this fitness journey with long term in mind. And in my life there are weekends away. There are dinners out. There are too many drinks. But there is also balance. And the knowledge that I didn’t have before. So as long as I can make choices and then get back on track, I am OK with that.
I gained 2.4lbs this week but it’s not the end of the world, or the Challenge. Watch what I do next Tuesday night.
I am having a hard time putting into words exactly what this weekend was for me.
Enlightening. Eye opening. Real. Honest. Emotional. Fun.
The women who spoke and shared with us over the 3 days were nothing short of phenomenal. Wether they were speaking on business or finance or personal tragedy; they all found a way to connect with every person in that room.
From the minute we anxiously walked in the door until our shuttle picked us up on Sunday afternoon – the vibe was electric.
It was so nice to connect with different people, to not have a TV on, to be surrounded by nature. A reset and a re charge I feel we all needed. We were spoiled with a spa visit and cooked for. It truly was one of the best weekends of my life <3
Huge thanks to Jo, Megan and everyone else who made the seminar possible, to all the women who shared – THANK YOU and to Shape Your World for giving us this amazing gift xoxo
I got to spend almost 2hrs on my own one of the mornings. I made a tea and snuck down to the beach to work on my speech.
One of the mini challenges we were given had us write a short 3 minute speech on what the Challenge has meant to us and then we were going to be recording them later on that day. Below is my speech – I didn’t read it off the paper so I am curious to see how the video comes out.
Hi, my name is Shannon. Fun fact about me, I am crazy enough to be doing the Total Makeover Challenge for a second time. 2 years ago I saw an ad for the 2015 Challenge and thought I would give it a go. I had no clue what I was getting myself into, but thought was up for it. All i can say is WOW.
I learned things about heath, nutrition and how to work out properly, because while I thought I had an inkling about all of these things, I quickly learned I was beyond wrong.
2015 was a great year, I made new friends, learned about myself and seemed to be on the right track.I had success in the Challenge and was able to shed 52lbs and 23 inches!
The Challenge ended, but life did not. At first, continuing on with what I had learned was easy. Then, I felt myself slowly slipping back into my old ways. A burger here, a stop at 7/11 there. I kept telling myself I would work harder at the gym to compensate; but I didn’t. And then somewhere along the way I simply gave up. I threw in the towel. Quickly, 2 years went by and I had gained back 30lbs and all the inches. I had worked SO hard to get myself under 300lbs, and I just quit. I LET myself creep back above that number again.
When I was let go from my job last October, I lost myself. I felt like a failure and like I wasn’t good enough. At some point during the sadness and the tears and the food I saw an ad for the 2017 Challenge and it sparked something in me. I knew what it had done for me before and thought this could be my second chance! And who even gets second chances like this?!?!? I applied and held my breath. And I got the call!! I knew this was MY TIME.
I learned a lot the first time around, but this time it’s SO different. I didn’t know I was open to SO MUCH MORE. I’ve learned how to cope, how to forgive, how to be present and how to balance this crazy ride we call life. I’ve met new friends and reconnected with old ones. I learned how to graciously accept the challenges life throws at us with my head held high and a smile on my face. I’ve learned I am worth every single ounce of sweat in the gym and every good decision I make in the kitchen. I see the beauty in things I didn’t before and it’s amazing.
I am currently down 35lbs and just over 30 inches and I’m not done yet. My goal is to lose 75lbs in 2017 and because of what I’ve learned, I KNOW i can do it.
I’m not the same person I was 2 years ago, heck, I’m not even the same person I was on January 15th when we started this crazy ride and I am proud of that. i am me, I am strong and I can do this.
We are beyond lucky to have been able to attend the life changing seminar, but also to have the time we had for ourselves. Time to reflect and enjoy.
As a group of 6 we bonded and laughed and cried and danced. We were real and honest and raw with each other and I feel we morphed our friendships to a whole new level. I am walking away from the weekend with a solid 5 friend sin my pocket and the price tag on that is GIGANTIC.
Gwenny – Your knowledge and wisdom have played a part in a lot of different ways for me so far. From a quick look or laugh, to a 20 minute phone call to calm my tears, you’re quick to love on others and are one of the most positive women I know <3
Jenn – My sister from another mister. My love and respect for you is not measurable. We are more than friends, we are family now. Keep being the light you always are and remember I will always be here. Lodi dodi mofo <3
Carls – Never in my life have I met someone I just want to be around as much as I do you. Our friendship was slower to build, but is forever strong now. Belly laughs, tears, dane parties – you know I’ve got your back for life <3
Bonnie – I’m never deleting you again and IT’S A KIMONO!!!!! In all seriousness; I am SO happy we got reunited the way we did. It’s been a comfort to have someone who’s done this before with me on this insane ride again. I am so proud of you and who you are and can’t wait to see what you do next. I will always be your biggest cheerleader and my porch is always here for you <3
Angie – My soul sister. For reals. I didn’t expect to click with anyone as well as we have. I am so stoked you’re part of my life and I feel like we’ve already been through so much together. Thank you for pushing me to be better. I can’t wait for more hikes, shopping trips, vacations and camping; plus a few other things I won’t mention on here <3
Love you all!!!!!!
We were given an opportunity to attend a women’s conference this weekend called Frock Off – The Best Kept Secret To Success, hosted by Jo Dibblee. I was a bit apprehensive about what it all was; but I went with an open mind. While I am not a business owner, I took SO much away from this weekend. I spoke to women who were strong and driven and it sparked something in me.
We bonded and laughed and loved on each other and I am beyond thankful.
Check the link below to learn a bit about the seminar!!!
Last post before our trip away!
For those of you who don’t know – one of the perks of being a Challenger (and there are many) is a weekend trip away. Tomorrow we depart for Parksville, BC where we will spend a weekend at a seminar called Frock Off, enjoy some down time, hike, sit in the spa, relax and bond with each other.
I am excited for this opportunity to not only enjoy the seminar, but to treat myself a bit. I have never been to a place this nice and am giddy like a small child on Christmas Eve!
Thank you again to the Shape Your World Society for putting on the Total Makeover Challenge. Thank you to ALL the sponsors who have donated items or services and for all the treats we get. I will attach a list below for you all to see how we have been spoiled in each segment. Check out each of their web pages or Facebook sites!!
I will update more when we return on Sunday, I’m sure I will have a ton of pictures and stories to tell
Weigh & Measure + Paint Night at Zealous Art Studio in Langley!!!
I had SO much fun, engaging with the Langley ladies, bonding more with the Abby ladies and learning how to paint (sort of). I had never tried anything like this and am always game for trying something once. I know that I am not that artistically inclined (those skills definitely went to my lovely daughter), but I had watched some YouTube videos and spoken to a couple of people who had been before and enjoyed themselves.
My painting was………interesting. They are butterflies. Someone asked if mine was supposed to be the NBC Peacock?!?!!! Needless to say, I am no Picasso BUT I had a great time!!! Thank you to TMC & SYWS for treating us and thank you to Zealous Art for having us!
I was very nervous about weigh in, I knew I hadn’t been on point with my diet and the competitor in me wanted to continue being one of the 3 ladies left in the Challenge to hold a spot in the coveted No Gain Club. No gains at all for the entire duration of the Challenge.
I stepped on the scale and I was down!!!! Only by 0.2lbs, but I was down. I am still in the club! I enjoyed my Easter treats, but I am back at it, full force. I am also down a few more inches, but I am also up 1-2 in two areas (waist & bicep). A quick chat with Gina helped confirm that my body is shifting. I am building muscles. I know that even though some numbers went up, I did just buy a whole new round of undergarments 2 sizes smaller than before, and to me that’s a win!
Weigh In tonight…….dun, dun, dunnnnnnnn.
I am excited because we get to do a Paint Night Class with the Langley Ladies, but I have been feeling the effects of veering off my diet plan the last few days., so I am a bit nervous for weigh and measure tonight.
I have still been hitting the gym, have added in hot yoga (which I AM LOVING) and have been on top of getting my water in. I just feel puffy in some areas. But I feel strong in other areas, so hopefully it all balances out!
Sooooooo the Easter Bunny has a weakness in this house. I really should have known better and just not bought them, but I thought I’d give it a go.
These delicious little things are my kryptonite. I can’t not if they’re near by.
This is me giving myself a pep talk about said eggs: ‘You don’t need those, they don’t even taste good.’ ‘Are you kidding me? They’re the most decadent thing you’ve ever put in your mouth. Ever.’ ‘Do it.’You’re working SO hard to reach your goals.’ ‘Goals, schmoals…..eat themmmmmm.’
I’m human. And female. And even though I broke down and ate SOME; I definitely did not eat multiple bags in one sitting a la Old Shan. I had enough to satisfy my wants, and I put the rest in the Easter baskets. I probably could (should) have gone without considering I had the brownie the day before, but again, I’m human. It’s life. Tomorrow is a new day and I will be back on track!
Long weekend time!!!
I love long weekends, and when paired with a Holiday that usually includes a turkey dinner AND chocolate, they become even better.
We celebrated Easter on Saturday with dinner at my sister’s house. It’s always nice to sit down, re connect and visit with my fan. We are all pretty tight and live quite close to each other, but we don’t seem to do it enough.
Dinner this year consisted of my family, my sister and her husband, their 2 boys and my Dad. My brother and his wife and daughter are back east visiting her family for the holiday and my Mom and Step Dad were not around.
As usual, my brother in law, Chris cooked a phenomenal meal. Turkey, stuffing, sweet potatoes, veggies, gravy and brownies for dessert. I knew going into dinner that I would have to make some choices, but it wasn’t as hard as I thought. I wanted the brownie so I had to figure out what I would sacrifice for that. I loaded my plate with turkey, carrots and cauliflower. No bun and no potatoes meant I could justify the brownie. Was it worth it?!?! HECK YES it was!!! Dinner was delicious, I didn’t feel like I was missing out and I got to eat what I wanted!
I hope everyone enjoyed their dinners and family time as much as I did!
I couldn’t put it into words until I saw an old friend and she said it out loud. ‘There’s something different about you this time…..your outlook, your approach….you’re stronger.’
This is my second time doing the Total Makeover Challenge and since I started, people have been asking me ‘why’? Why would I do this again? Especially when I knew what it involved?
The answer wasn’t clear until the other day.
Because this time I am ready. I am strong and I am supported. I was in such a sad, dark place at the start of the year, and I can almost not even remember what that felt like. It’s like my brain was finally ready to do what I had attempted to do countless times before. A switch flipped, or something clicked and I know this is my time.
I have been lucky enough to be able to be present in everything, to be able to absorb and reflect on the things we are taught weekly and to be able to figure out how to apply them in my life. I have been able to love on myself and that was lacking before. Big time.
Yes, it’s hard. But this time, with the mental piece, it’s a bit easier for me. This time, it will stick and I will be a success!
I did it, I made it, it happened!
The night was amazing, and once it got started, flew by. I am SO lucky and blessed to have SO many great people in my life who came out to support me and cheer me on. It blows my mind that 16 of my friends and family took time out of their lives to come out and show me so much love <3. They were loud and I LOVED it!
My parents were there, along with my sister, a few of my life long friends I made 2 years ago in the Challenge, a couple I met last year while helping out with the Challenge, a couple I met this year who had not made Top 15 and a handful of friends I have known for decades. Literally. It’s awesome to get together with everyone because we don’t do it often enough. I hadn’t seen some of these ladies in years and without hesitation, they were there for me.
I felt beautiful in my dress, all my fellow Challengers looked amazing and I was ready!
First off, weigh in…….not that I had a rough week, but sometimes our bodies just do things and this was one of those weeks. A couple days prior to weigh in, I was up, but I knew it was water retention. I got on the scale on Tuesday night and was down another 2lbs!! Not only did I continue on with being in the ‘No Gain Club'; I also hit 35lbs down since we started on January 15th! More importantly though, I left the 290’s and I am STOKED about that!
Most of the night was a blur, until we got to announcing the winners of mini challenges and sponsor votes. I was absolutely blown away when my name was announced as Challenger’s Choice! Speechless – and for those who know me; that is a feat. I am so honoured and proud that I was voted to win this category by my peers. By a group of women I am competing against……but have learned it’s so much more than that. I was voted to win this category by a group of women who have now become my friends. By women who knew nothing about me 13 weeks ago, but who saw something in me, and honoured me with their votes. THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!
So, here we go. Buckle up, get ready, let’s so this!
Round 3 – I’ve got goals I’m going to crush and targets I am going to meet!! Let’s do this!
My last post before Top 5 announcing is dedicated to all of us on this TMC journey.
It’s been a ride. I am happy and thankful to have met each and every one of you ladies. Wether you were Top 30, you decided it wasn’t for you, or you’ve been on this crazy ride as long as I have; it’s been a pleasure and an honour to have been a part of your story.
Some of us will continue on as friends after this, and some will not, and both are ok. My only hope is each of you can look back on this ride and smile. Remember what we learned, apply it in real life and be successful – however that looks for each of us as individuals.
I know I am a better person for meeting all of you and I hope some of you feel the same <3
Good Luck to all of us tomorrow night; we ALL are deserving. Heads high, shoulders back, chests out. We are strong and beautiful and no matter who makes it and who doesn’t, we are all amazing!
I have never been a fan of shopping. Really, what plus sized person is? But I set out on Thursday to find a dress for the Little Black Dress Cocktail party on Tuesday night.
I must have tried on about 50 dresses, and was feeling a little discouraged when I noticed the sizes I was trying on.
Pre Challenge I was wearing size 22/24 & 3xl/4xl. i couldn’t tell you what my jean size was, because I couldn’t tell you when the last time I wore jeans was. Glancing down at the sizes, I was reminded of how far I have come.
I cleaned out my closet the other day and quickly realized, I am running out of clothes that fit! It’s a problem; but it’s a great problem to have!
After a day of searching I was able to find the PERFECT dress. And it’s a size 14 – ARE YOU KIDDING?!?! I’m not normally one to tot my own horn (except when I’m feeling SO good about myself), but TOOT, TOOT!!
I can’t wait to wear it!!
Yesterday was a rough one for me.
It marked 6 years that a very good friend of mine passed away. I have struggled with his death since it happened, and I have struggled with going to the location it happened at.
Dave was my person. He was the friend I needed at a time in my life when I didn’t think I needed anyone. He showed up unannounced and left a crazy imprint on my life. We connected on so many levels and he had quite the story to tell. We became fast friends, bonding over rap music, depression, drug and alcohol abuse and our struggles to find acceptance in the world. He was hands down the best hugger (EVER) and he loved Journey as much as I did (Faithfully was our jam).
One weekend he went to a Men’s Retreat just outside of Cultas Lake and I went to a Bachelorette Party at Big White. After playing ball hockey, a few of the guys decided to head down to the lake to cool off. Dave (nicknamed Superman) was all about cliff jumping that afternoon. While the others jumped off the 30ft cliff, he climbed to the 80ft one, said ‘say a prayer for me’ and jumped. He hit the water wrong and didn’t resurface.
Cultas Lake was a place I spent a lot of time at as a child and as a teen, but since his death have not been keen on revisiting. I have tried several times, but have not succeeded.
Yesterday, to honour him, and myself, I made it there. I didn’t make it to the shore, but I did hike up to a beautiful spot, overlooking the lake. And for a second I felt at peace, and I swear I heard his laugh.
I hiked with him on my mind and in my heart. He always believed in me and I hope I am making him proud <3
The more I read this and try to practice it; the more I see its truth.
I used to think that there was only one way to diet. One way for it to work and that couldn’t be further from the truth. The truth is, you have to work at it and tweak it and change things up in order for it to work.
You have to be willing to be uncomfortable and do things out of your safe zone.
Once you can do that; the world is your oyster.
My goals won’t change until they’ve been met, but the way I get to them may not be they way I had planned. I’ve already changed so much of how I thought I would do things.
Embrace the change, go for the hike, talk to someone new. You never know what sort of treasures you will find!
I couldn’t think of 3 better words to describe my feelings when I woke up this morning.
I laid in bed and reflected on my journey so far and I kept circling back to these words.
I am thankful for this chance, for a second opportunity to get it right. For the Shape Your World Society because without all their HARD WORK; none of this would happen. For all the people who take time out of their lives to run this program, judge our events, help out so us Challengers have the best experience possible. For the Sponsors; seriously we are treated like royalty and are 100% spoiled during this process. The educational seminars, weekly weigh and measures, informative talks and the level of support and knowledge they all offer is priceless. We, as Challengers are beyond lucky.
I am grateful for my health and how I have figured out how to turn it around. I still have a long way to go, but I have made SO many improvements. I feel more alive than I have ever felt. I am the most confident I’ve ever been. I am able to step out of my comfort zone in a lot of ways I couldn’t before.
I am blessed to have gotten to journey with the amazing women in this group. I have forged what I know will be life-long friendships with some people and that is a win in itself. We have grown as women, supported each other when things got tough and got to do it all together. Regardless of who sees who after this is all said and done, I do hope each one of us will look back at this crazy ride, remember something individual about each Challenger, and smile <3 <3 <3
So much change!
I am so happy, I am starting to notice all the changes in me. Physically and emotionally.
Look at these pictures. I remember how shitty I felt in the first one. Sick feeling all the time, unhappy, tired, gross. And then I look at the second picture – I had started feeling better, my skin looked nicer, my smile was bigger. The 3rd picture is where the emotional changes happened along side the physical. I started walking prouder, feeling amazing, people tell me I am glowing. I feel more confident, prettier and so much more healthier than before. I started to believe in myself more than I ever have. I know that I am amazing and I am worthy of greatness.
Yes, I am still struggling with things and going through some emotional stuff, but I am learning to deal with it. I work my frustrations out at the gym, not at the fridge. I am strong and I can conquer any challenge thrown my way <3
Sunday morning I woke up with a fundraiser hangover. You work so hard and are go, go, go and then you crash. I didn’t fall asleep until about 2:30am.
One of my fellow Challengers, Angie and I have been chatting about getting out and doing a hike together since the weather started getting nicer and yesterday was the perfect opportunity for that. It wasn’t raining, the sun was peeking out and we were both free.
She picked me up and then we picked her brother up and we headed out to Chilliwack. Lineman Lake was the plan. I was nervous as I hadn’t hiked in a few years and knew I was still not in ideal shape, but I was also excited. I have heard friends talk about hiking to Lindeman and how beautiful it was, but I had always been to scared to attempt it. I had heard it was challenging.
I made sure to pre apologize to Ang & Joe multiple times because I knew I would be slowwwwwwww.
Within the first 15 minutes I thought, ok, this isn’t so bad. And then we rounded a corner. And I looked up at basically a bunch of boulders scattered up a hill and realized that maybe this was going to be harder than I thought.
Ang & Joe were nothing short of amazing to me. Neither complained at all the stops I had to make and they both encouraged me to keep pushing. There were several times Joe was trying to motivate me and I wanted to scream at him to just SHUT UP, but I’m actually thankful he was there and he likes to yell! It kept me going. It made me push harder.
It took us 1hr to climb the 1.7km trail and gain the 300m to the top, but it was WORTH IT. It was so worth every second guess that ran through my head, it was worth the burning calves, the sweat pouring off me and the lack of oxygen in my lungs.
The lake was gorgeous and I can’t wait to go back during the summer to swim!! It snowed at the top and I got to spend time with someone who I know will be a life long friend. It’s fso awesome how the Challenge is bringing people together and forging friendships that probably wouldn’t have happened otherwise!!
We made it back down in about 50mins and had a great ride home, bonding and chatting about where the next hike will be and I can’t wait!
Saturday Night was the night! All of our hard work was set to be showcased. We are excited to help raise money for the Shape Your World Society, but also for the Starfish Backpack Program at the Abbotsford Food Bank.
WE SOLD OUT!!!!! We were given 80 tickets and immediately knew that wouldn’t be enough. We managed to wrangle another 20 from our venue so we had 100 to see. And we did it! All gone, and all showed up the night of!
HUGE thanks to all who came out, spent their money and supported us. While there were a couple of glitches with service, that was something completely out of our control. It was amazing to have so much love and support for us in one room.
Big shout out to Team Dollars & Sense – we all rocked the evening and worked well together. I am so, so, so proud of us!!!
Lastly – our team is really trying to hit a goal we set for ourselves when we were given the Apprentice Challenge and we are a wee bit short. We’d like to raise at least $200 more dollars by Tuesday evening’s meeting. IF we successfully raise that amount or higher; we as a Team will complete the Abby Grind!!!! So if you’ve got anything to give, and want to see us suffer, message me!!!
PS – The Abby Grind is an intense 4km round trip intermediate hike up a mountain side with an elevation gain of 330m. The average time to compete it is 1.5hrs.
Someone sent this to me and it’s so fitting for today. I am anxious to see if there is any change in my weight tonight, but I am SO EXCITED to see what has happened inch wise.
I am not perfect, nor will I ever be perfect. BUT, I will expel every ounce of effort I have in me to get it right this time. To be in it for the long haul. Real life, real talk. I feel like while I am shrinking physically (LOL), I am growing immensely mentally.
It’s a journey and it’s just getting started and as long as I continue to put in the work, I will arrive at my destination.
I went back and forth about sharing the next picture I am about to post. For a couple of days. This isn’t something that’s easy for me to share, but I think people should see it. I am proud of it and regardless of what I think anyone might think about it and I should be proud to show it off!! I’ve worked HARD. It’s been a rough few weeks for me so I am thankful I have this to remind me that what I’m doing is working. In it’s own way, at it’s own pace, it’s happening.
These pictures are from Feb 26 – Mar 26. I didn’t take starting pictures on Jan 15 because I was not ready to look at myself, semi naked in a photograph. I’m kind of bummed I didn’t because I think it would be good to see now, but I can’t complain about what I’ve got and the progress that has happened <3
I was going to wait until weigh and measure on Tuesday night to post this, but I couldn’t.
This is what almost 11 weeks of a shit ton of hard work, a level of dedication I didn’t know I had in me, an insane amount of love, support and encouragement, a lot of tears and frustrations, sweat, sore muscles, counting and calculating macros and guzzling water looks like.
While the scale hasn’t moved in almost 4 weeks, and it’s been hard, I have this. This is what the road to happiness and health looks like.
I did this and I am SO stinkin proud of myself. And I want more. I am nowhere near done yet.
Thank you to each and every one of you who likes my posts, who take the time to comment and tell me how amazing I look or how great I’m doing. For loving on me and building me up and for listening to me when I’m having a bad day and feeling like I’m getting nowhere. Some of you for the second time. Without the people I have doing all this and backing me, it would be so much harder. I want this for me but I also want to make y’all proud <3 <3 <3
Us Total Makeover Challengers were beyond spoiled yesterday and today. HUGE shout out to Sandra at Art of Hair Design for my hair, Karina and Bethany from Arbonne and Beauty by B for the glammed up and gorgeous make up, Cecile from Fire & Ice Salon for letting us get ready there and to Photo Art by Simpson for making the photo shoot amazing!!!!
I feel like a million bucks and am ready to show off my hard work at Friendly Mike’s tonight with some amazing people.
I got a quick sneak peek of a picture at the studio today and I can’t WAIT to see them all!!
Let’s talk NSV’s……….honestly, this is a bit tough for me.
When I did the Challenge 2 years ago, my weight sort of fell off per say. I definitely didn’t have 3 weeks in a row where I sat at the same weight. And yes, for those of you following my journey that means at last night’s weigh in, I didn’t lose a thing. I didn’t gain, but I didn’t lose either. I was sure this week there would be a change on the scale but no dice man. Not this time. I was sad, angry and frustrated. I came home and cried. I changed almost everything this week, and nothing.
When my friends started texting and asking how weigh in went, I didn’t even want to answer. Like, how do you say ‘I just did nothing again this week?’
I sent out 1 text and that was it. ‘Nothing again. For the 3rd fu*&@ng week.’ I knew I wouldn’t hear anything until the morning and I just wanted to go to bed and forget about the night.
I woke up to positivity, like I knew I would. ‘You need to stop focusing on a number. You’ve told me your clothes are fitting better than they used to…..you’ve come a long way. You can’t let something like this slow you down now.’
For a few seconds after reading the message I wanted to get mad. I wanted to scream. I thought I wanted someone to tell me that if I thought it was hard and I wanted to quit, I should. I knew deep down I didn’t really want to hear this things, but for a second the old, weaker me reared her head and I thought I did.
Instead, I was supported, encouraged and motivated <3
So this morning, after maybe having another cry, I feel like I will be ok. I will get this. It will all happen the way it’s supposed to. At whatever pace it needs to.
And my NSV? Aside from the ones listed on the picture above (because YES, all those HAVE been happening) – the other day I wore a jacket out, comfortably after having it sit in my closet since I got it 4 years ago. I was pumped when I tried it on and it fit, but I’m even more pumped now because it just proves it IS working.
Regardless of what that rat bastard scale says!
This might be a long post, and I may have touched on some of this before, but some of it is new, eye opening and I wanted to acknowledge it all. Every member of my tribe.
I have had a shitty week. Emotionally I have a lot going on and I am somewhat struggling to deal with things. I feel like these changes and this Challenge bring out all these emotions and I have to figure out how to navigate them.
I am not one to openly speak to a bunch of people about my problems, so I won’t go into details but I need/want to recognize the group of ladies I am lucky enough to be journey-ing with right now and a few others who made my week a bit better.
I shared something emotional in our private Facebook group because I just needed to get it out. Literally within seconds I felt like I had an army at my side. The texts, the posts, the phone calls were almost instantaneous. It was like no one else had any problems and they all rallied around mine to help me out. It was mind blowing. Not that I doubted I was journey-ing with a bunch of women who wouldn’t care; it was just so amazing. It made my heart happy and my soul feel good for a bit <3
My family & friends in general – their support and encouragement have been paramount in my success. I appreciate the love and positive words I get on a daily basis from all of you.
Ashley – your motivation and support in our little group are HUGE for me. I love checking in, seeing everyone else’s struggles and solutions and being accountable. I may not be as active in posting as I’d like to be, but I appreciate what you’ve set up for us all.
Stu & Rachel – My cousin messaged me last night and he and his lovely wife are giving me a treadmill…………A TREADMILL?!?! Thank you is not nearly enough!! For free and delivered to boot?!? I sure am lucky. Like ridiculously lucky. I can’t wait to start running.
Chris – You, man <3 Every day you motivate me. You make me feel like regardless of what the scale says, I’m enough. You push me and I love that. If I have a crappy day, you’re there. From motivational quotes that make me smile, to links for great articles on weight loss, to the hilarious Snaps, to introducing me to The Bounce. Thank you.
Tara – I’m glad we had the chat we did and cleared the air this morning, like 2 adults with zero negativity or anger. I can’t wait to sit down with you and learn who each other is. Keep your head up girl and thank you for being so supportive. You know I’m here if you need anything <3
As I sit here typing and thinking about weigh in tonight, I am smiling. I am smiling because I feel so supported by so many people in my life. And no matter how shitty my day or week is; I know I always have someone I can turn to.
Thank you doesn’t seem like enough for y’all, but from the bottom of my heart – THANK YOU <3
One of our challenges after last week’s meeting was to make a change in something. Mine was to kill it with my cardio this week. To up my elliptical time each day, and to be consistent. I blogged a few posts ago about my struggle with cardio and I am SO PROUD of myself this week!
I feel so accomplished and happy that I stuck with it and upped my time each day. It’s a real confidence booster to do that. I can’t wait for the next week to see what I am capable of. It’s all in your mindset – the deeper I get into this, the more I see that
Shout out to all the motivational quotes I read and to 105.1FM The Bounce – without some killer, old school hip hop, crushing goals like these are almost impossible!
More details on how you can help out our fundraiser!!!
We have 3 great ways for people to help us exceed our goal, have fun and make a healthy donation to 2 awesome LOCAL charities!
Burger & Beer Night at Chances Playtime – tickets are $25/person and include a burger/side/beverage AND a $5 Chances gaming voucher (please have valid ID to redeem). There will be some great prizes and baskets up for raffle and silent auction, a 50/50 draw and a few more surprises!!
Support Tickets – great if you live out of town but still want to support your friend/loved one in the Challenge. Tickets are $10/each and can be bought from any one of the Team members via etransfer. For each $10 ticket bought you’ll get 1 entry into an exclusive draw for Support Ticket holders only! The draw will be done on Facebook LIVE during our event and the prize is valued at $75! *prize will be mailed to winner and is valid in any Canadian province.
Save On Foods Contest – come by Save On Foods on Whatcom Road in Abbotsford on Friday, March 24th & Sunday, March 26th from 11am – 4pm both days and grab your tickets for a chance to win an amazing experience in Vancouver, BC. 1 night at the Pan Pacific Hotel in a Deluxe Harbour Room and 2 passes to the Vancouver Symphony Orchestra. Tickets are 1/$5, 3/$10 and 7/$20. These can be bought in person or via etransfer and will be available between now and April 1st at 7:30pm. The draw will be done at the end of our event on Saturday, April 1st and the winner will be notified by telephone or email no later than 12pm April 2nd.
Contact me on Facebook (Shannon Waters) if you have any questions or want in on this action!!
As part of The Apprentice segment of the Challenge, we have been tasked with planning and executing a successful fundraiser.
Team Dollars & Sense is holding our fundraiser to benefit the Shape Your World Society and the Abbotsford Food Bank’s Starfish Program.
Tickets are $25/person and include a burger (beef/chicken/veggie), side (fries/garden salad) and a beverage (hi ball/beer/wine/pop/water) and also include a $5 gaming voucher for each attendee.
We have some great prizes up for grabs (you DON’T want to miss these), there will be a 50/50 draw, a toonie auction and a couple of other fun games to play!!
We have a limited amount of tickets, so contact one of us right away to get in on the action.
If you’re unable to attend our event (and we’ll miss you), you can still help out these great causes if you’d like. We are selling SUPPORT TICKETS to our out of town friends and will have an amazing raffle prize JUST FOR YOU. Each support ticket is $10 and for every one you buy, your name will go into a draw for a pretty cool prize. The draw will be done LIVE on Facebook, during our event so you can still be a part of the night!!
Keep your eyes peeled for a few more surprises as we get closer to the night of the event and make sure you get your tickets before they’re gone!!
Click the links below to learn more about where the proceeds of the night are going.
Weigh In Night!!
I am growing to love Tuesdays. I get to see all the lovely Challenge Ladies, we always get to learn something cool and we get to see how our week was.
I had worked really hard the pervious week, including more cardio and a few 2 a day workouts. I was eagerly anticipating getting on the scale.
I weighed in exactly the same as last week. Talk about a bit discouraging. I know it should’t have been, but it was. I worked hard. I sweat a lot. I thought for sure I would see results.
It got me to thinking.
I’ve lived my whole life overweight and it’s been hard. Physically, mentally and emotionally. I could never shop with my girlfriends, or be comfortable in shorts, anything that required a bathing suit was completely off the table. I never really let people 100% in because I struggle with a huge fear of rejection. Because in my head I’ve always thought it’s easy to reject the fat girl. It’s always an easy out.
I am slowly (thanks to this Challenge) letting go of that mentality. Or at least, trying my best to.
I’m sure we all have a person. The one we text or call when anything good or bad happens. A friend who always seems to know what to say and when to say it. Or when to say nothing. Instinctively we want to hear their thoughts, get their input. Maybe you’ve known that person forever or maybe it’s a new friendship that is growing daily. Regardless of the amount of time they’ve been around – they’ve impacted you somehow and you’ve connected on a deeper level.
I have recently had the privilege of acquiring a new friend. Someone I share a ton of common interests with, who I can relate to on many levels and who has been a HUGE support and motivator for me every single day. Lately he’s been my person. And sure enough, when I sent that text about not loosing anything this week and being discouraged, he didn’t miss a beat and responded with ‘just because the number on the scale didn’t change, doesn’t mean there isn’t change happening’. He is my friend without any judgement. He knows more about me than a lot of my close friends because I feel safe. I believe we became friends at just the right time. I believe I was able to share things I’ve never shared before – my starting weight, my goals, my happiness and my defeat. Because I am changing. I am learning that no matter what the scale says, I am still an amazing person and there are amazing people out there who will love on me and accept me, no matter what <3
When I started the Challenge 9 weeks ago, I went to the gym the morning after the meet and greet. I got on the elliptical and completed 7 minutes. SEVEN. That was it. I legit couldn’t do anymore than that.
Since starting I have slowly been trying to increase that time. Each day I pushed myself a little further. Maybe only a minute; but further. For the last couple of weeks I have been doing 20 mins before I do weights and 15-20 mins after. One time, I lasted 34 minutes!!
On Sunday I woke up and felt crappy. I wanted to stay in bed, order stuffed french toast and not go to the gym. I definitely had no thoughts of going to the gym and crushing my elliptical time.
BUT I DID.
I got up, got dressed and went. And that was the result. 40 freaking consecutive sweaty minutes on the elliptical. Completed by yours truly!
I’m sorry, what? Who would have thought that I could do that? Not me, that’s for sure!
I can do it. I did do it. I AM doing it.
You know when you see something and it sends chills down your arms? When something seems to reach out from the screen and grab you?
9 weeks ago I don’t know that something like this would have spoken to me the way it did when I saw it today.
Honestly, I never would have thought those things to be true about myself. But today something is different. I am stronger. I am more confident. I am prouder. I believe in myself. Gone are so many of the insecurities I struggled with before. Some are still lingering, but I’m working on them, and that’s better than not working on them
I am so focused and driven and want this so badly. Not necessarily the win (I mean, I totally DO want that, don’t get me wrong) but this LIFE. The way I FEEL. I want that the most. I’ve had a taste of what consistently making good choices and regular exercise feels like and I want more! I’m almost ashamed it took me so long, but maybe I needed to learn on my own. I can’t believe the changes and can’t wait to see what 9 more weeks will bring. And what about 9 months? Can you imagine?
Weigh & Measure Last Night!!
It went well. It actually went amazing! I wasn’t expecting more than a pound, maybe 2. I was definitely not expecting to leave level 300……
BUT I DID!!!!!
I got on that scale and it stopped at 299.2lbs! We had measurements again too, and I was not down as much as I feel like I am down in that department. I did lose another inch, and I feel amazing, so I am beyond good with that. I am consistently loosing weight and inches and what I’m doing is manageable. I’m so proud!
I woke this morning with some sort of drive in me. I want more. I want to do better. I can get more, and I can do better, I just have to go get it. I feel like one of my fellow contestants Bonnie and I were on the same page this morning so we hit the gym together at 8:30am.
Home by about 10am and something inside of me said ‘get it’ …….I sent a quick text to a girlfriend in Chilliwack and we set out to do a quick 2km loop at Mt Thom……..except we didn’t factor in the weather. 5 inches of snow was not something we were interested in. At all. We settled on a nice 4km stroll along the dyke and dang was it pretty!
It was nice to catch up, it felt great to be outside and enjoy the sunshine <3
First of all, I can’t believe that I’m just putting that number out here. Second of all, I can’t believe that’s where I started. That’s an entire lifetime of crappy choices, eating feelings and not wanting to address the issues. It’s yo-yoing for more than half of my life, trying the latest fads and even starving myself.
One of the first big goals I set for myself throughout my journey is to get under 300lbs. I didn’t care if I weighed in at 299.9lbs, I just wanted that to be my first milestone. Last week I hit 20lbs down and I can’t tell you how good that felt. How good I feel.
Recently I was invited to join a group on Facebook of thousands of other people on their respective fitness journeys. The things I have learned there have been monumental for me. People have been telling me for a long time that it’s not necessarily about the number on the scale and I would always kind of roll my eyes. I was always focused on the number. Yesterday I put on a pair of leggings I bought years ago AND THEY FIT!!!! The funny thing is, I got on the scale and I am up from the 303.4 I was on Tuesday night at weigh in.
My take away from this?
While I may in fact be up this week, I feel SO much better. I feel slimmer, I feel stronger and I am wearing smaller clothes. I am killing my workouts and making that a priority and I am feeling accomplished. I can feel muscles growing where I didn’t have any before and I can feel my strength and endurance getting better. Slowly, but surely. Maybe I won’t be down in weight and I’ll have to wait another week or 2 to hit that first milestone and be under 300lbs, but I am learning to measure my journey in more than just pounds lost and that is worth so much more.
For the last 4 months I have been holding onto a lot of anger, hurt, confusion, dissapointment and resentment. I ‘thought’ I had let it go, I ‘thought’ I was over it, but this morning I woke up early and realized I wasn’t. I also realized that I needed to be.
I don’t know that I will ever get the answers I want, or if I will ever have the clarity I desire and I needed to let that s&#t go. I can’t believe it took me this long to realize what I needed to do, but I’m glad I finally did.
I thought for a bit about how this event had impacted my life, the friendships that grew stronger because of it, and the friendships I lost because of it. I thought about what I wanted to say and who I wanted to say it to. I composed a text message and I probably over analyzed it before I had the courage to hit send. But you know what? I felt 8000 times better in my heart as soon as I sent it. The second I saw it had been delivered; I felt relief. I felt lighter.
Like I said before, I may not even get a response, but I said what I needed to say. I apologized for the way I acted, I feel better having done so and I am letting it go <3
Tuesday Night Weigh In Recap
Tuesdays are always quite the day. I try my hardest to be calm, cool and collected but it never works. I always anxiously arrive too early and have to sit in the parking lot for like 10 minutes before it’s even acceptable to go inside and wait.
This Tuesday was no different.
In I went, off came my layers of clothing and on the scale I got……..
Down again! BOOM! Another 3.6lbs!
That’s a 7 week total of 20lbs!! 20 freaking lbs!!
I am SO proud of myself. I can’t wait for more. I am motivated and I feel so much stronger than I did before. Physically and mentally.
I am excited for this next round of the Challenge – it’s fundraiser time!!!! I’ll be posting details soon and hope y’all can make it out to support myself and the amazing team I am working with!
I saw this posted on Instagram the other day, and it struck a chord with me. In me. So much of this process is about slowly changing, integrating and morphing new routine into our lives and then it clicked. Not all of it is slow. Some of it is happening instantaneously. All around me. In me.
7 weeks ago I wouldn’t have made the choices I make today. There’s no way. If I was making these instantaneous choices 7 weeks ago, 7 months ago, 7 years ago, I wouldn’t be here, blogging about it. The choice to park further away, to reach for the water, to read labels when shopping. They are all small, instant things I have noticed myself doing without thought. Naturally.
And while some of it isn’t coming as smoothly, or as naturally, or as quickly as the rest, I am working on it. I am working on making myself the priority. If I can commit to that, it will all fall into place <3
Ain’t that the truth <3
Today was a busy, but amazing day.
I woke up early, spent 90 mins at the gym and worked HARD. I felt so good (sore, but a good sore) afterwards. Home for a shake and a shower and then off to the Pet Expo we went. We must have spent 3hrs walking around, watching demonstrations and taking it all in. Came home and went for a quick tan at Fabutan (thank you Dawn) and then did some serious relaxing. After the race and the announcing yesterday, I was exhausted. My sister stopped by with my nephews for a quick visit, which is always nice.
I just walked in the door from a fantastically grounding restorative yoga class (thank you Kara) and I am almost ready for bed.
The day of the Amazing Race/Top 15 announcing!!!!
I woke up nervous and anxious and super excited. I had spent about 5hrs the evening before preparing as best I could for the race. Our costumes were on point, I had a pretty good route mapped out and we were ready. The girls started arriving at my place and we got ready and headed over to Phoenix Lounge to wait to start.
Lots of excitement around the venue and soon the race was under way!
I don’t think I could have hand picked a better team. The Spice Girls (not the band; we were actual spices – see pic below) were on a mission and we worked together like a very well oiled machine. Everyone had a role and played a big part in us completing all the checkpoints and questions in the passport – including the bonus ones! We raced back to Phoenix and were told we finished 3rd.
I knew there was a chance we may finish in a different spot as maybe us or another team had answered something incorrectly or missed something. I think we arrived back at about 12:45pm and I swear, that was the longest 2hrs of waiting in my life!!
Jenny and Trish started announcing things…….no gain awards, top blogger, challengers choice ect and I couldn’t focus. I wanted to know how we did in the race, but more importantly, did I make the Top 15????
Best costume……..3 way tie and WE ARE ONE OF THE TEAMS!!!! WHOOP!! I put a lot of work into our costume, so I was pretty jazzed. And we WON!!!!!!!! Shortly after that, it was time…..AND WE WON THE RACE!!!! Team Spice Girls, AKA The Wolfpack had done it! Amazing!!!
After forever, it was time for the Top 15. Names got called and I remember clapping and cheering and then I heard it – Shannon Waters!!!!! I made it, I did it, I was into the next round!!!
I am thrilled for the next segment, what it will bring, who I will bond with, what I will learn. I am so thankful to not only be on this journey for another 6 weeks (at least) but to just have this chance and to have been given this gift. The longer I stay in the Challenge and the more I learn; the more I can see how desperately I needed this <3
Shout out to every single human that voted, shared, liked, messaged, spoke about, supported, took motivation from and encouraged me during this voting period. You Guys Rock! My heart is full from the amount of LOVE I’ve been shown and I am so thankful to you all. If every any of y’all need me for anything like this; I’m all yours. I hope I’ve made you proud and worthy of the votes Much love and thank you <3
Let’s talk about last night’s weigh and measure
Last night was the final weigh and measure for us as a group of 30. Technically it was the 1st weigh and measure in Segment 2. Aside from the Amazing Race coming up this weekend, last night was the last time all of us would be in a room together as a whole <3
I stuck to my plan all week and got in all my workouts. My home scale was showing I was down about 1lb and that had me bummed out a little. I got to the meeting and was probably 3rd or 4th in line to get on the scale. I stripped down to my weigh in clothes and stepped on the scale. I literally had to look 3 times! It said I was down just over 14lbs!!!!! What the actual frick!! I was shaking, I felt tears well up in my eyes – I was SO SHOCKED! I was happy, so unbelievably happy! My weight was recorded and I got my inches measured. Down another 3.5, not too bad. But still sitting in the back of my head was ‘how the heck did I pull a number like that?’Like, that’s actually insane.’ I ate my dinner and still couldn’t shake the excitement but also that weird felling something was off. Finally after almost an hour I had to get back on the scale………..and what do you know??? The number had changed. Drastically. I was down 1.4lbs. I am pretty sure I proceeded to get on and off that scale 76 times before finally believing it! How could it have been so off? Why? Whyyyyyyyyyyy (a la Nancy Kerrigan). I wanted to cry or get mad. And then something clicked in my head. Something we talked about at the Real Me seminar……what was the point of getting upset or mad? Who would that help? It wasn’t anyones fault a machine screwed up. And – I lost weight again this week! For the 5th week in a row I LOST WEIGHT. And I am not angry or upset about that. At all
My 5 week totals are pretty impressive to me as well: 16.4LBS and 20 inches – GONE!
I am looking forward to the Amazing Race on Saturday and to seeing who the Top 15 Challengers will be. I am excited for either a spot in that Top 15, or a chance to win my way back as the Wild Card. I’m nowhere near done yet.
Keep your everything crossed for me!!
Just wanted to touch on friendship quickly.
As the first segment of the Challenge is winding down and we find ourselves constantly asking our friends and family to vote for us and share our posts – I wanted to do a mass shout out to my friends.
I consider myself quite rich and very blessed in this department. While I don’t see some of them for weeks or months or sometimes years, I know we have built a solid relationship and a mutual understanding with each other and regardless of the amount of time that passes, we know there is always love. Heck, some of my closest friends I haven’t even met in real life yet. But the love is still there. We know that no matter what we can call on that person and they will love on us, support us and walk with us through any journey we may be on.
I have friends I haven’t seen in I don’t even know how long continuously sharing and posting and supporting me. I really don’t know that you all know what that truly means to me. My heart is full and I am proud and honoured that you chose me to be your friend and that you believe in me enough to support me and annoy your own friends and family by relentlessly sharing my posts!
Lastly, I wanted to give a HUGE shout out to my Wolfpack for not hesitating and jumping in with me in the Amazing Race on Saturday. I am stoked to run this race with you ladies and I can’t wait to celebrate Em’s birthday and (fingers crossed) me moving on to the Top 15 afterwards! Sam, Christy, Emily, Justine & Erin, you 5 gals have been anchors for me in the last few months and I love and appreciate y’all more than I can show <3
The Real Me.
We had the privilege of being a part of The Real Me seminar this past weekend. We dove deep into ourselves, learned about forgiveness, our mission, and SO much more. Having done this seminar 2 years ago I didn’t know what (if anything) I would take away from it. Boy was I wrong!!! I am in such a different place right now and I am SO thankful and happy I got the chance to do this again. I have never been a huge ‘sharer’ so I was anxious and nervous about having to open up and be vulnerable with 60 ladies I didn’t know that well. Well let me tell you, my soul obviously needed some sort of release. I took so much away from this experience, I feel so cared about and supported by not only the few ladies that were in my sharing groups, but by the group as a whole. It’s amazing how connected you feel to complete strangers after an event like this <3 I feel lighter and my head feels clearer and I’m so thankful!
So it’s just after 1pm and today has already been a day. A day where emotionally the old me would have stayed in bed, eaten take out and done nothing. I went to bed on such a high last night after opening day of voting, I didn’t see waking up an emotional mess a thing that would happen. But it did. Did it ever.
I can’t even really grasp what exactly has made me this emotional, but here I sit, surrounded by emotions. Maybe it’s because I know what we will be digging into tonight and tomorrow at the Real Me, maybe it’s because I feel stuck, maybe it’s because I’m frustrated. Maybe I won’t figure it out and tomorrow will be a better day. It’s odd how sometimes a person can feel so alone even though they are surrounded by copious amounts of love and support. Like why did I bawl my eyes out during Grey’s Anatomy this morning and how dare Andra Day make me cry at the GYM when all she was doing was telling me to Rise Up……..Isn’t that song supposed to be motivational?!?
Alas, slowly but surely, I am not the old me. Yes, I stayed in bed a little later than normal. And then I got up. I made a shake, I took my vitamins and drank my water. I put my gym clothes on and I went and worked out some of those emotions.
And I’m SUPER proud of myself for that because 32 days ago, I wouldn’t have.
Voting opened this afternoon and I am legit blown away by all the support I am getting. My friends and family have been amazing, but what is even more crazy is the support and votes I am getting because YOU ALL are sharing and spreading the word! I have been getting messages and comments and votes from complete strangers. I am SO dedicated to making y’all proud and am going to kill every workout. Thank you. From the bottom of my heart. Keep on doing what you’re doing and helping me stay near the top of the group (where you see my picture is the spot I am currently ranked in VOTES) for the entire 7 days!!
I had an awesome day that included a job interview (fingers crossed), grocery shopping with my favourite human, a little prep and an almost solid 90 mins at the gym tonight.
I am excited for tomorrow and Saturday. We are lucky enough to get to participate in a seminar called The Real Me. If you have a second, Google it. It touches on forgiveness and letting go. Blame and self doubt. SO many important things that as women especially, we seem to put on the back burner. For me when I did this 2 years ago; this weekend was a turning point for me emotionally. It played (and still does) a huge part in me recognizing MY self worth and purpose <3 <3 <3
One last time before bed – THANK YOU ALL xoxoxoxo
Tuesday. Valentine’s Day. Weigh & Measure Day
I went to bed on Monday night feeling slightly defeated (my home scale wasn’t showing me what I wanted) and slightly anxious for Tuesday evening. I had just spent the last 6 days at the gym, pushing myself and was on top of my water and food intake. I just wanted my numbers to reflect the work.
Somewhere throughout the night or maybe in the morning bustle of school and work departures I decided that this Tuesday, this Valentine’s Day, this Weigh & Measure Day was going to be all about me. When the house was quiet I went back to bed and slept until 11am. I watched Teen Mom. I talked to my best friend on the phone for over an hour and we laughed and laughed and laughed. I sent so much love to another dear friend as she celebrated her birthday. I bought new candles, I did meal planning and I made a grocery list. I blow dried and straightened my hair and I put on makeup. I felt amazing. And while I was still slightly nervous and anxious about the numbers; it hit me. I FELT amazing. My mood was better, my skin is clearer, I am sleeping better <3
Fast forward to meeting time and………………….what the heck was I freaking out for?!?!? I am down another 4.2LBS! IN A WEEK. That puts me at 15LBS and 16.5 inches down in 4 weeks. That’s crazy! Just goes to show that hard work does pay off and the number on the scale isn’t the only factor. 16.5 inches – no wonder my clothes fit looser.
HUGE shout out to all my friends who watched and shared and commented on my first 2 Facebook LIVE posts! I am always not into speaking publicly until I do it…….so there will be more to come! Keep your eyes peeled on my page as I will be posting a little heads up about an hour before I go LIVE!
I have a busy day ahead of me today. First of all we were GIFTED tanning minutes from Dawn at FabuTan in Abbotsford and I am HOPING to sneak off there for some sun therapy, because I’m not vacationing somewhere tropical like Florida right now. Then I’m off to the gym and I have my makeover at Shopper’s plus we start the Real Me Seminar this evening! Busy, busy busy!
My mood has been off the past week or so. I’ve been killing it at the gym, my food and water intake have been good – I just don’t feel right. My mind is racing. I know I’ve got a lot on my plate, but I can’t seem to pinpoint it. I guess maybe this is all part of change?
Thankfully I have some amazing people in my life who check in on me, who keep me accountable and who lift me up when I need it <3
Tomorrow night is weigh in and I am still not seeing a change in the scale……I am getting nervous and hope that what I’ve been doing is enough. And I shouldn’t say that, what I’m doing IS enough, I have changed what I eat, I feel better and I am losing weight. The lingering question is more is this enough to make it to the next round? My clothes fit better, my skin is clear and I am sleeping better. That in itself should be enough.
Next week I am personally challenging myself NOT to step on the scale. For an entire 7 days……it’s stressing me out just writing that. I need to learn to not focus on the number!
Get your voting fingers ready, friends! Voting starts on the 17th and runs for 5 days! I’ll need as many votes as y’all can send my way!!
That’s a funny thing for me to see considering I woke up this morning and felt mediocre. The second I opened my eyes I could feel I was in a ‘mood’. I am struggling with things not progressing how I want them to, or how I think they should. I am struggling with not working (it’s been a looooong 3.5 months). I am struggling with doubt about so many different things. I am struggling because I don’t feel as connected to the group as I should and because I am not a fan of working out in a group setting. I know most of these struggles are managable and can be worked through, but this morning I had to give myself a pep talk<3
So I had my cry, I wiped my tears and I am going to make my shake and head to the gym. I will put my hair in a bun, put on some gangster rap and I will choose joy. Instead of lounging around all day I will crush some weights and then some cardio. I will sweat. I am so thankful I’ve been given this chance to change my health and my mind; I have to take advantage of that.
Looooong day travelling home. Flight was delayed a bit and by the time I got to Abbotsford it was time to head to the meeting for weigh in.
I stepped on the scale and I wasn’t up!!!!! I was only down 0.2lb, but I wasn’t up! My goal throughout the Challenge is to not have any gain weeks. I mean, sometime it will happen, but it’s one of the small goals I’ve set for myself and I really hope to achieve it. I didn’t stay for the meeting and didn’t participate in the trip to Save On or Shoppers (even though I really wanted to), instead I went home and spent the evening with my daughter who I’d missed very much while I was away!
I really am feeling very blessed right now in my life – I have a lot of people supporting me and helping me stay accountable. Some are close by, some I talk to everyday, some I haven’t spoken to in a while and some live too far away but they all have my back. I get encouraging messages and texts from people who are motivated by what I’m doing and who are now hitting up the gym themselves and I love it. With all the crazy that goes on in life sometimes, it’s nice to know who is in your corner <3
Here’s the rundown on my 4 days in Vegas! I had an amazing time, tired to make the best choices and still wanted to be able to enjoy myself. For me this is about finding balance. A balance where I can still be healthy and still indulge a bit for special occasions.
Saturday evening arrival was great. We went out for dinner and some drinks (whiskey & water for me) and walked around the strip. Bed was fairly early in anticipation of Sunday.
For me, Super Bowl Sunday is like Christmas. It’s one of my favourite days of the year. My team was playing, I was in Vegas and it couldn’t get any better. I didn’t work out Sunday morning, but throughout that day did log 17kms on my step tracker. The party was amazing, I was mindful of what I ate and I really enjoyed myself. And how about that comeback?!?!?!?! I was one happy camper! After the party I did some celebrating and gambling on Fremont St
Monday morning I was up bright and early at about 8am (surprisingly) and my sister in law, her sister and I headed down to the fitness centre at the hotel. I got in a quick, sweaty 30 mins on the elliptical and it felt amazing!
Monday night we met up with my Mom & Step Dad for a lovely dinner at a place across the road from the Bellagio Fountains called Hexx. They are retired and travelling, so it was nice to visit with them and enjoy a great meal. Didn’t stay out too late as we were flying home the next morning!
We arrive home Tuesday just in time for weigh in. While I am nervous, I am happy with my choices over the weekend and I really had a great time!
It’s been a few days but I’ve been BUSY!!! Between gym time, meal prep, being a Mom, running a household, getting ready for vacation and now this snow – I feel like I haven’t had time to blog.
I get to go to Vegas today!!!! We fly out in a couple of hours (as long as the snow doesn’t have other plans). I am super excited!!
I was at the gym this morning when the doors opened, I walked into the She’s Fit section and…….it was empty! Not only was my favourite elliptical waiting for me, it was quiet and calming and relaxing. I don’t mind at all when the gym is full, this was just something new and I quite enjoyed it Crushed my workout in about 50 mins and I’m home, drinking my Herbalife shake. I have learned I am a morning work out person. I love fasted cardio! Some people aren’t into it, but I feel great during and after. It’s a great kick start to my day, and leaves me a TON of free time later on.
I will try to blog while away, I will definitely be hitting up the gym at the hotel! Keep your eyes peeled for a selfie or 2!!
I had every intention of blogging last night after the meeting, but I went to bed right away and slept like a baby all night long!
Our meeting last night was awesome! Thank you to Kim and Heather for being so real and honest with us and for opening up and sharing their stories. It was amazing to see all the ladies come out of their comfort zones and accept compliments. It was emotional, uplifting and made me feel very supported. For me, it’s so easy to toss out compliments to people – I like the way I feel when I know my words can brighten someones day, but to sit there and have a room of people do nothing but compliment you is a completely different ball game! THANK YOU <3
Weigh and measure last night…….insert drumroll here…….. I am down another 4LBS this week, bringing my 2 week total to 10.6LBS! Say whaaaaaaat?!?!?!?! On top of that, we measured our inch loss (something we’ll do every 2 weeks) and I am down 11.5 inches! I had to calculate the numbers twice because I was blown away! My daughter said to me before I left for the meeting that I was starting to look a bit slimmer and I kind of brushed it off not thinking that was the case. I was hoping for a couple of pounds and maybe 4-5 inches.
I’m so proud of myself and even more motivated now!!!
Ugh, I’ve finally been hit by whatever flu has been floating around. I made it to the gym for about an hour on Sunday afternoon, but I’ve been down since then. Thankfully, I woke up this morning feeling much better.
This afternoon I am off to Chilliwack to pick up a sponsor cheque (thanks again, Mountain Pacific Mechanical) and have a phone interview for an Admin position this morning. Keeping my fingers crossed it will be a good fit for me and they like me!
Weigh in is tonight – and while I’d LOVE another 6.6lbs, I don’t know that that is realistic. My goal is to have a loss each week, to not have a gain. I will update tonight when I get home!
What a glorious day! Hope everyone is out enjoying the weekend! I met with Gina today and talked about ways to reduce my sugar intake and I will be working on fine tuning that in the coming weeks. Happy to be back on shakes and excited to incorporate Herbalife protein powder into my routine as well!
Spent a good hour at the gym doing some cardio (gosh, I am LOVING the elliptical) and lifted some weights. I’m also really enjoying that. Came home and had a delicious snack of Greek yogurt, fruit and hemp hearts. It’s mind blowing to me the difference I am feeling in myself. I’m so thankful I’ve been given this second chance.
As a household we are loving all the new things we are eating. Yams, sweet potatoes, spaghetti squash. All things I would have never bought before that we have tried and loved! It’s funny what you like if you just try.
I am feeling great, my skin is glowing and I have a ton of energy. I feel like all 3 of us might be walking with a spring in our step
I keep seeing more and more familiar faces at the gym and it makes my heart happy! I am so glad we are all embracing this gift and working it!
I got a sponsor for my blog page – THANK YOU Mountain Pacific Mechanical, and their information will be up by the middle of next week!
Today is my rest day. i spent it hanging out with my daughter and catching up on housework + laundry. Woooohooooo!!!
Did some research as we are going to Las Vegas for Super Bowl weekend and I wanted to look into our hotel gym policy, the menu for the party we are going to and a few other things. I know that if I stick to the plan I’ve created, and eat wisely, I should have a good week. At least I am somewhat prepared. I am a bit worried about having a few too many wobbly pops (especially since MY team is playing in the big game), but I will just keep reminding myself of why I am on this journey.
I LOST 6.6LBS!!!!
That’s a pretty solid number if you ask me! I know all weeks won’t be like this; heckI may gain at some point, but it’s a great platform. I am so happy and proud of myself! Everyone had a great week in my eyes.
Our meeting tonight was great, we had 2 speakers come in. Kara from Parallel Yoga stopped by and kind of grounded me. I felt somewhat disconnected from yoga as I’d only been once, but her words made me comfortable and I will aim to get there again!
Katrina also came and talked to us about social media. She was very knowledgable and had some great tips and insight for us. We will be relying on social media a LOT throughout this Challenge, so it was nice to hear from someone who speaks that language so well
Weigh in tonight!!!! I’ll pop in and post my numbers later this evening!!
Gym time is becoming more enjoyable now. I like the burn and the sweat. I enjoy feeling accomplished and being able to stay on the elliptical longer each time I go.
I would like to sit down with someone and come up with a custom work out plan. i want to lift weights and I eventually want to start to run again. Once I get my cardio time up, maybe I will start interval running on the treadmill.
Ended today with a lovely walk in the sunshine with my daughter
I am getting excited for the Amazing Race and for the Real Me seminar we get to participate in. The last time I did this Challenge, the Real Me weekend was an eye opener for sure. The things I took away from that weekend are priceless. I hope everyone loves it as much as I do!
Another round at the gym this morning and a trip to the grocery store……who knew fruits and veggies would go so quickly in our house!!
Our challenges this week are to drink our appropriate amounts of water, hit our protein goals and to do a 3 day trial of Herbalife shakes that were graciously given to us by Gina and Mallory – THANK YOU BOTH.
I used Herbalife products during my time in the Challenge 2 years ago and knew how I would feel and what they would do for me, so I was excited! I had used them off and on over the last year, but never consistently and never hand in hand with all the rest of it (exersice/food tracking/water intake ect) I’m thrilled to be back on them full force again!
Tuesday night is creeping up on us quickly!
I went into Parallel Yoga today for a class. I was nervous; I didn’t know if I cold ‘do’ yoga….. Well, I did it, and I LOVED it! It may not be the class for me, but there are others I will try and I will find something that works for me. I still felt great leaving the studio and I am excited to go back again <3
Shout out to Kara and the team at Parallel Yoga – THANK YOU for the gift of unlimited classes!!
I admit, I felt a bit discouraged this morning when I got up. I was sore from yesterday at the gym but knew that would pass. A Herbalife shake for breakfast and off to the gym I went.
Great workout, and the staff at Club 16 are phenomenal. So supportive and invested in us.
Looking forward to putting in work this week and seeing how our first weigh in goes!!!
Day 1 back at the gym. WOW. I am out of shape. That was tough, but it also felt so good afterwards. The more I go, the better I will feel!!!
I have some goals I’d like to crush and I have to work hard to get to them, but I will.
I learned before how important meal prep is, how it’s so easy to grab something unhealthy and just put it in my mouth. After the gym my daughter and I hit up the grocery store and bought our supplies. About an hour later our fridge was stocked for success! What a good feeling and a huge help in making good decisions when it comes to food.
We had the Meet & Greet last night. It was awesome and even though I knew what I was getting into, it was still a bit over whelming.
It was nice to see some familiar faces and meet some of the ladies who will be taking this crazy ride with me!
Looking forward to registering at Club 16 tomorrow morning and maybe later on this week popping into Parallel Yoga to see how I like that.
HUGE thanks to ALL the sponsors this year – we are a lucky bunch of ladies to be receiving SO many gifts!
2 years ago I was lucky enough to have been chosen for the Total Makeover Challenge. I loved every second of it. I had never pushed myself that hard, and I was getting results! I made it all the way to the Finale and placed 5th. I dropped 52lbs and SO many inches! I had been given the tools to succeed; I just needed to not let them get rusty.
Fast-forward to 2 years later – I struggled the whole time to balance home/family/work/friends/gym ect and slowly started to go back to my old habits because let’s face it, when someone else makes the food (take out/drive thru/pre packaged crap) it’s 1000 times easier. Gym visits became less frequent and eventually stopped all together. The tools became rusted and forgotten and the pounds crept back on. In that 2 years I gained back 32 of the 52lbs I lost.
I knew I needed to get back in the groove; I just didn’t.
3 months ago I was let go from my job. A job I absolutely LOVED. There was no real reason given to me, other than “it’s just not working out anymore”. I was blindsided and devastated. I was sad; I felt like I wasn’t contributing to our family, I was home alone all day. It was tough.
At some point during my sadness I saw an ad for this year’s Total Makeover Challenge and it sparked something in me. I remembered how good I felt, how much support the fellow contestants gave me, how truly happy I was during that time – so I applied. I have always said the first application I sent in 2 years ago was the BEST $30 I’ve ever spent, so why not try again? Honestly, I didn’t know if I’d even get a chance. Would they let me do it again? Would people see that as an unfair advantage? Then I saw the win-to-get-in post and I knew that was going to be my ticket. I shared it on my personal Facebook page and the support and encouragement I received from my friends and family was AMAZING! When I got the call saying I got in I was told I had won the spot because of the shares and comments on my post! So THANK YOU ALL! I may not be here without you <3
I’m looking forward to jumping into this full force and am going to take away whatever I can from this (except LBS, I am losing those and I am NOT taking them back!)
Thank you all for reading and following me on this crazy ride!!!